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Had my surgery Friday Oct. 29 2012, with dr. Eid, NY…. Can’t say enough good things about dr.Eid, just the best, wonderful person, great staff, a number one experience. Flew home 4 hrs, been 5 days now, no pain, never, easy easy thing to do. I’m one of the lucky ones I guess, because I listened to th ear. Did everything he said they way he said, no pain, no swelling, just happy trails down the road. Just go with the BEST, and you won’t be having any unwanted surprises later down the road. This Dr. has done over 6 thousand implants so far, so pretty sure he know his business. Good luck to all, just think positive thoughts and positive vibes and know in your mind you have the best Dr. and you will get the BEST results.
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Echegollen
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Thanks for the part 2 Merrix.
Would be nice to know a few details about your current sex life. Is your implant still working as good as the first few years? Are you still enjoying sex as much? Any juicy stories perhaps...
Would be nice to know a few details about your current sex life. Is your implant still working as good as the first few years? Are you still enjoying sex as much? Any juicy stories perhaps...
I'm 39 years old. Never was able to maintain my erections for more than 1 minute. Pills don't work. Had sclerotherapy by Dr. Kuehhas in Austria in 2016. Didn't work. Injections (Caverject) are the only things that gave me acceptable results.
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Thanks for this post. It's exactly what I needed to read tonight. I'm 3 weeks out and the left testicle and side of my groin gets swollen at night and hurts in a nagging sense. I was freaked out that it's an infection but the VA doctor yesterday said I was fine lol. Still have to pop and oxycodone ever so often. Bottom tip of my penis is still bruised where the cylinders end and brushing up against something is a hello moment. So your post gives me real hope and I'll just relax and let nature takes its course. Thanks again
Thanks
67 yr old, married 20 yrs,
Cialis, Trimix since 2004
MIA in 2004
Implanted by Dr Guise on 10/28/21
Pre-op: 6.3" length 6" girth
14 mos post op: 6.5" lento and 5.75 girth on shaft and 6" at the base
67 yr old, married 20 yrs,
Cialis, Trimix since 2004
MIA in 2004
Implanted by Dr Guise on 10/28/21
Pre-op: 6.3" length 6" girth
14 mos post op: 6.5" lento and 5.75 girth on shaft and 6" at the base
6 yeears update - Part III - Results
Part III – Results
There are two aspects of this. Purely medical, physical results. And then the mental part of it.
I’ll cover both, starting with the easy part.
Before the implant, my dick was about 16-16.5 cm long when erect. Well, when having a good erection, which definitely didn’t happen every time. That is 6.3-6.5 inches. Girth was 14 cm (5.5”).
I documented my ass off on the size through my recovery period. I started off a bit shorter and thicker than my pre-surgery measurements. Shorter because I couldn’t inflate fully in the early days. Who can? Nobody I’d say. Pain, pump not yet broken in, and dick not yet expanded with from the cycling. Thicker because I was swollen.
As the months passed, I was back to pre-op size. But well before the first year had passed, I was larger. I kept growing till I reached just below 18 cm (7”) and about 14.3 cm girth (5.6”). The length is bone pressed with a ruler and girth is with a measuring tape at mid shaft. I basically stopped cycling my implant after two years. Didn’t even do it very frequently during second year. Simply didn’t have the time or the patience for it. Plus – Eid told me it would be meaningless. No growth would come out of it, possibly shortening the time till revision though. So I basically only inflated when using it from sometime around a year after surgery. But I used it a lot. Sex or masturbation probably 5 times per week. However, I very rarely inflated to the maximum for neither sex nor masturbation during most of that time.
So how the F did my dick grow 1.5-2 cm (0.6-0.8”) if I barely ever cycled to the maximum?
Don’t know. Don’t care. But it did. I actually measured it a few days ago, just for this post, and it is still around 7 inches (just below 18 cm).
My dick had two issues before surgery, except for ED. Curved and twisted. Curved around 45 degrees, and twisted 30-45 degrees.
The curvature is practically gone. The twist is still there, even though it has improved. This is exactly what Eid said would happen. The strength of the Titan cylinders would fix, or at least improve, the curvature, but the twist would most likely still be there.
My tips go just as far as I would like them to. I can easily feel them with my fingers in my glans when my glans is soft, but when I am aroused and my glans is hard, there is no way to feel them.
I have no issues whatsoever to penetrate. My glans is as firm as I would ever want it to, and I can penetrate without using any hands.
My dick is, if I inflate it to the max, as hard as a dick could ever be. Both in terms of how hard the shaft is, but also in terms of how little my dick flexes at the base. If I stand up, my dick will point at around 2 o’clock, or perhaps a few minutes past. And from there, when fully inflated, it will barely not move in any direction. A few degrees down, and a few more up. But I cannot even push it down till 3 o’clock. Let us say it can be pushed down from 2:10 till 2:30. That is 1/3 of 1/12 of 360 degrees. 10 degrees. That’s all. And probably 10-15 degrees upwards. Sideways, I’d say even less. Basically nothing.
This is a double edged sword. It makes me need to be a bit careful when having sex. Thrusting in and out, not grinding. But it is also a pretty good feeling to have a dick which is harder than any woman will have felt.
In the first year or two, I didn’t like at all to fuck with a fully inflated dick. Just didn’t feel right. Nowadays it does feel very right. Most of the time I inflate it to the max or very close to, but sometimes I have sex with a more natural hardness as well. Depends on what we feel like doing.
When I inflate it to the maximum, it takes me around 60-70 pumps. Note, these are not full wall-to-wall pumps. I know that this will make it a subjective number. But that’s what I do these days. I used to do full W2W pumps in the past, mostly to keep track of how the maximum number of pumps developed over time. But I find that it is quicker to inflate by doing more quicker shallow pumps than fewer slower full pumps. Plus I just assume that doing full W2W pumps will wear down the pump quicker than doing less than full pumps. But to translate this into how many pumps I’d need to get 100% full if I would do full W2W pumps, I’d be able to do around 30-35 complete full W2W pumps, then I would not have the strength to keep going. From there I would probably be able to do another 20 gradually more shallow pumps. Those 50 would be the same as what I usually d0, i.e. starting with perhaps ¾ pumps and then ending 65-70 presses later when I cannot even squeeze 1 little molecule of saline through that pump.
