My Journal

[archway]

The pump was a bit stiff for the first 5 or 6 months. Not a problem, just harder to squeeze. Also, I always just felt the erection was good, and comfortable and really didn't try to max out. No real pain, however with more time and possibly more girth expansion, I could add more pumps. It appears my girth increased a bit over the past 11 months. Length is a tad more, and as you observed, the tips are well up into the glans which has given me good length. I always thought I was 5 3/4 in, however "to the max" it's a bit over 6 in, so we're happy. At times I pump to the max and then release a little at my wife's request as she feels more comfortable with that level. It's all good !!

[alibaba]

I am in awe how Eid responds. Milam just says to call Maryann who gives wrong info or Milam says we will not discuss it.....provided you can even get Milam. I got 2 emails promptly last night. I made the wrong choice. I just wanted it done and tried to manage travel cost. BIG mistake. I swear I am not going back to Milam for followup. I've had all the arrogance I can take.

[merrix]

After reading almost all postings I'm quite convinced that there are only two outstanding surgeons: Eid and Kramer. A couple of other surgeons might be very good but they seem to play in a different league. What I don't unterstand is the fact that not all of you, living in the US, go to Eid or Kramer. Why taking chances? Because of the distance from your home to the surgeon???

I certainly agree with the above.

[merrix]

5 weeks post op

Progress continues. I would say that by now I feel 99% ok in normal everyday life. Work, travel and just being home with family. I have no pain at all in those situations.
I still think I would have some discomfort if pushing it in gym or at the tennis court.
Haven't tried yet though as I intend to follow Eid's advice on 6 weeks break from strenuous activity.

Not much sex unfortunately due to me having an absolutely crazy period at work with constant travelling.
Last time was 4 days ago and it was ok. Better than the two first times a week before that. But I was still a bit tender.

Will let you know how that part progresses as well.

Flaccid has improved rapidly. It's now at around 4:30 and folds nicely in any underwear and is not visible in clothes.
Well maube I have a bigger bulge than normal, but it looks just like a big dick, not like a semi. Which is a huge difference.

Since I had had worries over my flaccid and Eid has just kept saying it'll be fine, I took some pictures and sent to him.
As always he responded within hours and said:
"Looks tremendous. I am very happy especially about the swelling of the foreskin. The angle I knew that it would get better but I had no experience with this sclerotherapy and must admit that the post-operative swelling of the foreskin took me by surprise. I was concerned that it would never go away. This looks better than normal and I also believe that the angle of the erection will be just right. These 24cm cylinders are fabulous. Nothing else on the market provides that quality of erection. I am satisfied that I did not stay with the 22cm and rear tip extenders. "

[alibaba]

That is awesome merrix! Strongagain, you are correct. I chose my surgeon on basis of 3 things, all of which I picked up on this website. he has no videos and only mentioned in one research paper that I could find.
1) he said he would do it, had no issue with my other health issues.
2) some on FT said he was very good and I only knew of one who went elsewhere to get his work redone.
3) Travel cost. within less than a days drive and my wife was less scared of a slightly smaller city. I was able to hire someone to shuttle her around so she did not have to drive in a bigger city for 4 days.

[merrix]

5 weeks post op

Another working week coming to an end.
Had a busy week hosting a conference and one of my goals pre op was to be fit enough to do this without signs of pain/immobility etc.
Target accomplished.

I am doing fine, I keep getting closer to 100% each week.
I still think there is a way to go though before the implant will feel completely natural and I won't even think about it anymore.
I have no pain at all during daily activities. I am not restricted in any way when walking, sitting, standing, lying etc.
But for sure I feel most of the time that the implant is there. Flaccid is larger and stiffer (but hanging down and easily concealed in pants), the pump is noticeable when I sit (but not painful in any way).

When inflating fully I still feel some pain. In tip after some time and in the perineal area.
In worst case I guess this could be a sign of oversizing, but in best case I was perfectly sized and pain will disappear with time. It is getting better.

My pump bulb is getting softer and as from the beginning I needed 45-50 pumps to full inflation, I now need 35-40.
Pumping is easy and pain free (except for above mentioned pain when fully inflated).
Deflating is tougher.
I need to press very, very hard on the valve to make it stay in the deflate mode.
Most times I need to try a couple of times to make it happen. No way I can do it with one hand. I need two hands. One hand to stabilize pump position and one hand to press very, very hard. Don't know if my deflate valve is outside the spec in some way, because I strongly doubt that everybody would even be able to apply the force needed.
I am a strong guy and I press it hard...
Furthermore, I really think deflating is a skill. It takes some time to learn how to do it best.
I am sure I have not yet mastered the technique, but here are my observations:
Penis must be thorough squeezed for some time and with different grips to get best results.
Lying down is better than standing up.
Doing it right after orgasm when there is still blood in the glans/penis is not optimal.
Pressing the perineal area with one hand at same time as penis is squeezed with the other gives better result than only squeezing penis.
Deflating once more a few minutes after the first time can add some benefit.

Finally I'd like to say that mentally it's going to take some time as well to get this to settle down.
It is a very different feeling which requires some getting used to.
The sex feels different. Not necessarily worse, but different. The advantage of course is that it stands hard on demand. I would also say that my orgasms are slightly stronger/longer. But there is a downside as well which I just can't exactly put my finger on. I guess it is simply that one doesn't feel that great feeling of blood pumping in the penis...

In every day life, for sure there are no advantages, only downsides. On the other hand, I am quite sure it's just a matter of getting used to it and eventually it will be the new normal.

And mentally, it takes some time to re-program the brain to relax and make use of the benefits during sex. I.e. not rushing things, not thinking about the erection. Just enjoy.

