Day 3 - OUCH

[vincentarpino]

So, now I am understanding many of the posts I've read since joining in February.

Day 3 (surgery was on Tuesday) has me questioning myself as to why I did this? I've seen some of you ask this question days after the surgery and now I get it. Yep, I'm icing icing icing, but am a bit miserable today. I've, of course, been through MUCH worse having now been a 3X cancer survivor and dealing with wrist surgery this past summer. But I'm sitting here thinking about why exactly I am putting myself through this torture after going through what I've already been through the past couple of years.

A rhetorical question, of course. I know why I'm doing this. But today, a lot of discomfort. Not so much pain as just plain discomfort. I'm working from home, and I tried working from my standup desk for about an hour earlier this morning and that actually wound up being a mistake. I've been sitting on the sofa, doing mild work on the laptop and phone, but have also been talking at Teams and Zoom meetings and now I am just wiped out.

I think I'm going to tap out for a few hours and sleep and ice. I'm not inflated, so not even sure which direction my dick should be pointed. Right now I do have it pointed up toward my belly button in the compression briefs. I had to ditch the jock strap as it was putting way too much strain on my lower abdomen where my surgeon made a small incision to place the reservoir. I've ordered a larger size on Amazon. I have reached out to my surgeon, who is excellent IMO for advice on dick direction.

This is more of a "journal entry" for those considering IPP and for those of you who have already had it and are past all this bullshit and can give us all positive imagery and direction.

Not really feeling it today, I have to admit.

[vincentarpino]

I think, on further reflection, my issue today is that the pump and valve feel HUGE inside my balls that I can't even visualize being able to use the thing. I'm certain this is due to my balls being the size of 2 green avocados right now. And I'm certain I'll feel better about it in a couple of weeks. But right now it seems inconceivable to me.

[Kodixx]

vincentarpino, I can't tell you how many times I asked myself

What the hell did I let them do to me ?
What the hell did I let them do to me ?
What the hell did I let them do to me ?

And while every guy's journey is different, what you are experiencing emotionally and physically is very common.

Hang in there. Glad you have the perspective that its literally life changing and amazing on the other side

- Chuck

So, now I am understanding many of the posts I've read since joining in February. Day 3 (surgery was on Tuesday) has me questioning myself as to why I did this? I've seen some of you ask this question days after the surgery and now I get it.

[richard_goes_bionic]

I asked myself many times, but lets face it for us there is no other alternative, other you want to go through live without sexual intercourse. No option even with my age. I am doing it for me but the side effect for your partner is a great bonus.

[ElbowRoom]

Yep, you're at the hazing portion of your induction into the brotherhood!

Seriously, I think you're right on schedule, at about the same point in time I had a minor mental meltdown. Pain, fear, hopelessness, it all comes bubbling out. Think of it as all of the repressed emotions we men bottle up "to put on a good face" when going through this scary process. Eventually all that has to come out in some way.

If you're like me, at some point within a few days you'll just say "fuck it, it's going to be whatever it is" and just keep plodding forward, deal with the pain and do whatever you gotta do to get through it. And it will start to improve. You'll still have pain off and on for a while, but it gets manageable (but still not fun) pretty quickly.

[vincentarpino]

vincentarpino, I can't tell you how many times I asked myself

What the hell did I let them do to me ?
What the hell did I let them do to me ?
What the hell did I let them do to me ?

And while every guy's journey is different, what you are experiencing emotionally and physically is very common.

Hang in there. Glad you have the perspective that its literally life changing and amazing on the other side

- Chuck

So, now I am understanding many of the posts I've read since joining in February. Day 3 (surgery was on Tuesday) has me questioning myself as to why I did this? I've seen some of you ask this question days after the surgery and now I get it.

Chuck, thank you so much for the encouragement. I really do appreciate it!!!

[vincentarpino]

Yep, you're at the hazing portion of your induction into the brotherhood!

Seriously, I think you're right on schedule, at about the same point in time I had a minor mental meltdown. Pain, fear, hopelessness, it all comes bubbling out. Think of it as all of the repressed emotions we men bottle up "to put on a good face" when going through this scary process. Eventually all that has to come out in some way.

If you're like me, at some point within a few days you'll just say "fuck it, it's going to be whatever it is" and just keep plodding forward, deal with the pain and do whatever you gotta do to get through it. And it will start to improve. You'll still have pain off and on for a while, but it gets manageable (but still not fun) pretty quickly.

ElbowRoom, thanks so much. I really do appreciate it. I've been through worse than this. So, I'm used to the "good face" and dealing with my emotions. This is a whole different program, isn't it?

[Valdekio]

So, now I am understanding many of the posts I've read since joining in February.

Day 3 (surgery was on Tuesday) has me questioning myself as to why I did this? I've seen some of you ask this question days after the surgery and now I get it. Yep, I'm icing icing icing, but am a bit miserable today. I've, of course, been through MUCH worse having now been a 3X cancer survivor and dealing with wrist surgery this past summer. But I'm sitting here thinking about why exactly I am putting myself through this torture after going through what I've already been through the past couple of years.

A rhetorical question, of course. I know why I'm doing this. But today, a lot of discomfort. Not so much pain as just plain discomfort. I'm working from home, and I tried working from my standup desk for about an hour earlier this morning and that actually wound up being a mistake. I've been sitting on the sofa, doing mild work on the laptop and phone, but have also been talking at Teams and Zoom meetings and now I am just wiped out.

I think I'm going to tap out for a few hours and sleep and ice. I'm not inflated, so not even sure which direction my dick should be pointed. Right now I do have it pointed up toward my belly button in the compression briefs. I had to ditch the jock strap as it was putting way too much strain on my lower abdomen where my surgeon made a small incision to place the reservoir. I've ordered a larger size on Amazon. I have reached out to my surgeon, who is excellent IMO for advice on dick direction.

This is more of a "journal entry" for those considering IPP and for those of you who have already had it and are past all this bullshit and can give us all positive imagery and direction.

Not really feeling it today, I have to admit.

I felt the same way after a few days. What did I let them do to me? Of course I knew that was just the way I was feeling at the time and I was going to see it through one way or another. Also the jock straps were beyond uncomfortable for me. I propped my stuff up with a pillow and wore basic boxers.