Discovernew wrote:AntonS wrote:Day 42 post-surgery:
Today is day 32 of cycling my Titan, twice a day for an hour. Sometimes a little longer. I pump it up completely and start doing Perito exercises. Afterward, it softens a little, and I can do another 3-4 pumps. I pump like this for about 3-4 times over the course of an hour. Finally, I do a couple more mini-pumps. I wait 2-3 minutes and deflate the implant.
Today is the first day I've stopped taking ketoprofen, but I still continue to put half a Ketorol tablet under my tongue at night. I also finished taking Opti-Man sports vitamins from Nutricion today, which I started taking two weeks before surgery and continued for 41 days after surgery.
There are days when there's almost no pain, and then there are days, like yesterday, when the pain is so bad it's painful to walk. The main pain is in the shaft itself, near the tube leading to the reservoir, and after the implant is released, the pain occurs in the right side of the anus, where the right extender is located. The pain that woke me up at night has gone away. I'm also pain-free in the morning.
But overall, my condition immediately after the surgery was better in the first few days than it is now, in that I could take hour-long walks outside. Now I try to walk outside, but it causes pain and sometimes sharp shooting pains here and there.
The swelling in the right side of my scrotum hasn't completely gone down, and I think it's persisting for so long because I'm constantly pumping with my right hand.
The swelling of the surgical canal at the left base of my penis, through which the surgeon cut the scars, hasn't gone down yet, but it's lessened. It still pinches the left cylinder, causing folds to form on either side when deflated. When pumped, a small indentation is also slightly visible on the left side at the base, but it's not particularly critical. I really hope the swelling in the canal goes away.
The tube that leads to the reservoir runs right next to the base of my penis, and when I cum, it feels like it's catching the right cylinder a little, but that's also not critical.
The pump has become significantly smoother, but it now makes a noise when pumping, which wasn't there at first. It actually hums like a goose. But if you pump while slowly squeezing the pump, the noise is almost imperceptible. Moreover, lying down also makes less noise than standing up. I start with about 30 pumps. Then, during cycling for an hour, I add another 10-12.
Regarding deflation of the implant, it's a nightmare! I knew before the surgery that the one-touch system at Coloplast doesn't work, which, by the way, all the surgeons who work with Coloplast carefully keep quiet about. But I didn't think deflating the Titan would be so difficult. I hold down the deflation button and simultaneously squeeze the cylinders. If I don't squeeze the cylinders, but simply hold the button, the fluid flows out a little and stops at a certain point. You still have to squeeze pretty hard. But do you think that's all? Of course not! After the fluid supposedly returns to the reservoir, I swing my penis back and forth to refill it with the fluid still remaining in the proximal part. And then I have to press and hold the deflation button on the pump again, which, fortunately, I have no trouble finding, thanks to my surgeon, as the pump is positioned very conveniently. And I have to repeat this three or even four times. Then, press once to lock the valve in the pump. This takes forever.
After this, the penis sticks out slightly downward and forward. It doesn't hang naturally like an amnesiac. Only after about half an hour or an hour does it hang more naturally downward, but still slightly forward, which was always my natural position before. Hiding a Titan from a girl is simply impossible due to this. I don't know how some people here write that they manage to hide the presence of a Titan. I think all these people are simply Coloplast agents. Although, I personally know guys who have been successfully hiding the presence of a Titan for a long time.
Today, a friend of mine, who received LGX in April from my surgeon, sent me a video of his implant deflating and the appearance of his penis afterward. It's like night and day compared to Coloplast. He presses the button on the ms-pump, releases it almost immediately, and his penis goes down on its own. Finally, he only squeezes the remaining fluid out of the cylinders with his hand for 1-2 seconds. Basically, the Titan's deflation is killing me!
I found a video on YouTube that shows you need to press the deflation button gently, then lower it and squeeze your penis with your hand. The valve will remain open the entire time. After the deflation is complete, give one mini-pump to close the valve.
https://youtu.be/L47-bomE8Lo?si=2WK36mGISH_6WI7w
I just tried it today for the first time, and it worked. But it's still slower than holding the button down.
Now, about the penis itself.
When pumped up, it looks like a shovel. It's swollen even wider, and when I fully inflate it, it actually takes on the appearance of a surfboard. After 41 days, I've regained my full girth, which is now 16 cm (6.3 inches) with blood. The length hasn't increased as much, only 0.5 cm (0.2 inches). Now it's 15.3 cm (6.02 inches). But if I bend my penis forward slightly and measure the length, it's 16 cm (6.3 inches). I press the ruler into my skin a little, but not too much; it doesn't reach my pubic bone.
With blood, my Titan looks like a killing machine! It really does look powerful! A powerful, thick penis. I dread to think what would have happened if I hadn't lost the length. The guy who sent me a video of himself deflating an LGX today, after seeing a photo of my penis, said I have a penis like a horse's. Another guy with an LGX, after seeing my photo, said it was a nutcracker and that it was dangerous to cross paths with me. Let me emphasize again that an inflated Titan with blood filling it really does look impressive.