I can do about 10 full W2W pumps without my dick even getting erect. At 10 full pumps I can easily keep it hidden in my pants. At 15-20 I have something I could fuck with, but still very pliable. My starting level, which I can still put in my pants even though uncomfortable, is around 40 of my less-than-full pumps, which would probably be around 20-25 W2W pumps. This is great for foreplay (oral sex). Sometimes I don’t even inflate further from there and just fuck with it. But most of the time, I will inflate further from there before I penetrate her. At this level, I cannot pump further with one hand. From that level and on, two hands are definitely needed. If I was restricted to use one hand only, I could not reach a hardness nowhere near the two-hand level. With one hand, I would only reach what I would basically call a semi. To get to what I think is fully inflated, I will need to use both my hands, six fingers and all the force I can possibly generate. I basically grunt like I would during a heavy deadlift. I keep pumping even though the effect of each pump at the end is truly minimal. But if I want to get that way-beyond-natural hardness, then that’s what it takes.
I can do any position, there is really no restrictions. If we do something that forces my dick to bend downwards, away from my abs, I need to be careful. Or just inflate less…
I typically make my wife come before me, but sometimes I come first and then I just keep going till she has had her orgasm. I don’t get the same feeling after I have orgasmed, but there is nothing that prevents me from keep on going.
If she feels like blowing me till I come before I even penetrate her, I can just fuck her after I come from the BJ and keep going till she gets her orgasm. Again, it doesn’t feel as good as if I did not orgasm before fucking, but it’s for a good cause, and it still feels good. Just not as good…
Flaccid. There are posts on here which will make you think that if you get a Titan you are doomed to walk the earth for the rest of your life with a flaccid bigger and stiffer than a fully pumped LGX. You will look like an idiot with a hardon in the gym, at Christmas with your grandkids sitting in your lap, in the gym shower… yes, you get the picture.
If that was the case, Titans would be long gone. No doctor would install them, model would be discontinued. As long as it is not the government’s monopoly model and we live in North Korea. Well, we don’t.
And my flaccid is seriously as good as it gets. If I deflate completely, it is as soft and pliable as I could ever ask for. It is barely visible in clothes, even though my size is 7 inches when inflated. And as we know, difference between inflated and deflated size for Titans is negligible. Or..? In my case, there is about an inch difference. At least when comparing deflated and inflated aroused. So part of that difference comes from glans swelling from blood. But part is from the implant itself. How? Titans don’t expand in length, do they? In theory no. In reality? I don’t know. What I do know is that Eid told me that a perfectly installed Titan will have some crinks, wrinkles when deflated and none when fully inflated. That means some length increase when inflating will come from wrinkles straightening.
In my case, I even had some very small, barely noticeable wrinkles when inflated for the first years. Not so anymore. So I guess part of my length increase described above comes from that as well. But no matter the implant, the flesh must expand if the dick is going to do the same. And apparently mine has.
My flaccid angle is basically as straight down as it possibly can. My scrotum will prevent it from hanging perpendicular to the floor. If using the clock analogy, I’d say the angle is 5 o’clock.
I never squeeze my dick when I deflate. No need. I just push the deflate valve hard for 2-3 seconds and then leave it be. Within minutes it is completely flaccid. To the point where my cylinders flatten inside my dick. This of course feels unnatural if I touch my flaccid dick. Well, at least if I touch it thoroughly. But I don’t. And even if I do, I don’t give a shit. It’s my flaccid dick, I do have a prosthesis inside it, and that’s the way it is. And when inflated, it rules the world. Or at least the little part of it that lies on its back in front of me.
I don’t always keep it 100% deflated though. In my opinion, here are the pros and cons of keeping it slightly inflated vs totally deflated.
Totally deflated
+ Always keeps the reservoir maximally filled, avoiding or minimizing any risk of scar tissue forming around a less than full reservoir, hence maintaining the ability to fully deflate in the future as well.
+ Less bulge. Obviously.
- Flattened cylinders. Makes your dick feel unnatural to the touch when flaccid. Very minor deal, but some might be bothered.
Keeping a few pumps in it
- Will not maximize the size of the reservoir, which could lead to scar tissue forming around a less than full reservoir. Could limit the future potential to totally deflate. I guess this is more of an issue in the first couple of years than later on. My advice would be to always deflate totally in the early stages.
- Risk of looking like you have an erection. Depends on how much you leave in it of course. In my case, the difference starts to show after 5-8 full pumps. Less than that, difference is not noticeable with clothes on. When naked, angle starts to look suspicious after around 4-6 pumps. For reference it will take around 20 pumps to get it to 3 o’clock.
+ Looking like you have a semi. Yes, this can be a good thing too of course. I have used this to my advantage many times. If I do 10-12 pumps, My dick will be very visible in jeans. I will have to place it sideways, and it will reach way out close to my upper thigh/hip. Nothing for family day in the mall, but quite interesting in the right setting. I have got many, many comments from women on my huge dick when in this condition.
+ Better blood flow. Not sure about the mechanisms behind this, but I do feel that my dick in some way likes to have a few pumps in it. An now I’m not talking about the 12 “Holy fuck is that a beer can in your pocket” pumps, but rather 3-4. Just to straighten most of the wrinkles and make sure the dick is all round instead of having the flattened cylinders inside. I notice better blood flow to my glans, as in getting true semi erections when getting horny. This does not happen when it’s totally deflated with flattened cylinders. I also notice I have better flow in my urine stream when I have a few pumps inside. Suppose it is the same underlying phenomenon. The flattened cylinders to some degree limit flow of blood and apparently urine. Which is not a case when they are inflated a tiny bit to expand and leave the flat shape.
- Impractical in some cases. Having a big “flaccid” which is not as naturally pliable and soft as a normal dick can be a problem sometimes.
Pump, tubing position
My pump is located behind and at the same height as my balls. I am pretty sure there’s no other place I’d rather want it.
Nobody would see it when I am standing up with a flaccid dick.
Everyone would feel it if they thoroughly grabbed and handled my scrotum. There is simply a big piece of plastic in there. When I am aroused and my scrotum tightens up, it is less palpable, but I still say that if someone really touches and moves things around down there, she will feel the pump. As I have said many times, this is only a problem if you make it a problem. Feeling like shit because your date can feel your pump, or feel like a king because you can fuck her like a porn star all night? Your choice.
I never did any pulling or such with my pump. I just did what Eid told me to. Leave things be and all will be good by itself. Correctamundo.
Tubing. Never bothered me. If I really want to, I can feel it. Deep in my scrotum and above to the left of my dick. But this will take a thorough poke in my abs/groin, which nobody so far ever did except myself.
OK, next part will cover the mental aspect of it. How do I feel about my implant really, how has it changed me and my life?
Till then, take care.
There are two aspects of this. Purely medical, physical results. And then the mental part of it.
I’ll cover both, starting with the easy part.
Before the implant, my dick was about 16-16.5 cm long when erect. Well, when having a good erection, which definitely didn’t happen every time. That is 6.3-6.5 inches. Girth was 14 cm (5.5”).