I honestly think that the feeling of being implanted isn't very attractive either.
But again, the ideal scenario of having a properly functioning natural dick wasn't available to me.
I still say this is better than the ED I had.

In summary, things are well and still progressing.
The Hallelujahs and the 'Best thing I did in my life' chants will have to wait still some time though...

[strongagain]

The Hallelujahs and the 'Best thing I did in my life' chants will have to wait still some time though...

At least your wife has now a reason for Hallelujahs and nothing is more important than that.

[MARKOS2018]

Finally I'd like to say that mentally it's going to take some time as well to get this to settle down.
It is a very different feeling which requires some getting used to.
The sex feels different. Not necessarily worse, but different. The advantage of course is that it stands hard on demand. I would also say that my orgasms are slightly stronger/longer. But there is a downside as well which I just can't exactly put my finger on. I guess it is simply that one doesn't feel that great feeling of blood pumping in the penis...

In every day life, for sure there are no advantages, only downsides. On the other hand, I am quite sure it's just a matter of getting used to it and eventually it will be the new normal.

Merrix

The following excerpt I totally agree with especially the one highlighted. After 4 years of my implant (Dr Eid), I still dream about what I had before. Your journal has brought it all back to me and I believe, Dr. Eid is fantastic. I had quite a problem after the surgery, but he stood by me all the way through and I would recommend him to any one who thinks about having an implant.

Continue your journal.....you have come a long way!

Rod

[merrix]

5.5 weeks post op

Things are going well in terms of the physical healing and the implant function. I have no issues at all in daily life activities. I can feel some slight tenderness once in a while when making some awkward movement, but it's never really painful and it is getting better every week.

My flaccid is ok as well. It folds down and I can wear tight suit pants without showing too much. It is still occasionally slightly uncomfortable but improving every week.

About a week ago I suddenly felt pain when I pumped up to the max and had sex. Pain was back in the perineal area and quite intense. I kept going and completed the intercourse, but it wasn't nice.
This pain was there for a few days and is still there to some degree when inflating to max. A bit strange that it popped up after 2-3 weeks of pumping, but it has improved a lot since when I first felt it, so I'm not worried. I suppose it is just as logical to feel pain in that end as it is in the other end (i.e. tip of penis).

Had sex for the fourth time yesterday. I have been travelling crazily much lately and haven't had more time together with my wife. Anyway, yesterday was clearly better than last time (a week ago). No pain in tip and only very mild tenderness in the other end. This time we kept going longer time and rougher than the previous times. I do feel a bit less sensitive low down on my shaft when touching myself. But when having sex, oral and vaginal, I'd say I don't notice any less sensitivity. It feels great, and I have no problem to reach orgasm.

Orgasms are arguably more intense now than pre op. I think it is simply because the erection is super hard through the whole orgasm which they weren't always before.

My wife says she feels no difference between my dick now and on my best days with viagra post sclero and pre implant. Which is a good thing, since it means that my implant erection to her feels like the best possible natural erection. She doesn't think it is noticeably harder than a perfect natural erection and she wouldn't suspect anything unnatural about it if she didn't know. Not even when giving a blowjob. It is only by touching the scrotum she will feel it is not natural.

I am already starting to get over my ED feelings, meaning I am learning to enjoy the moment instead of stressing to make sure both of us reach orgasm as fast as possible. It's a great feeling to know I have all the time in the world. But I still have some way to go to get completely rid of that stress.

Finally I have to say that even though everything is looking good result wise at this stage, I am still not in seventh heaven about it. It is a huge thing and it will take me time to put this behind me and learn to live with it. I never regret anything in life, since I always make bloody sure I analyze all major decisions down to the last detail. Hence I will never regret this either. But for sure, I will need some time to feel 100% comfortable with the fact that I have two plastic cylinders in my dick which I pump up to have sex.
The more and the better sex I have, the easier and the quicker I will reach that stage.

Finally, I am very glad I chose Dr. Eid. I think we see more and more posts here at FT from guys where things went wrong. But the unhappy Eid patients seem to be more or less non-existing.

I can with 100% belief say that if you are thinking of an implant, forget about the extra cost and travelling hazzle with Eid and New York. Pick the best surgeon on the planet and minimize the risk of a poor outcome.
There are never any guarantees, but Eid is as close as it gets to a guaranteed success.

[strongagain]

Finally I have to say that even though everything is looking good result wise at this stage, I am still not in seventh heaven about it. It is a huge thing and it will take me time to put this behind me and learn to live with it. I never regret anything in life, since I always make bloody sure I analyze all major decisions down to the last detail. Hence I will never regret this either. But for sure, I will need some time to feel 100% comfortable with the fact that I have two plastic cylinders in my dick which I pump up to have sex.

The more and the better sex I have, the easier and the quicker I will reach that stage.

Merrix, without the 'plastic' cylinders you were unable to have sex. Now you are able to provide your wife with something she wants/needs. You are still quite young and I guess, that's what causes you the problems. Until age 56 I didn't know the meaning of ED. Then a part of my rectum went into the trash and with it nerves which are vital for erections. All of a sudden I knew what ED stands for. I tried Cialis, Viagra, pills from China, a vacuum pump etc. Nothing really worked except the pump but that thing I hated more and more. After two years my uro recommended an implant. I thought that man must be crazy, I would never ever consider a thing like that. But the longer I thought about it and the more the years ticked away, the more I 'loved' the idea. For almost nine years I didn't have much sex, something had to be done. Now I'm happy about my decision. My doctor did a brilliant job, everything was perfect right from the beginning.

My eyes are week, therefore I'm wearing contact lenses. I would be happier without them. Many people have artificial knee joints, artificial teeth, artificial heart valves etc etc. I guess all of them are happy that medical aids exist. Don't think too much about your 'plastic' cylinders, but use them as often as possible...