Sad Recipient

[Nostori]

AMS 700
Placed 3/7/25 by Dr. Clavell
53 single gay male
Houston, TX

I am not happy with my implant.
I have been a level depressive most of my life and was hoping this could help me feel more like a man. Maybe that was unfair of me. With all the issues, I don't even want to try having sex anymore. Even performing the bottom role as a gay man, the only thought is " What if they touch it (it is going to hurt, what will they think, will they be grossed out,....)". I do understand, that is my issue. I even have instances at 20 yrs old of not being able to perform. Having this my whole life is defeating. All I can see is that I can't do the normal thing that men are supposed to be able to do. Or even have an encounter of " we are so into each other, we have to do it".
I didn't have anyone going through this with me and understanding the expectations at the end. The gay life (unlike the st8 life , I am assuming) is more spontaneous sex meetings and less planned, progressing to this point, encounters.

The issues
I feel pain/hurt/discomfort everyday. I have to get out of my car differently. Usually you would turn and lean forward and pull up. Now I have to pull my butt up off the seat before I start the upward motion. The way I sleep has changed and getting out of bed is more of a thought process than just rolling over.
I knew the pump was large. But seeing it does really prepare you for the feeling when it is done. My pump sits way up to the top left. It is tight to the bottom of the shaft. In my mind, I don't feel that the tubing has enough slack. I understand too much would allow it to move and twist, but I feel there should be a little more to allow the pump to settle lower and between the testicles. It is hard to grab above the top of the pump with the right hand (to hold it from sliding upward) and squeeze the very hard pump with the left hand while the right hand is still in the way of the penis. The scrotum has an unusual full feeling and sticks to the legs much more.
I can feel the whole thing externally, so I know that others touching me can tell. I can feel the caps at the end of the tubes. The hub where the tubes split down to the pump.
I have not noticed any increase in length. I wouldn't even say it feels the size it was. I can feel the tubing at the base and the caps at the tip and I don't see any more distance for increase.
The worst part to me, after going through this is that the penis and at least the upper part of the scrotum is numb. I don't even feel much of anything when i fuck.

Thanks for listening

[Discovernew]

I am sorry you are going through this. However, your implant is very recent so things can still get much better in terms of the pain you are describing.

It would be really useful if you update your signature, and include the exact implant model and size you got + RTEs.

As far as i am aware, Clavell is very good at hiding the tubes. I am surprised you can feel them. Where exactly do you feel the tubing? And have you talked with him about it?

[Nico_from_belgium]

You seem really upset. Did you said all that to Dr? The pump should be pulled à little bit and almost every disease should disapear.

[Nostori]

AMS 700 CX, MS Pump, 12mm x 18cm, rte 2 & 3
When he first saw it at the 6 week, he said, why is it up there? Then felt around, and said it would come down. But I don't see how that is possible when the tissue is healing around where it is.
I want to believe him, since it was only 6 weeks.
I didn't comment about to him about the numbness, cause I know that happens after surgeries. But this is more noticed to me as the days go on.

When I see the doc, it is like he is in such a hurry. I know he is busy. He comes in - blah, blah, blah real fast. Keep doing what your doing. And leaves.

I know i should be jumping in with questions and maybe i am just a slow person, but my mind is like, it's that it? Are we done already?

I don't know guys. It's just me whining. I been in a low place lately anyway and I am a downer.
Just thanks for reading. It feels better that someone is listening.

[Wooody]

AMS 700 CX, MS Pump, 12mm x 18cm, rte 2 & 3
When he first saw it at the 6 week, he said, why is it up there? Then felt around, and said it would come down. But I don't see how that is possible when the tissue is healing around where it is.
I want to believe him, since it was only 6 weeks.
I didn't comment about to him about the numbness, cause I know that happens after surgeries. But this is more noticed to me as the days go on.

When I see the doc, it is like he is in such a hurry. I know he is busy. He comes in - blah, blah, blah real fast. Keep doing what your doing. And leaves.

I know i should be jumping in with questions and maybe i am just a slow person, but my mind is like, it's that it? Are we done already?

I don't know guys. It's just me whining. I been in a low place lately anyway and I am a downer.
Just thanks for reading. It feels better that someone is listening.

Sorry you're feeling this way. Firstly, from my own limited experience, and from all I've read here, the numbness, pain and uncomfortableness is NORMAL and should get better with time and healing. You need to remember you just had your surgery and this is a major change to your body!

With regard to the pump and line placement and how your Dr is talking with you, my advice is to write down specific questions for him and go over each and every one in detail either in person or on the phone. I know Clavell gives his phone number to his patients (at least he offered that to me when I interviewed him). Contact him and make him take the time to answer your questions.

I believe it will get much better for you over time.. just think positive and confidently and will it to be! Good luck to you!

[Bambino09]

AMS 700
Placed 3/7/25 by Dr. Clavell
53 single gay male
Houston, TX

I am not happy with my implant.
I have been a level depressive most of my life and was hoping this could help me feel more like a man. Maybe that was unfair of me. With all the issues, I don't even want to try having sex anymore. Even performing the bottom role as a gay man, the only thought is " What if they touch it (it is going to hurt, what will they think, will they be grossed out,....)". I do understand, that is my issue. I even have instances at 20 yrs old of not being able to perform. Having this my whole life is defeating. All I can see is that I can't do the normal thing that men are supposed to be able to do. Or even have an encounter of " we are so into each other, we have to do it".
I didn't have anyone going through this with me and understanding the expectations at the end. The gay life (unlike the st8 life , I am assuming) is more spontaneous sex meetings and less planned, progressing to this point, encounters.