I documented my ass off on the size through my recovery period. I started off a bit shorter and thicker than my pre-surgery measurements. Shorter because I couldn’t inflate fully in the early days. Who can? Nobody I’d say. Pain, pump not yet broken in, and dick not yet expanded with from the cycling. Thicker because I was swollen.
As the months passed, I was back to pre-op size. But well before the first year had passed, I was larger. I kept growing till I reached just below 18 cm (7”) and about 14.3 cm girth (5.6”). The length is bone pressed with a ruler and girth is with a measuring tape at mid shaft. I basically stopped cycling my implant after two years. Didn’t even do it very frequently during second year. Simply didn’t have the time or the patience for it. Plus – Eid told me it would be meaningless. No growth would come out of it, possibly shortening the time till revision though. So I basically only inflated when using it from sometime around a year after surgery. But I used it a lot. Sex or masturbation probably 5 times per week. However, I very rarely inflated to the maximum for neither sex nor masturbation during most of that time.
So how the F did my dick grow 1.5-2 cm (0.6-0.8”) if I barely ever cycled to the maximum?
Don’t know. Don’t care. But it did. I actually measured it a few days ago, just for this post, and it is still around 7 inches (just below 18 cm).
My dick had two issues before surgery, except for ED. Curved and twisted. Curved around 45 degrees, and twisted 30-45 degrees.
The curvature is practically gone. The twist is still there, even though it has improved. This is exactly what Eid said would happen. The strength of the Titan cylinders would fix, or at least improve, the curvature, but the twist would most likely still be there.
My tips go just as far as I would like them to. I can easily feel them with my fingers in my glans when my glans is soft, but when I am aroused and my glans is hard, there is no way to feel them.
I have no issues whatsoever to penetrate. My glans is as firm as I would ever want it to, and I can penetrate without using any hands.
My dick is, if I inflate it to the max, as hard as a dick could ever be. Both in terms of how hard the shaft is, but also in terms of how little my dick flexes at the base. If I stand up, my dick will point at around 2 o’clock, or perhaps a few minutes past. And from there, when fully inflated, it will barely not move in any direction. A few degrees down, and a few more up. But I cannot even push it down till 3 o’clock. Let us say it can be pushed down from 2:10 till 2:30. That is 1/3 of 1/12 of 360 degrees. 10 degrees. That’s all. And probably 10-15 degrees upwards. Sideways, I’d say even less. Basically nothing.
This is a double edged sword. It makes me need to be a bit careful when having sex. Thrusting in and out, not grinding. But it is also a pretty good feeling to have a dick which is harder than any woman will have felt.
In the first year or two, I didn’t like at all to fuck with a fully inflated dick. Just didn’t feel right. Nowadays it does feel very right. Most of the time I inflate it to the max or very close to, but sometimes I have sex with a more natural hardness as well. Depends on what we feel like doing.
When I inflate it to the maximum, it takes me around 60-70 pumps. Note, these are not full wall-to-wall pumps. I know that this will make it a subjective number. But that’s what I do these days. I used to do full W2W pumps in the past, mostly to keep track of how the maximum number of pumps developed over time. But I find that it is quicker to inflate by doing more quicker shallow pumps than fewer slower full pumps. Plus I just assume that doing full W2W pumps will wear down the pump quicker than doing less than full pumps. But to translate this into how many pumps I’d need to get 100% full if I would do full W2W pumps, I’d be able to do around 30-35 complete full W2W pumps, then I would not have the strength to keep going. From there I would probably be able to do another 20 gradually more shallow pumps. Those 50 would be the same as what I usually d0, i.e. starting with perhaps ¾ pumps and then ending 65-70 presses later when I cannot even squeeze 1 little molecule of saline through that pump.
I can do about 10 full W2W pumps without my dick even getting erect. At 10 full pumps I can easily keep it hidden in my pants. At 15-20 I have something I could fuck with, but still very pliable. My starting level, which I can still put in my pants even though uncomfortable, is around 40 of my less-than-full pumps, which would probably be around 20-25 W2W pumps. This is great for foreplay (oral sex). Sometimes I don’t even inflate further from there and just fuck with it. But most of the time, I will inflate further from there before I penetrate her. At this level, I cannot pump further with one hand. From that level and on, two hands are definitely needed. If I was restricted to use one hand only, I could not reach a hardness nowhere near the two-hand level. With one hand, I would only reach what I would basically call a semi. To get to what I think is fully inflated, I will need to use both my hands, six fingers and all the force I can possibly generate. I basically grunt like I would during a heavy deadlift. I keep pumping even though the effect of each pump at the end is truly minimal. But if I want to get that way-beyond-natural hardness, then that’s what it takes.
I can do any position, there is really no restrictions. If we do something that forces my dick to bend downwards, away from my abs, I need to be careful. Or just inflate less…
I typically make my wife come before me, but sometimes I come first and then I just keep going till she has had her orgasm. I don’t get the same feeling after I have orgasmed, but there is nothing that prevents me from keep on going.
If she feels like blowing me till I come before I even penetrate her, I can just fuck her after I come from the BJ and keep going till she gets her orgasm. Again, it doesn’t feel as good as if I did not orgasm before fucking, but it’s for a good cause, and it still feels good. Just not as good…
Flaccid. There are posts on here which will make you think that if you get a Titan you are doomed to walk the earth for the rest of your life with a flaccid bigger and stiffer than a fully pumped LGX. You will look like an idiot with a hardon in the gym, at Christmas with your grandkids sitting in your lap, in the gym shower… yes, you get the picture.
If that was the case, Titans would be long gone. No doctor would install them, model would be discontinued. As long as it is not the government’s monopoly model and we live in North Korea. Well, we don’t.
And my flaccid is seriously as good as it gets. If I deflate completely, it is as soft and pliable as I could ever ask for. It is barely visible in clothes, even though my size is 7 inches when inflated. And as we know, difference between inflated and deflated size for Titans is negligible. Or..? In my case, there is about an inch difference. At least when comparing deflated and inflated aroused. So part of that difference comes from glans swelling from blood. But part is from the implant itself. How? Titans don’t expand in length, do they? In theory no. In reality? I don’t know. What I do know is that Eid told me that a perfectly installed Titan will have some crinks, wrinkles when deflated and none when fully inflated. That means some length increase when inflating will come from wrinkles straightening.
In my case, I even had some very small, barely noticeable wrinkles when inflated for the first years. Not so anymore. So I guess part of my length increase described above comes from that as well. But no matter the implant, the flesh must expand if the dick is going to do the same. And apparently mine has.
