Motivation and the man: the spark behind your drive

[53@MVA]

I had a slow downward spiral sexually with the car wreck in 85 ,healed up then no problems. Then after or around 2009 I started having Ed issues which viagra fixed quite quickly. Then it quit working. I had also developed a chronic sciatic nerve issue down my left leg which was talking monthly injections of anti inflamatories to partially control. I was was working a high stress job and it triggered PTSD from my childhood. Don't ask! ; I was diagnosed with severe depression PTSD social anxiety and bipolar affective disorder. Then the type 2 diabetes diagnosis came along with it. Hypervigalance was so bad I was taking 400mg of trazadone just to go to sleep. All the different anti depressants did nothing and one ,can't remember name of it, I was able to get an erection but could not reach orgasm. Then I tried Viibryd and within 2 weeks my sciatic nerve pain disappeared and I could get wood and I could orgasm! Then somewhere along the line my performance sexually went down very slowly to where I could get erect for short periods and then finally I just got nothing. It became so anxiety provoking to know at any moment I could loose my erection that making love became a mental exercise in concentration and I really lost my confidence in bed. My wife was just totally frustrated and kinda distanced herself from me in any type of physical way. Mentally I had the sex drive of a 20 yo so the frustration from both of us turned into anger. My wife is 10 years younger than I am as well.
So now implanted and waiting to start the Ferrari in my pants. I told my wife I was going to to her to the bed for a solid week to hammer out all the pent up frustration. There is nothing like the closeness you feel in intercourse and I can't wait to be reunited with my wife in that aspect. I can't say that it make me a man to get wood but to be able to achieve it is like a seasoning in the proverbial stew of marriage or a relationship.

[Donnie1954]

Congratulations man,
There is nothing like a bionic dick. Welcome to our exclusive brotherhood.
Enjoy that new toy!
donnie1954@mail.com

[53@MVA]

Literally I am the 6 million dollar man!

[TANGERINE]

a lot has happened over the year. I aam thrilled that this thread got reinvigorated. I remember , as you read here, that jackhammerdreamz mentioned issues with his girlfriend and whether sex was really worth having since, for him, he would need the risky and painful implant surgery. In fact she wondered if he could just please her 'other ways'.

well, a year later, here is a quote from jackhammerdreamz journal:

from journal of jackhammerdreamz

Day 46 & 47 Sexy Staycation!

This weekend was our Staycation, I booked a room in a swanky downtown hotel, got a room with a view, and a reservation at a nice restaurant.

The girlfriend suffers from PMDD which affects her mood dramatically.
Saturday afternoon I was excited and packing and she came home from brunch with a friend and proceeded to take a nap.
I didn't let it get me down I know she is tired a lot from the aforementioned disorder.

I woke her a little after our check-in time was available and we headed to the hotel.
She got a pedi the day before so I asked her if I could wash her feet (Her feet are sexy to me).
So I did and we got music on and I rubbed her with coconut oil.

The sex was good. I had missed it!
To me, it felt much like sex we had before. A mixture of positions; missionary, leading to doggy, to sort of a "enhanced" doggy where she'll sit back and up on her legs and sit on my dick/lap. I had a strong orgasm, she was close but no big O. She wanted to try again minutes after but I was tapped out physically.
We tried a spooning position while I was still catching my breath and I was too un-engorged so to speak, so all she could feel were the cylinders which didn't turn her on.
So we just rested. I was very tired lol. She noted that she felt a little "loose" when we were in missionary. Perhaps from a little loss of girth on my end. Even with that, I think it's a little adjustment she'll get used to. It still felt good to her.

After dinner we got back and watched bad cable TV before falling asleep.

This morning we had breakfast in the business lounge and headed back to the room.
She goofily asked if I wanted to have sex.
I said YES!

For the first time in years I didn't have to think about it first. I COULD JUST HAVE SEX!

She slipped off her leggings, I disrobed, I got the coconut oil and we played, rubbed and got back to it.
A few more positions this time. She tried being on top. I love how she feels on top, she has never been able to feel much from that position sadly.
I think we finished in the same position... looking it up it looks like "The Clapper" but instead of me leaning back with my legs sprawled to each side and her curled forward, She's arching up and back and I'm sitting on my legs as well.

Actually just looking that up, I'm curious to try a bunch of weird positions. Now that I don't have to worry about keeping it up between position changes!!!
We had a good round of sex and had about 30 minutes to rest before we got dressed and packed up our crap and headed home.

After having some people over in the afternoon we spent some time cleaning up our house.
At one point I grabbed her butt and she said, "Do you wanna have sex??" -again in a disarming and playful way.

Again I said YES!!
We had sex in our bed for the first time with my new dick!!

We tried a position some sight call the flatiron, where she lays on her stomach legs together and I straddled her legs and penetrate from behind and on top.
That was our finishing position this time. It was funny, I lost the sensation of an orgasm coming on, and I said "I lost it!" and she said, "Babe you haven't lost ANYTHING your dick is good!" she was right my dick was still hard as could be I was soon back in the groove and I came really hard.... Then I pulled out to far during my orgasm and thrusted into the side wall of her vagina. Instant pain for both of us. I know you guys told me to go easy!!!
We both cringed and she might have a bruise on the inside where I jabbed her.
Not a pleasant feeling. It was like the LAST thrust too and damn if it didn't hurt like a son of a bitch.
We'll both be okay just had some pain to deal with.


Afterthoughts

She does like the feeling of my dick rock rock hard. It's interesting the marginal amount of pain from being maxed doesn't bother me during sex.
Maybe a little at the base, but I think it actually keeps me from cumming too soon which is nice.
If we have sex twice a day at max pump, I could count those as my cycling times!

I have noticed that my glans sometimes isn't fully engorged as we're switching positions and I have to sort of push in with it sort of folded Like I enter with the bottom of the glans. Not sure if that's normal but that's how it goes in, or maybe I could use more oil/lube??


She is enjoying my penis but she did admit that she hasn't had a full hard orgasm yet in our first 3 sessions.

There is a go-to position for her where she'll get on top of me and lean back.
When my dick was all natural, my erection curved upwards a bit. I think that it would catch that elusive ridge where her G-Spot is.
I was hoping my engorged glans would still hit it, but it sounds like that isn't the case. But it may just be a matter of adjusting her or my hips to get the angle right with a new penis.

We'll work on different positions and she gets more sensitive down there at different points of the month, so certain days it's just impossible to hit it.
We also have a perfect curved toy that I can always start or end the session with to ensure she's a pile of mush.
Still, My dick is satisfying her and I think we'll find that spot with practice.
We'll try different positions with different pump levels too.

I'll keep cycling to stretch the tissue outward and upward, I'll be giving it some help to curve or point upwards too if you have a technique you swear by to get it from 3 o'clock to a more 1.5 or 2 o'clock I'm all ears

We're enjoying this new spontaneity and ability to have sex at the drop of a hat.
We haven't had sex 3 times in 24 hours for as long as I can remember!
If she asked me pre-op in the middle of the day if I wanted to have sex I would've made an excuse to avoid it.
BUT NEVER AGAIN!

Feels like a new lease on life! So happy brothers!

and that , brothers, is what it is a about -- the essence of being a man, of being human, of being alive.

[53@MVA]

that's just kick ass! Can't wait to see in 10 years what the come up with. Bluetooth activated vibrating?