on the upside i'm cautiously optimistic about the long term. ultimately i expect to heal fully and even though i'm still in mourning over the size i lost permanently during years of ed prior to surgery, i'm hoping the implant is appropriately sized and will eventually give me back most if not all of whatever potential i have left

there are three issues i'm dealing with now. first is just having to deal 24/7 with a partial stiffy. once i can leave my gun in the holster when i'm not using it my life will be a lot easier. second, i feel psychologically ready to start cycling a little but i'm having problems because the skin in my lower scrotum is now extremely thick in places and it's hard to get a good grip on things. i'm guessing the thickening might be sediment from all the blood that drained in there that my body hasn't been able to clear out yet. once again i can only wait and hope this improves over time. and last, urination. the first day i had an overpowering urge to piss every 20-30 minutes all day and all night and could only manage a few spasmotic squirts during each episode. i didn't experience what i would describe as pain in the classic sense, it's more like the normal sensation of urine flowing thru my urethra magnified 1000 times. very intense! and with my flag at continuous half-mast i have to use my shower stall and rinse when i'm done. things have improved since the then but i still need to go every hour or two. I assume the frequency of need is due to pressure on my bladder from the reservoir and, like everything else, will improve over time.
patience patience patience ;