My flaccid angle is basically as straight down as it possibly can. My scrotum will prevent it from hanging perpendicular to the floor. If using the clock analogy, I’d say the angle is 5 o’clock.
I never squeeze my dick when I deflate. No need. I just push the deflate valve hard for 2-3 seconds and then leave it be. Within minutes it is completely flaccid. To the point where my cylinders flatten inside my dick. This of course feels unnatural if I touch my flaccid dick. Well, at least if I touch it thoroughly. But I don’t. And even if I do, I don’t give a shit. It’s my flaccid dick, I do have a prosthesis inside it, and that’s the way it is. And when inflated, it rules the world. Or at least the little part of it that lies on its back in front of me.
I don’t always keep it 100% deflated though. In my opinion, here are the pros and cons of keeping it slightly inflated vs totally deflated.
Totally deflated
+ Always keeps the reservoir maximally filled, avoiding or minimizing any risk of scar tissue forming around a less than full reservoir, hence maintaining the ability to fully deflate in the future as well.
+ Less bulge. Obviously.
- Flattened cylinders. Makes your dick feel unnatural to the touch when flaccid. Very minor deal, but some might be bothered.
Keeping a few pumps in it
- Will not maximize the size of the reservoir, which could lead to scar tissue forming around a less than full reservoir. Could limit the future potential to totally deflate. I guess this is more of an issue in the first couple of years than later on. My advice would be to always deflate totally in the early stages.
- Risk of looking like you have an erection. Depends on how much you leave in it of course. In my case, the difference starts to show after 5-8 full pumps. Less than that, difference is not noticeable with clothes on. When naked, angle starts to look suspicious after around 4-6 pumps. For reference it will take around 20 pumps to get it to 3 o’clock.
+ Looking like you have a semi. Yes, this can be a good thing too of course. I have used this to my advantage many times. If I do 10-12 pumps, My dick will be very visible in jeans. I will have to place it sideways, and it will reach way out close to my upper thigh/hip. Nothing for family day in the mall, but quite interesting in the right setting. I have got many, many comments from women on my huge dick when in this condition.
+ Better blood flow. Not sure about the mechanisms behind this, but I do feel that my dick in some way likes to have a few pumps in it. An now I’m not talking about the 12 “Holy fuck is that a beer can in your pocket” pumps, but rather 3-4. Just to straighten most of the wrinkles and make sure the dick is all round instead of having the flattened cylinders inside. I notice better blood flow to my glans, as in getting true semi erections when getting horny. This does not happen when it’s totally deflated with flattened cylinders. I also notice I have better flow in my urine stream when I have a few pumps inside. Suppose it is the same underlying phenomenon. The flattened cylinders to some degree limit flow of blood and apparently urine. Which is not a case when they are inflated a tiny bit to expand and leave the flat shape.
- Impractical in some cases. Having a big “flaccid” which is not as naturally pliable and soft as a normal dick can be a problem sometimes.
Pump, tubing position
My pump is located behind and at the same height as my balls. I am pretty sure there’s no other place I’d rather want it.
Nobody would see it when I am standing up with a flaccid dick.
Everyone would feel it if they thoroughly grabbed and handled my scrotum. There is simply a big piece of plastic in there. When I am aroused and my scrotum tightens up, it is less palpable, but I still say that if someone really touches and moves things around down there, she will feel the pump. As I have said many times, this is only a problem if you make it a problem. Feeling like shit because your date can feel your pump, or feel like a king because you can fuck her like a porn star all night? Your choice.
I never did any pulling or such with my pump. I just did what Eid told me to. Leave things be and all will be good by itself. Correctamundo.
Tubing. Never bothered me. If I really want to, I can feel it. Deep in my scrotum and above to the left of my dick. But this will take a thorough poke in my abs/groin, which nobody so far ever did except myself.
OK, next part will cover the mental aspect of it. How do I feel about my implant really, how has it changed me and my life?
Till then, take care.
43 yo, ED forever from VL
Fit and active
Implanted December 2015
Titan XL 24 cm, no RTEs
Dr. Eid
Activated day 13
Sex after 3 weeks
Gained length and girth
So far It works perfectly
Only one advice: Find a world class surgeon
Fit and active
Implanted December 2015
Titan XL 24 cm, no RTEs
Dr. Eid
Activated day 13
Sex after 3 weeks
Gained length and girth
So far It works perfectly
Only one advice: Find a world class surgeon
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silver daddy 1960
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Thank you Merrix, I will be under the knife this Friday the 3rd with Dr Eid. I just had lunch with my best friend who is in the know and he was being tremendously encouraging. Your comments helped me realize how happy i am about my decision!!!
Silver Daddy
Silver Daddy
63 yrs old, NYC, DR. Eid Titan Coloplast Dec 10, 2021
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You’re doing people a tremendous public service, Merrix.
I’m especially excited for the psychological update.
Don’t keep us waiting too long, please!
God bless.
And thank you!
I’m especially excited for the psychological update.
Don’t keep us waiting too long, please!
God bless.
And thank you!
37, mild to moderate ED since age 21, 3 Dopplers - 1 result VL & 3 later results 'no physical problem', dependent on cialis (efficacy now waning), overcame Lymophoma at age 26, ED causing immense/profound psychological distress. Considering implant.
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abhishek26
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defiant wrote:You’re doing people a tremendous public service, Merrix.
I’m especially excited for the psychological update.
Don’t keep us waiting too long, please!
God bless.
And thank you!
penile implant really must be the best type of implant a man could get. it makes people go from comtemplating suicide to them having the best time of their lives
24 y/o suffering from sudden onset of severe ED (from previously having no ED at all). perfectly normal penile doppler and blood/hormone/urine test results. UPDATE: diagnosed with tight pelvic floor dysfunction 
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Echegollen
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Thank you for that very detailed update. I found the information about the pump very interesting. I'm also excited to read your psychological update.
With an erect length of 7'', you are definitely on the bigger side. According to a 2014 study of 15,521 men in the UK published in the British Journal of Urology International, the average length of an erect penis is 5.165 inches (results could've been different in Africa or China though). No wonder some of your sexual partners commented about how big your penis is.
It must be wonderful to have an erect penis that doesn't move at the base (no hinge effect). In my case, when I use Caverject, my penis gets very hard but unfortunately, I have a huge hinge effect going on. For hand jobs or blow jobs, it works fine but for penetration it's very mediocre. Hopefully, whenever I get an implant, I'll also be hard at the base like you.
With an erect length of 7'', you are definitely on the bigger side. According to a 2014 study of 15,521 men in the UK published in the British Journal of Urology International, the average length of an erect penis is 5.165 inches (results could've been different in Africa or China though). No wonder some of your sexual partners commented about how big your penis is.