The issues
I feel pain/hurt/discomfort everyday. I have to get out of my car differently. Usually you would turn and lean forward and pull up. Now I have to pull my butt up off the seat before I start the upward motion. The way I sleep has changed and getting out of bed is more of a thought process than just rolling over.
I knew the pump was large. But seeing it does really prepare you for the feeling when it is done. My pump sits way up to the top left. It is tight to the bottom of the shaft. In my mind, I don't feel that the tubing has enough slack. I understand too much would allow it to move and twist, but I feel there should be a little more to allow the pump to settle lower and between the testicles. It is hard to grab above the top of the pump with the right hand (to hold it from sliding upward) and squeeze the very hard pump with the left hand while the right hand is still in the way of the penis. The scrotum has an unusual full feeling and sticks to the legs much more.
I can feel the whole thing externally, so I know that others touching me can tell. I can feel the caps at the end of the tubes. The hub where the tubes split down to the pump.
I have not noticed any increase in length. I wouldn't even say it feels the size it was. I can feel the tubing at the base and the caps at the tip and I don't see any more distance for increase.
The worst part to me, after going through this is that the penis and at least the upper part of the scrotum is numb. I don't even feel much of anything when i fuck.

Thanks for listening

Ithink you're only seeing the dark side.
You should be happy that you now have a functioning penis. Many guys would like an implant but don't have the money to buy it.

[Nostori]

I didn't. I will be paying on the loan for years.

[jelquinginjury]

AMS 700
Placed 3/7/25 by Dr. Clavell
53 single gay male
Houston, TX

I am not happy with my implant.
I have been a level depressive most of my life and was hoping this could help me feel more like a man. Maybe that was unfair of me. With all the issues, I don't even want to try having sex anymore. Even performing the bottom role as a gay man, the only thought is " What if they touch it (it is going to hurt, what will they think, will they be grossed out,....)". I do understand, that is my issue. I even have instances at 20 yrs old of not being able to perform. Having this my whole life is defeating. All I can see is that I can't do the normal thing that men are supposed to be able to do. Or even have an encounter of " we are so into each other, we have to do it".
I didn't have anyone going through this with me and understanding the expectations at the end. The gay life (unlike the st8 life , I am assuming) is more spontaneous sex meetings and less planned, progressing to this point, encounters.

The issues
I feel pain/hurt/discomfort everyday. I have to get out of my car differently. Usually you would turn and lean forward and pull up. Now I have to pull my butt up off the seat before I start the upward motion. The way I sleep has changed and getting out of bed is more of a thought process than just rolling over.
I knew the pump was large. But seeing it does really prepare you for the feeling when it is done. My pump sits way up to the top left. It is tight to the bottom of the shaft. In my mind, I don't feel that the tubing has enough slack. I understand too much would allow it to move and twist, but I feel there should be a little more to allow the pump to settle lower and between the testicles. It is hard to grab above the top of the pump with the right hand (to hold it from sliding upward) and squeeze the very hard pump with the left hand while the right hand is still in the way of the penis. The scrotum has an unusual full feeling and sticks to the legs much more.
I can feel the whole thing externally, so I know that others touching me can tell. I can feel the caps at the end of the tubes. The hub where the tubes split down to the pump.
I have not noticed any increase in length. I wouldn't even say it feels the size it was. I can feel the tubing at the base and the caps at the tip and I don't see any more distance for increase.
The worst part to me, after going through this is that the penis and at least the upper part of the scrotum is numb. I don't even feel much of anything when i fuck.

Thanks for listening

Ithink you're only seeing the dark side.
You should be happy that you now have a functioning penis. Many guys would like an implant but don't have the money to buy it.

Don't tell him how he should feel

[Courage]

I don't know guys. It's just me whining. I been in a low place lately anyway and I am a downer.
Just thanks for reading. It feels better that someone is listening.

I'm sorry you're feeling low. I've had a frustrating journey myself with being a gay man, emotional problems, impotence, my first doctor, and the implants. It is a lot to carry, particularly when it feels like everyone else is doing well.

It's important on a human level to be listened to when we have a problem. I'm thinking of you, man.

[Discovernew]

AMS 700 CX, MS Pump, 12mm x 18cm, rte 2 & 3
When he first saw it at the 6 week, he said, why is it up there? Then felt around, and said it would come down. But I don't see how that is possible when the tissue is healing around where it is.
I want to believe him, since it was only 6 weeks.
I didn't comment about to him about the numbness, cause I know that happens after surgeries. But this is more noticed to me as the days go on.

When I see the doc, it is like he is in such a hurry. I know he is busy. He comes in - blah, blah, blah real fast. Keep doing what your doing. And leaves.

I know i should be jumping in with questions and maybe i am just a slow person, but my mind is like, it's that it? Are we done already?

I don't know guys. It's just me whining. I been in a low place lately anyway and I am a downer.
Just thanks for reading. It feels better that someone is listening.

To shine a positive light on you, even if the tubing is wrongly placed (i am honestly surprised because some patients from clavell here said they cannot find the tubing anywhere), i know that a tubing revision can be done after a few months. I know this because i asked about my own tubes for revision and doctors told me it can be done. Since it is not a full revision, it is only a small surgery (no need to open the corpora usually).

Hang on. Things are difficult during recovery but can get better.

Just think some members of this forum had 4 revisions but were happy in the end