Maybe this is the time

[DerDieDas]

Hi all,
it´s not the first time I am writing a post in here.
I am about to turn 36, I have never had sex, got through the trauma of multiple botched surgeries (especially one). It took me years and
years to regain a mental stability and get to the point in which sometimes I feel myself as whole again. Even f I am suffering from ED and I cannot have sex. Pain made this path longer and bumpier than it should have been. But all in all, now I feel normal pleasure, especially when I am given care by someone else. When I don´t have pain, I almost feel like I came to peace with my penis.

All this may looks obvious to many of you. For me it´s not. This something I worked hard on. Time played a part too. Now I can envision myself having sex, which is again something not all can take for granted. I was too crooked in the first place, and then too much broken
to even think of myself having sex. Now things have changed. But it also opens up to a set of concerns that maybe they are not that common, when it comes to penil implant topic.

For instance, how does it feel to have an implant in every day life? This something really concerning for me, as much as giving me the chance to have sex. Is the feeling of carrying around something real or not? Is it something people can get used to? I have been through way too much pain and discomfort, so that this of primary importance to me.

I was checked by Eid in late 2024. He did not find any sign of venous issue, but he believed scar tissues makes my erections weak. For me, it´s a multifactoral ED and I am sure my mind is involved too. Anyway, I cannot win the mental part. If I did not in 10 years and so, it is unlikely to ever happen.