It must be wonderful to have an erect penis that doesn't move at the base (no hinge effect). In my case, when I use Caverject, my penis gets very hard but unfortunately, I have a huge hinge effect going on. For hand jobs or blow jobs, it works fine but for penetration it's very mediocre. Hopefully, whenever I get an implant, I'll also be hard at the base like you.
I'm 39 years old. Never was able to maintain my erections for more than 1 minute. Pills don't work. Had sclerotherapy by Dr. Kuehhas in Austria in 2016. Didn't work. Injections (Caverject) are the only things that gave me acceptable results.
6 years’ update – Part IV
6 years’ update – Part IV
Did the implant change my life?
My sex life, yes. My life? More difficult to answer. As I have said in this thread before, my life wasn’t bad. It was actually really, really good. Career, wife, marriage, kids, financial situation. All going well. Very good actually. My dick was no good, definitely not. But I hadn’t gotten to the point where it over shadowed everything. I do however think that I could have ended up there. As I have stated many times before, just recently in the previous parts of this six years’ update as well, something changed just shortly before I decided to go ahead with the implant.
I think it was partly the sclerotherapy which cured my dick, but only for a few weeks. Maybe that was enough to understand what I was missing, and from then on I was maybe never going to accept my ED.
Speculations, but something changed, and I decided to get on with the implant before it would start to really negatively affect me and my life.
As I have said, I have had ED in some form all my life. From my mid teens and up I have never had a proper long lasting full erection which just stayed up for several minutes without manual stimulation. At least not what I can remember. And definitely not from the age I first had sex.
This has of course impacted my brain. It has forced me into a sexual behaviour which has been in many ways built up with the goal of not failing rather than enjoying. Sex has been more about avoiding the negative than achieving the positive.
And when discussing this subject, the issue most important for me to include is how challenging it has been to deal with this heritage. And furthermore, this has been quite a challenge for my wife as well. She has adopted to the same behaviour and goals as well. Making sure my crap dick lasts till I come. That has been the goal for both of us, rather than enjoying the moment. Not saying we haven’t enjoyed sex – we have – just not as wholly and relaxed as we would have without my ED.
Typical sex for us followed some basic principles.
Never spontaneously. I needed my pills 30 minutes before anything was worth trying. Our basic strategy was “every other day”. Great foresight. But not so spontaneous. Once I knew which day (night) it would happen, next challenge was to know what time it would happen. Many were the nights I was surprised by my wife who all of a sudden wanted to go to bed sooner than I thought, and then I hadn’t taken my pill yet. Equally often the other way around. I thought that in 30 minutes it’s time for bed, but she wanted to stay up longer. Double dose of pills was the solution.
I just didn’t want to say the words “Honey, I took my pills 30 minutes ago, we got to go to bed now”.
Not too long foreplay. And never she blowing me first, and then me giving her oral. Then my dick would be down already and once down, always difficult to get up again. So the typical way was for me to give her oral first, making sure she’d come, then her giving me oral to get my crap dick up, and then right at it. Fast, hard, preferably no position change. My wife very rarely can orgasm more than once, and I know she prefers to come from vaginal sex rather than oral. But that was never easy.
She couldn’t enjoy herself, feeling stressed that she had to come before my crap dick went down. So I’d say that it was probably a 1/3 chance that she could orgasm from intercourse. She ended up faking it sometimes just to spare me the shitty feeling of frantically trying, not making her come, and then see my dick go down.
Even though my ED was very much physical, there is of course a mental component to it as well. When I get stressed that she doesn’t come, or that I don’t come myself for that matter which happened sometimes as well (alcohol or just difficult to orgasm with a semi), then of course my dick would tend to go down even faster than it normally would.
So sex was always a fight against the clock. It became both mine and my wife’s goal to make me come before my dick went down. Of course, if we could make her come as well, that was a great bonus.
Did she enjoy having sex with me? And before I answer that question – where does the answer come from? Well, from what she has told me and from what I read from her reactions. After all, I have known her for a very, very long time.
I think she did. But not nearly as much as she would have if this bloody ED didn’t exist. She has told me several times that the pressure, the stress, the race against the clock to avoid failure rather than relaxing and enjoying the moment made it much less enjoyable than it should have been. She also felt bad from seeing me suffer. Especially those time we couldn’t finish, and my dick went down.
Those times, she felt awkward and didn’t know what to do. I fought between the two options of either go at it again. Blow job, try to get hard again, and another attempt at intercourse and at orgasming. Or just give up, roll over and sleep. The problem with trying again was that another failure would just make me feel even more fucking pathetic. And she knew it. Which is why she preferred to not keep trying. I could of course easily mis-interpret that as she didn’t want to, and on it went…
So what happened after the implant then?
Well, the obvious change is that now my dick could stay hard forever.
But as I have said many times, that does not necessarily and automatically solve all the mental issues. Neither for the implanted man or his partner.
In our case, we had a long journey ahead of us. A journey that started about three weeks after my implant by Eid in New York – the first night I saw her after returning to our home in SE Asia, and after her returning from Christmas holidays back in Scandinavia where we are from.
The first time we had sex, I remember the weird feeling of my dick just not going down. I remember I touched it several times, just to make sure it was actually still hard. I just constantly kept thinking it would for some reason go soft. But it didn’t.
So what was the challenges, the issues needing adaptation?
Reprogramming our brains to change our sexual behaviour and dealing with the obvious difference – the pumping and lack of getting hard by arousal (rarely happened to me anyway) or by physical touch from my wife.
It has been six years now, and depending on where I place the bar, I can say that maybe we are not 100% at the end station yet. Are you ever? Isn’t everything a process? But for sure, these six years have taken us a very, very long way from where we started.
For a long time after the surgery, we maintained much of our previous sexual habits. Lack of spontaneous sex, fast and hard sex with few positional changes, etc. This behaviour was just so rooted in our brains that we just kept going like this. But of course, we enjoyed it a lot more.
I would still say that it took a long time before we really adapted to my bionic superpowers.
It wasn’t until at least year, or maybe even at least a couple of years, when we started to be more playful in bed. Until we just learned how to enjoy every minute and not bothering about the end. Just knowing there would be a happy ending no matter what…
Today, my wife basically comes every time we have sex. I would say it happens less than 1/10 she does not come. 1/20 perhaps. Most of the time she will orgasm first, from a combination of vaginal sex and clitoris stimulation. Which is achieved either with my dick and pubis bone or with my dick and my hand.