Perhaps I'll upload a couple of photos later.
But that's all there is to it.
I don't want to deflate it, because after deflating it, it turns into an unnatural thing with hard angles inside that press on the tissue from the inside and cause pain. I deflate it, squeeze it, and feel how this damn hard Bioflex with its folds begins to press on the tissue from the inside. Immediately after I let go, my penis feels like something incomprehensible with dents and protrusions at the base. I'm sure this is because one of the cylinders is compressed by the postoperative canal on the left. But then the folds gradually begin to straighten out on their own, and the penis takes on a completely natural appearance. When my penis fully deflates after deflating, it's not as long as the penises I see here on the forum after implantation. It's the same as before, maybe a little longer. But it's really thick, like a sausage hanging down. The folds are completely invisible. And unless you know it, you'd never know there's anything inside. But that's until you touch it, because the deflated Titan is still hard! And that's what I dislike most, and what bothers me most 24/7. The feeling of hard plastic in my penis is terrible. But you'll have to get used to it.
I often asked a ton of questions here before the implantation, regarding the feeling of the Titan when deflated. Mostly, everyone said yes, there are dog ears, but you can get used to it and it's nothing to worry about. I have dog ears, but you can't see them. They're inside.
I really want to contribute to this forum and explain something to those who are still considering which implant to choose. Touch every part of your body and you'll realize they're all soft: your arms, legs, face, chest, head, even your knees and elbows. But your penis, balls, and butt are even softer than all of these body parts. Everything there is delicate. So, with Coloplast, your penis, even when deflated, will be harder than the rest of your body. I'm not kidding. It's really true. If you choose Titan, you need to be prepared for this, so that after the surgery you don't say to yourself, "What the hell did I let do to myself!" Well, I don't have protruding dog ears yet, at least not yet. It's very uncomfortable and very unpleasant. It's hard to imagine kissing a girl and what she'll think when she presses herself against my wooden penis. Thank God, it's softening a little every day. But it doesn't even come close to comparing to a natural penis or AMS implants. Let me explain it simply: when I inflate the Titan, it goes from a hard, floppy penis to a swollen, erect one, and sometimes it's so hard it's truly excessive. I'm sure inflating the AMS is much more enjoyable when your soft, floppy penis turns into a hard, swollen, erect one.
So far, the Titan is very uncomfortable in everyday life. Even getting in and out of the car feels unnatural. My penis doesn't bend. Bending over to tie my shoelaces, bending over, sitting down, and standing up—all of it is uncomfortable right now. Clearly, I'm not used to it yet. The reservoir also feels a bit inside me, even when getting out of bed or lying down.
My biggest concern is how I'll continue to do endurance sports with all this stuff? It's hard for me to imagine.
I'm also wondering how I, a guy who's lived to be 38 and still single and without a relationship, will be meeting girls.
I can't wrap my head around it right now.
Now, regarding concealing the implant under clothing, I consider myself very lucky that my deflated Titan is as thick as a shovel, but still docile. Now I mostly wear sweatpants and regular boxer shorts. And it's definitely visible. It's a noticeable bulge that sometimes catches my eye. It looks funny, but, as they say, it wouldn't be so funny if it weren't so sad.
The first time I put on my 502 Levi's, I tucked my penis sideways. I was invited to a birthday party, and I realized it was just trash. I didn't know where to look. But the second day, I put on even tighter jeans and managed to hide my penis pretty well, pointing it straight down. Yes, there's a slight bulge, but it's not that noticeable. Because I was wearing fairly thick boxers. I think the 501 Levi's button-downs would be better.
I've also tried on my running and cycling shorts and tights. I bought specialized x-bionic combat compression briefs with good compression specifically for them. Yes, the bulge is definitely visible, but it's not that big, and the briefs are very supportive. But of course, my dog ears are starting to hurt more because they're more prone to breakage. I don't know how long this will last. If I do recover fully and can start running, cycling, and riding, and get back into my running and cycling circle, many of whom ask me where I've disappeared to, to which I reply that I had another vein operation and am currently undergoing a difficult rehabilitation. They'll definitely wonder what the hell kind of surgery he had when they see me in my running gear. But after all the hell I've been through over the past three years, I don't care anymore. Let them think what they want.
I remember when I consulted with Clavell, he said that his younger patients often choose Titan, while older patients prefer Ams. Well, I disagree with this, as I believe that CX or LGX, which my surgeon favors so much, are much better suited for young, active people than Coloplast.
Now I understand why Wolfpacker and Frank replaced their still-functional Titan with CX, and they're happy about it.
By the way, I want to note that the folds in the cylinders have become significantly softer! If before they were like the sharp corners of a hard, crumpled plastic Coke bottle, now they're more like rubber folds. If they continue to soften, God willing.
