Hard and Worrying Recovery Process

[Irish Lad 34]

I'm 19 days post-op. I've been left fully deflated. Swelling and bruising is all mostly gone and was never much of a serious issue.

I've had the penis pointed up for nearly 3 weeks and I'm fed up with that.

But now what's worrying me is I have less girth now than what I had 2 weeks ago. It's mostly shrunk at the base. It also just generally feels so plastic and artificial, not meaty at all like a normal penis. The base of my penis has a worse looking shape and a good deal less girth in it now than it did 2 weeks ago.

I'm due to be cleared for cycling when I see the surgeon again on Thursday and it couldn't come quicker. All this lying around with my hands tied around my back like this has been exhausting. I'm very eager to cycle now to try and regain shape and size. I'm down a good bit of length, girth and the shape is not looking nice at this stage. I'll be devastated if it does not dramatically improve for the better.