If she for some reason struggles to come, I just keep going. She might still get a tiny bit stressed about not coming as easily as normally, but we have learned to enjoy those occasions as well. Normally we both prefer a rather raw and aggressive type of sex. Not the 60 minutes grinding style. So those occasions when she struggles to come actually gives us a change from that style. Either we just take our time to make her come first, and then of course the pace must come down. I can’t fuck like a frantic maniac for 45 minutes… Or we do it the way we normally do, only she doesn’t come first, and then after I orgasm we just slow down again, and keep going for as long as it takes for her to come. Since this happens very seldom, it sort of becomes a nice difference to our normal style. This also helps us from getting stressed about it. If she (or me) doesn’t come as quickly as we normally do – we just relax and keep going at a slower pace for as long as we need.
The result is that it basically never happens that we don’t both come. Can’t say how often, but it can’t be more often than a few times per year.
My approach to the implant technical stuff – inflating, deflating etc – is just right for us. I would never let her inflate, and she would never want that either. Everyone is different, there is no right or wrong of course, but I just think it is really weird and I would never let my sexual partner do that. I wouldn’t feel ok with that.
What I normally do, if I know or at least strongly suspect or plan for sex to happen, is that I just inflate to roughly half when I go to bed. A level of inflation suitable for oral. When it is time to penetrate I just inflate more. From there I will need about 15-20 more pumps, which will probably take me about 30 seconds. I used to not like doing that in front of her, and in the early days I most often just inflated fully before I went to bed. Or while in bed and she was in the bathroom. Nowadays I have no issue with topping it up before I go in.
Something we both enjoy is to start with my oral hardness, and after she has given me oral, I do the same for her. Then I penetrate her with my oral hardness, fuck her softly for some time, go back to oral, inflate a bit more, back inside, etc. Then just gradually increase the hardness of my dick together with the intensity of the thrusting and breaking off with oral in between every hardness increase. She loves it and finally just can’t wait for me to inflate to the max and just fuck her really hard. It’s a good way to find the right hardness as well, and a quite good way to use the implant to its advantage by making use of its ability to serve with different levels of hardness for different types of sex.
If we do it spontaneously, not in bed at night, I just inflate while we get undressed, while giving her oral, or just in front of her while she waits for me to finish. With our busy lives, kids, large house, work, etc – that doesn’t happen as often as we’d perhaps like, but none of us have any issues with the 60 seconds we need to “wait” for my dick to get hard.
I keep saying that an implant is great if you let it be. I know that it is easier to deal with the inflation issues with a steady partner who knows about it than when dating. And yes, believe me, I know. With some deductive ability and adding one and one together, you can judge for yourself what my knowledge of dating and having casual sex with an implant is here on FT…
Anyway, for those struggling with the embarrassment of an implant when dating and having casual sex, the only logical conclusion is this:
You got an implant because your dick sucked. You couldn’t have sex. You hated that, and it destroyed your sex life. Failures and/or passed opportunities. You hated when your dick went down, and you might have noticed some of the women on the (supposedly) receiving end didn’t have much sympathy for you when it happened.
So now you have an implant. Now you have a dick which in terms of erection capabilities is second to no dick on the planet. But you still don’t experience that great sex life because you have issues with how/when to pump, how to avoid her feeling your pump in your scrotum, what to do if she surprises you and wants you to fuck her there and then on the sofa before you had a chance to inflate.
Well, I understand that.
But the fact is, if that’s how you will go about your implant, then it wasn’t much of an improvement to your crap natural ED dick.
Just embrace it. Take the bad with the good. You have a dick which will let you do whatever the F you want once it is inflated. Don’t let anxiety over how to get there stop you.
I really think that spending too much time and energy on finding strategies to avoid embarrassment will just take away too much of the upside.
The simple way of course is just to inflate in the WC before sex. Nothing strange to take a piss or a shower or whatever in the bathroom before sex. That’s it.
And if she feels your pump in your scrotum, just tell her you had an accident some time ago, but all is fine, it feels good, don’t worry, just keep going.
I think the woman who will stop, demand an explanation, and a complete description of what is inside your scrotum is such a rare exception that you don’t need to consider it. In that moment, when you’re already at it, she will just keep going and not ask any further questions.
She might ask you afterwards, but it’s quite easy to just get out of that as well if you really don’t want to tell her. As I said, I had an accident a few years ago, I needed some surgical intervention, but all is fine and I really don’t want to talk about it, hope that’s ok for you.
Done. How many one-night-stands would keep pushing for more answers?
When do you break the news to someone you’ve been dating for a while? After all, you will eventually run into problems with your “sorry babe, just hold it right there, I need to go and take a piss”. But when that day comes, and you need to explain what’s going on, I don’t think it’s a major problem unless you make it one.
You just have to face it, what is better? Hiding around in the bushes, being embarrassed and weak – or being strong, confident and upfront as in “Yes, that’s some story. I was skiing in Austria and crashed really bad. Don’t know how, but either my stick or my ski poked me really bad in my crotch. It hurt like hell, my dick was all blue for a week. Noticed afterwards that my previously so great dick didn’t work the way it should anymore. Got hard but didn’t stay hard. Doc said one of my veins in my dick was broken. I refuse to use the injections, vacuum pumps and such shit. Found this great surgeon who fixed my dick. It’s now bionic, and I just love what I can do with it. In some way, I don’t even miss my old dick. This is like an upgrade.”
And from then on, what’s to hide anymore? And I am pretty confident not many women whom you’ve already started a relationship with would back out because of that.
This is of course easier said than done for some people. Confidence is a personal trait, and some of us have more of it than others.
But reasoning with the logic part of your brain, you will know that being proactive and sitting in the driver’s seat will be a better way to deal with your implant than hiding under a blanket in the back seat.
Back to myself.
Except for turning my shitty sex life into a great one, how has the implant impacted me?
Has it changed me as a person?
Not that much. For me it was rather the icing on the cake, not the foundation needed to stabilize my soon-to-collapse wobbling house.
Everybody I meet would describe me as confident, tough, successful. So the implant didn’t make me that, I was that already. But for sure, it has given me an inner strength in those situations where I lacked it before. Knowing that I never need to fear or worry about any situation where sex might be the end station. I will always be able. Well not only able, I have the tool to be something special.
And in my marriage, I just feel like a complete man, like the man I was supposed to be. As strong and able under the sheets as in other aspects of my life. The implant has made me whole.
Will try to put one more part together in this “series” of my six-years’ update. With some reflections, thoughts and things I have learned through the years.
Till then, take care.
Did the implant change my life?