As for sensitivity, it's only just beginning to return on the underside of my penis and around the incision. It's already been significantly lost on the dorsal side, thanks to those damned charlatans. Furthermore, after using a vacuum pump for a long time, my penis skin has darkened. This is pigment. It will take a long time for it to become even half a shade lighter. I'd like to ask you guys if any of you have encountered this problem and know of any effective remedies. I've found out that niacinamide and azelic acid are used in cosmetology for these cases, in the form of ointments and serums.
As for my mental state, in the first days after the surgery, I truly felt liberated from all that three-year-long oppression and nightmare. Now I'm still struggling mentally, as I don't yet understand how I'll return to a normal social environment and live with this. And most importantly, how I'll meet girls or continue communicating with those I already know. I'd really like to have a serious relationship with a normal girl, but right now it's hard to even imagine who would accept that.
As I'm writing this, I'm thinking to myself, "Damn it, starting a relationship with a normal girl—it should all be normal and natural, but how difficult it will be now with this thing between my legs!" On the other hand, when I didn't have it, I couldn't even think about talking to girls because that's where it always ended. For the last year, I haven't wanted to take 300 mg of Viagra because it would kill me.
Before the implant, I was dating a very attractive runner, but we weren't intimate yet. She's incredibly slender, petite, and very skinny. Now I realize that even if we had sex and I managed to hide the implant, I'd simply destroy her with my Titan. How would I tell her I had the implant? She'd think I was playing a prank. And if I openly showed her that it was real and how the system worked, I'm sure I'd have to call an ambulance because she'd faint.
Considering all the Titan's drawbacks, and there are many, I certainly regret not choosing the ams CX, which is truly more comfortable to use and in everyday life. Even if I lost a little girth with the CX, it would be a less serious issue than all these inconveniences with the Titan. But in my country, there's no CX with Inhibison, and the LGX definitely wouldn't have suited me with my thickness and the hard scars inside after three horrific surgeries already. I had a whole algorithm in my head for choosing an implant, given my complex case. One of my thoughts was this: what if the surgeon suddenly opens my penis, and the scars inside are completely untouchable and no corrective procedures are allowed, because this will lead to complete destruction of the penis and I will no longer need the implant, as he warned me about before the surgery? In that case, the Titan would be better, which will have a better chance of stretching the internal scar tissue over time. But Professor Gamidov is truly a virtuoso; he overcame all these difficulties and managed to perform a complex reconstructive surgery, for which I am very grateful. If I had chosen the CX, I would have had to add an extender 1 cm on the left and 2 cm on the right, and then the tubes would have protruded more from my scrotum, since it is small. Also, the CX lacks Inhibizon. I had a complex and lengthy surgery. And if I had developed an infection afterwards, I would never have forgiven myself. Although I know that people get CX implants without inhibizone and everything goes well. But I know it's bad if you have diabetes, which I don't have, and cavernous fibrosis, which I did have and was quite severe.
So, for now, I'm still negotiating with myself whether I made the right choice. I'm trying to distance myself from it so my brain can gradually get used to my new bionic penis.
Hey AntonS. Regarding your pains:
1- The pain in the anus (funny name, pain in the ass basically). Is normal. I had this exact pain but on my left side. I had this pain maybe 3 months until it finally went away.
2- When you say the pain is near the tube going to the reservoir, you mean you feel pain in the reservoir area as well or in the penis? If it's in the penis, it is very possible that these are the famouse "dog ears" from coloplast. Very likely when the capsule forms, it will go away.
3- Pump noise. My pump is noisy at all times unfortunately, maybe this is a little bit luck if you got a noisy one or not. Do you have the OTR or classic?
If you want to hear how my pump sounds, it is something like this. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7FIiMXDdifg
4- 42 days is still too soon to have regrets. Give it minimum 3-6 months to have conclusions. Things in general losen up a bit after your capsule is formed.
I wish you a fast recovery!
Discovernew, thanks for the suggestion! Of course, I'll wait up to six months or even longer for a final assessment. But I can already say that with the Titan, my penis feels like a thick shovel handle!
As for the pain near the tube, I think and feel it's because the tube runs so close to the cylinder. I don't know if this is supposed to be correct. Whether this is good or bad, I don't know. And that's precisely why the pain occurs. Pain from dog ears is different.
When the implant is deflated, the tube slightly compresses the right cylinder, causing a crease at the base. If the tube were at least 3 mm further from the cylinder, it would be much better.
Yes, I saw that video imitating the sound of a Rigicon pump. If you press the Titan pump hard, I have a one-touch pump (it's a slightly modified OTR; they changed something, I don't know what, but it still doesn't deflate with one press, which is absurd, considering its name). I noticed that if I squeeze the pump bulb a little slower, the croaking or honking sound of a goose is inaudible, but it takes some getting used to, and it's a real pain in the ass. In front of a girl, it's all awkward, as is the deflation. AMS is a cut above in this regard.
Yes, I'll tolerate this pain in the hopes that it will eventually go away. Some days it's practically nonexistent.
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