One year anniversary of my surgery
Posted: Fri Jan 06, 2017 12:32 pm
Hello again everyone. I'm celebrating my one year anniversary of having a working penis by returning to Franktalk and giving an update. First, I want to briefly explain why I've been off the board for about six months or so. Well, it really comes down to wanting to live life without penis concerns. In some ways it was selfish of me, but considering that I had spent previous years of my life agonizing over my ED, scouring message boards, posting over and over again and reading threads for hours a day, I was finally in a position to leave all of that behind and focus on other things. And it has truly been a blessing.
With that being said, I recognize that there many men out there who still stand to benefit from the experience of others, both in the short and long term. So now I'd like to let people know how I'm faring with the implant.
All in all, I am happy with the procedure. It was a difficult surgery and the result was not what I would call perfect. My pump is too high in my scrotum and tubing is palpable on the right side base of my penis. If I pump up too much and leave it for too long, say an hour or so, the cord that connects the pump to the cylinders cuts into my flesh around the base of my penis. So I either have to not inflate so much, which is still good enough for sex, or just not leave it inflated so long.
Nevertheless, I have a hard penis whenever I want it. I can have sex with anyone under any condition. No amount of fatigue, stress, anxiety, drugs, etc can prevent me from enjoying sex. It's an incredibly ability that for the greater part of my life I only dreamed of having. But the most remarkable result of all of this is that I simply do not think about my penis anymore. In fact, this update is difficult for me because I'm so far removed from worrying about my dick and checking in on it and wondering about how it's going to perform or what I'm doing to do to fix it. I almost don't have anything to say because it's just not something I devote mental energy to anymore. Even coming out of the surgery it took a little while to stop obsessing over my condition. At some point around the six month mark I just stopped caring. I was considering revision or even replacement surgery because I thought I was unhappy with my result.
Dr. Kramer did my surgery and I'm still happy I went with him. He was great and always made me feel comfortable. I'll forever be in debt to him, and most likely will have him do my revision when this implant fails if he's still in the game.
Of course now I can see clearly that I was overvaluing sex because it was so difficult for most of my life. My perspective now is very different. I felt worthless because I couldn't have sex. Now I realize that I had worth, and I'm the same person now that I was before, except with a functional penis. But my actual value hasn't changed, only my view of it. Which is definitely worth a lot in my case. I can see much more clearly now why my partners in the past where willing to be with me even with all of my difficulties. Because I'm much more than a hard dick. The funny thing, though, is that I needed to have a hard dick to realize that I'm much more than that.
I never think about size anymore, and that used to be a concern of mine. Did I lose size, did I get the best model implant, etc? Doesn't seem to matter at all anymore. It even seems silly to me the kind of esoteric and academic concerns I had at one point over sizing, technique, brand, and whatever else.
So my mind is much more free these days and I don't stress over sex. Other parts of my life are still other parts of my life. Getting an implant didn't make me a millionaire or a genius or even some kind of supernatural lover that changes lives with my unrelenting thrusting. It's just sex, and for as good as it is now, it's just one facet of life. I can put it in it's proper place now. I've found that having love and purpose in life is much more valuable than sex, but this is easy for me to say now and I couldn't feel that way before.
I'm happy to answer any questions and rejoin the discussion here at Franktalk. I'm incredibly grateful for everyone who supported and encouraged me to take this important step in my life. I'll be around to pay it forward and help anyone out there who needs it, since I'm coming back with a much clearer mind and from a much happier place in my life.
With that being said, I recognize that there many men out there who still stand to benefit from the experience of others, both in the short and long term. So now I'd like to let people know how I'm faring with the implant.
All in all, I am happy with the procedure. It was a difficult surgery and the result was not what I would call perfect. My pump is too high in my scrotum and tubing is palpable on the right side base of my penis. If I pump up too much and leave it for too long, say an hour or so, the cord that connects the pump to the cylinders cuts into my flesh around the base of my penis. So I either have to not inflate so much, which is still good enough for sex, or just not leave it inflated so long.
Nevertheless, I have a hard penis whenever I want it. I can have sex with anyone under any condition. No amount of fatigue, stress, anxiety, drugs, etc can prevent me from enjoying sex. It's an incredibly ability that for the greater part of my life I only dreamed of having. But the most remarkable result of all of this is that I simply do not think about my penis anymore. In fact, this update is difficult for me because I'm so far removed from worrying about my dick and checking in on it and wondering about how it's going to perform or what I'm doing to do to fix it. I almost don't have anything to say because it's just not something I devote mental energy to anymore. Even coming out of the surgery it took a little while to stop obsessing over my condition. At some point around the six month mark I just stopped caring. I was considering revision or even replacement surgery because I thought I was unhappy with my result.
Dr. Kramer did my surgery and I'm still happy I went with him. He was great and always made me feel comfortable. I'll forever be in debt to him, and most likely will have him do my revision when this implant fails if he's still in the game.
Of course now I can see clearly that I was overvaluing sex because it was so difficult for most of my life. My perspective now is very different. I felt worthless because I couldn't have sex. Now I realize that I had worth, and I'm the same person now that I was before, except with a functional penis. But my actual value hasn't changed, only my view of it. Which is definitely worth a lot in my case. I can see much more clearly now why my partners in the past where willing to be with me even with all of my difficulties. Because I'm much more than a hard dick. The funny thing, though, is that I needed to have a hard dick to realize that I'm much more than that.
I never think about size anymore, and that used to be a concern of mine. Did I lose size, did I get the best model implant, etc? Doesn't seem to matter at all anymore. It even seems silly to me the kind of esoteric and academic concerns I had at one point over sizing, technique, brand, and whatever else.
So my mind is much more free these days and I don't stress over sex. Other parts of my life are still other parts of my life. Getting an implant didn't make me a millionaire or a genius or even some kind of supernatural lover that changes lives with my unrelenting thrusting. It's just sex, and for as good as it is now, it's just one facet of life. I can put it in it's proper place now. I've found that having love and purpose in life is much more valuable than sex, but this is easy for me to say now and I couldn't feel that way before.
I'm happy to answer any questions and rejoin the discussion here at Franktalk. I'm incredibly grateful for everyone who supported and encouraged me to take this important step in my life. I'll be around to pay it forward and help anyone out there who needs it, since I'm coming back with a much clearer mind and from a much happier place in my life.
Nah, probably not. 