My sex life, yes. My life? More difficult to answer. As I have said in this thread before, my life wasn’t bad. It was actually really, really good. Career, wife, marriage, kids, financial situation. All going well. Very good actually. My dick was no good, definitely not. But I hadn’t gotten to the point where it over shadowed everything. I do however think that I could have ended up there. As I have stated many times before, just recently in the previous parts of this six years’ update as well, something changed just shortly before I decided to go ahead with the implant.
I think it was partly the sclerotherapy which cured my dick, but only for a few weeks. Maybe that was enough to understand what I was missing, and from then on I was maybe never going to accept my ED.
Speculations, but something changed, and I decided to get on with the implant before it would start to really negatively affect me and my life.
As I have said, I have had ED in some form all my life. From my mid teens and up I have never had a proper long lasting full erection which just stayed up for several minutes without manual stimulation. At least not what I can remember. And definitely not from the age I first had sex.
This has of course impacted my brain. It has forced me into a sexual behaviour which has been in many ways built up with the goal of not failing rather than enjoying. Sex has been more about avoiding the negative than achieving the positive.
And when discussing this subject, the issue most important for me to include is how challenging it has been to deal with this heritage. And furthermore, this has been quite a challenge for my wife as well. She has adopted to the same behaviour and goals as well. Making sure my crap dick lasts till I come. That has been the goal for both of us, rather than enjoying the moment. Not saying we haven’t enjoyed sex – we have – just not as wholly and relaxed as we would have without my ED.
Typical sex for us followed some basic principles.
Never spontaneously. I needed my pills 30 minutes before anything was worth trying. Our basic strategy was “every other day”. Great foresight. But not so spontaneous. Once I knew which day (night) it would happen, next challenge was to know what time it would happen. Many were the nights I was surprised by my wife who all of a sudden wanted to go to bed sooner than I thought, and then I hadn’t taken my pill yet. Equally often the other way around. I thought that in 30 minutes it’s time for bed, but she wanted to stay up longer. Double dose of pills was the solution.
I just didn’t want to say the words “Honey, I took my pills 30 minutes ago, we got to go to bed now”.
Not too long foreplay. And never she blowing me first, and then me giving her oral. Then my dick would be down already and once down, always difficult to get up again. So the typical way was for me to give her oral first, making sure she’d come, then her giving me oral to get my crap dick up, and then right at it. Fast, hard, preferably no position change. My wife very rarely can orgasm more than once, and I know she prefers to come from vaginal sex rather than oral. But that was never easy.
She couldn’t enjoy herself, feeling stressed that she had to come before my crap dick went down. So I’d say that it was probably a 1/3 chance that she could orgasm from intercourse. She ended up faking it sometimes just to spare me the shitty feeling of frantically trying, not making her come, and then see my dick go down.
Even though my ED was very much physical, there is of course a mental component to it as well. When I get stressed that she doesn’t come, or that I don’t come myself for that matter which happened sometimes as well (alcohol or just difficult to orgasm with a semi), then of course my dick would tend to go down even faster than it normally would.
So sex was always a fight against the clock. It became both mine and my wife’s goal to make me come before my dick went down. Of course, if we could make her come as well, that was a great bonus.
Did she enjoy having sex with me? And before I answer that question – where does the answer come from? Well, from what she has told me and from what I read from her reactions. After all, I have known her for a very, very long time.
I think she did. But not nearly as much as she would have if this bloody ED didn’t exist. She has told me several times that the pressure, the stress, the race against the clock to avoid failure rather than relaxing and enjoying the moment made it much less enjoyable than it should have been. She also felt bad from seeing me suffer. Especially those time we couldn’t finish, and my dick went down.
Those times, she felt awkward and didn’t know what to do. I fought between the two options of either go at it again. Blow job, try to get hard again, and another attempt at intercourse and at orgasming. Or just give up, roll over and sleep. The problem with trying again was that another failure would just make me feel even more fucking pathetic. And she knew it. Which is why she preferred to not keep trying. I could of course easily mis-interpret that as she didn’t want to, and on it went…
So what happened after the implant then?
Well, the obvious change is that now my dick could stay hard forever.
But as I have said many times, that does not necessarily and automatically solve all the mental issues. Neither for the implanted man or his partner.
In our case, we had a long journey ahead of us. A journey that started about three weeks after my implant by Eid in New York – the first night I saw her after returning to our home in SE Asia, and after her returning from Christmas holidays back in Scandinavia where we are from.
The first time we had sex, I remember the weird feeling of my dick just not going down. I remember I touched it several times, just to make sure it was actually still hard. I just constantly kept thinking it would for some reason go soft. But it didn’t.
So what was the challenges, the issues needing adaptation?
Reprogramming our brains to change our sexual behaviour and dealing with the obvious difference – the pumping and lack of getting hard by arousal (rarely happened to me anyway) or by physical touch from my wife.
It has been six years now, and depending on where I place the bar, I can say that maybe we are not 100% at the end station yet. Are you ever? Isn’t everything a process? But for sure, these six years have taken us a very, very long way from where we started.
For a long time after the surgery, we maintained much of our previous sexual habits. Lack of spontaneous sex, fast and hard sex with few positional changes, etc. This behaviour was just so rooted in our brains that we just kept going like this. But of course, we enjoyed it a lot more.
I would still say that it took a long time before we really adapted to my bionic superpowers.
It wasn’t until at least year, or maybe even at least a couple of years, when we started to be more playful in bed. Until we just learned how to enjoy every minute and not bothering about the end. Just knowing there would be a happy ending no matter what…
Today, my wife basically comes every time we have sex. I would say it happens less than 1/10 she does not come. 1/20 perhaps. Most of the time she will orgasm first, from a combination of vaginal sex and clitoris stimulation. Which is achieved either with my dick and pubis bone or with my dick and my hand.
If she for some reason struggles to come, I just keep going. She might still get a tiny bit stressed about not coming as easily as normally, but we have learned to enjoy those occasions as well. Normally we both prefer a rather raw and aggressive type of sex. Not the 60 minutes grinding style. So those occasions when she struggles to come actually gives us a change from that style. Either we just take our time to make her come first, and then of course the pace must come down. I can’t fuck like a frantic maniac for 45 minutes… Or we do it the way we normally do, only she doesn’t come first, and then after I orgasm we just slow down again, and keep going for as long as it takes for her to come. Since this happens very seldom, it sort of becomes a nice difference to our normal style. This also helps us from getting stressed about it. If she (or me) doesn’t come as quickly as we normally do – we just relax and keep going at a slower pace for as long as we need.
The result is that it basically never happens that we don’t both come. Can’t say how often, but it can’t be more often than a few times per year.
My approach to the implant technical stuff – inflating, deflating etc – is just right for us. I would never let her inflate, and she would never want that either. Everyone is different, there is no right or wrong of course, but I just think it is really weird and I would never let my sexual partner do that. I wouldn’t feel ok with that.
