DaveKell wrote:defiant wrote:I just had a good cry in my bed. It’s 4am here and I have work in 2 hours.
This is taking over my life.
I was listening to the recording I made of my andrologist visit 2 years ago, my last appointment with a urological doctor and I ask him, do some people end up with implants even though there’s nothing physically wrong and he said ‘yes, some people are of that personality, some people go so far, become so unresponsive, that we just have to help them’. You are just a few years younger than I was when ED began to consume my thinking too. It eroded my personality and overall outlook on being alive. I had an attractive wife, 7 years younger than me, I could only mange about one time out of 3 to successfully make love to. Something had to give or I would become a hopelessly bitter person.
I think I’m that person, if indeed there truly is nothing wrong with me,
I tried to masturbate this evening and couldn’t even get a semi yet I came anyway. How messed up is that. I too found I could pound the hell out of a flaccid dick and eventually come with the wet noodle. It really messes with your mind. Again, something had to give!
Even though they are such great solutions, I just can’t reconcile myself with the decision to pursue it with all it entails. The pumping, the deflating, the foreign body, the disclosure, the replacements, the risks. All this at 34. I pursued it after learning about it here on this forum and wish I had done it years earlier. Nothing changes insofar as knowing when you want a hardon. The urges are identical. The only difference is you have to manually make it happen. A reasonable trade off given the alternative being not having sex. Who wants that? The "foreign body" is something you have to be fully mentally accepting of. I've found it's no big deal, again with the alternative being no sex for you. As for the disclosure, I'm first to admit I didn't have that issue because I'm married. However, I had a lot of sex with around 50 other women before getting married at age 26. Thinking back, I would have approached it with a new woman by bragging about the benefit of being able to outlast any other guy she had ever been with. Hours of sex on end. How is that a drawback? I can't imagine any of the women being disappointed. If you don't work naturally, it's no fault of your own. It's just the cards you were dealt and it's up to you how you play the hand. A woman's reluctance would melt away after about the first 15 minutes of continuous sex if not much sooner. The risks are one of the lowest in any type of surgery. The recovery was a lot smoother than I anticipated. Given the resulting benefits, I know now I'd have gladly endured it being ten times worse!
This is a dark dark time. You can change your whole outlook very soon after being cleared for sex with an implant. I became the cock of the walk after experiencing the best sex of my life with an implant. Although I am not looking in the least, I regularly talk to women I don't know because of the contaguious confidence I project now. I have no doubt I could have a field day with new women if I found myself single again. All of the old defeated mentality is long long gone and will stay that way. Sure, at your age you're likely to need 1 or 2 revisions in your lifetime. How could that possibly hold you back given the benefits I've cited for you? Do yourself the biggest favor of your life and get over this hesitation and go for the best gift you could ever give yourself!
This was incredibly encouraging to read. Thank you so much for such a candid response. I’m so glad that you’re absolutely tearing up life right now, free of the mental and physical strife that comes with this ****!
May I ask what the cause of your ED was, how old you were when it started, what treatments you went through and what led you to go for implant? Also, all these women. Was that with the implant? Bravo man!