What I normally do, if I know or at least strongly suspect or plan for sex to happen, is that I just inflate to roughly half when I go to bed. A level of inflation suitable for oral. When it is time to penetrate I just inflate more. From there I will need about 15-20 more pumps, which will probably take me about 30 seconds. I used to not like doing that in front of her, and in the early days I most often just inflated fully before I went to bed. Or while in bed and she was in the bathroom. Nowadays I have no issue with topping it up before I go in.
Something we both enjoy is to start with my oral hardness, and after she has given me oral, I do the same for her. Then I penetrate her with my oral hardness, fuck her softly for some time, go back to oral, inflate a bit more, back inside, etc. Then just gradually increase the hardness of my dick together with the intensity of the thrusting and breaking off with oral in between every hardness increase. She loves it and finally just can’t wait for me to inflate to the max and just fuck her really hard. It’s a good way to find the right hardness as well, and a quite good way to use the implant to its advantage by making use of its ability to serve with different levels of hardness for different types of sex.
If we do it spontaneously, not in bed at night, I just inflate while we get undressed, while giving her oral, or just in front of her while she waits for me to finish. With our busy lives, kids, large house, work, etc – that doesn’t happen as often as we’d perhaps like, but none of us have any issues with the 60 seconds we need to “wait” for my dick to get hard.
I keep saying that an implant is great if you let it be. I know that it is easier to deal with the inflation issues with a steady partner who knows about it than when dating. And yes, believe me, I know. With some deductive ability and adding one and one together, you can judge for yourself what my knowledge of dating and having casual sex with an implant is here on FT…
Anyway, for those struggling with the embarrassment of an implant when dating and having casual sex, the only logical conclusion is this:
You got an implant because your dick sucked. You couldn’t have sex. You hated that, and it destroyed your sex life. Failures and/or passed opportunities. You hated when your dick went down, and you might have noticed some of the women on the (supposedly) receiving end didn’t have much sympathy for you when it happened.
So now you have an implant. Now you have a dick which in terms of erection capabilities is second to no dick on the planet. But you still don’t experience that great sex life because you have issues with how/when to pump, how to avoid her feeling your pump in your scrotum, what to do if she surprises you and wants you to fuck her there and then on the sofa before you had a chance to inflate.
Well, I understand that.
But the fact is, if that’s how you will go about your implant, then it wasn’t much of an improvement to your crap natural ED dick.
Just embrace it. Take the bad with the good. You have a dick which will let you do whatever the F you want once it is inflated. Don’t let anxiety over how to get there stop you.
I really think that spending too much time and energy on finding strategies to avoid embarrassment will just take away too much of the upside.
The simple way of course is just to inflate in the WC before sex. Nothing strange to take a piss or a shower or whatever in the bathroom before sex. That’s it.
And if she feels your pump in your scrotum, just tell her you had an accident some time ago, but all is fine, it feels good, don’t worry, just keep going.
I think the woman who will stop, demand an explanation, and a complete description of what is inside your scrotum is such a rare exception that you don’t need to consider it. In that moment, when you’re already at it, she will just keep going and not ask any further questions.
She might ask you afterwards, but it’s quite easy to just get out of that as well if you really don’t want to tell her. As I said, I had an accident a few years ago, I needed some surgical intervention, but all is fine and I really don’t want to talk about it, hope that’s ok for you.
Done. How many one-night-stands would keep pushing for more answers?
When do you break the news to someone you’ve been dating for a while? After all, you will eventually run into problems with your “sorry babe, just hold it right there, I need to go and take a piss”. But when that day comes, and you need to explain what’s going on, I don’t think it’s a major problem unless you make it one.
You just have to face it, what is better? Hiding around in the bushes, being embarrassed and weak – or being strong, confident and upfront as in “Yes, that’s some story. I was skiing in Austria and crashed really bad. Don’t know how, but either my stick or my ski poked me really bad in my crotch. It hurt like hell, my dick was all blue for a week. Noticed afterwards that my previously so great dick didn’t work the way it should anymore. Got hard but didn’t stay hard. Doc said one of my veins in my dick was broken. I refuse to use the injections, vacuum pumps and such shit. Found this great surgeon who fixed my dick. It’s now bionic, and I just love what I can do with it. In some way, I don’t even miss my old dick. This is like an upgrade.”
And from then on, what’s to hide anymore? And I am pretty confident not many women whom you’ve already started a relationship with would back out because of that.
This is of course easier said than done for some people. Confidence is a personal trait, and some of us have more of it than others.
But reasoning with the logic part of your brain, you will know that being proactive and sitting in the driver’s seat will be a better way to deal with your implant than hiding under a blanket in the back seat.
Back to myself.
Except for turning my shitty sex life into a great one, how has the implant impacted me?
Has it changed me as a person?
Not that much. For me it was rather the icing on the cake, not the foundation needed to stabilize my soon-to-collapse wobbling house.
Everybody I meet would describe me as confident, tough, successful. So the implant didn’t make me that, I was that already. But for sure, it has given me an inner strength in those situations where I lacked it before. Knowing that I never need to fear or worry about any situation where sex might be the end station. I will always be able. Well not only able, I have the tool to be something special.
And in my marriage, I just feel like a complete man, like the man I was supposed to be. As strong and able under the sheets as in other aspects of my life. The implant has made me whole.
Will try to put one more part together in this “series” of my six-years’ update. With some reflections, thoughts and things I have learned through the years.
Till then, take care.
43 yo, ED forever from VL
Fit and active
Implanted December 2015
Titan XL 24 cm, no RTEs
Dr. Eid
Activated day 13
Sex after 3 weeks
Gained length and girth
So far It works perfectly
Only one advice: Find a world class surgeon
Fit and active
Implanted December 2015
Titan XL 24 cm, no RTEs
Dr. Eid
Activated day 13
Sex after 3 weeks
Gained length and girth
So far It works perfectly
Only one advice: Find a world class surgeon
Re: My Journal
Thanks Merrix
Always enjoy your thoughts and style, a Q for you…
What are your thoughts on renewing the implant when it eventually petters out (pon intended).
Tx Cb
Always enjoy your thoughts and style, a Q for you…
What are your thoughts on renewing the implant when it eventually petters out (pon intended).
Tx Cb
67years,fighting ed for over twenty years. A sever break, vit E, pataba, Viagra, massage Ved cilas, and I'm tired- throwing in the towel, Op for implant Mar 18, 2021 AMS LGX 18 x12 + 1 3cm RTE, gained girth and length, very glad I took the hard step.
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