The doctor who offers me a miracle treatment for my rare problem (or: rare cause for erectile dysfunction) will not come, they even (all) failed to find the source of my problem (what was damaged?). Physically I am very fit, no illnesses, sportsman. Taking now 7.5mg Cialis daily.
Can I have sex? Yes, albeit with a lot of manual (preparatory) work - "Honey, I've managed to get an erection myself, lie down quickly“ - and then try to come as quickly as possible for fear that my penis collapses too quickly. Is that satisfactory? No. Can you do that in a trustful long-term relationship? Yes. With a spontaneous one night stand? No. If I'm in the right mood and a lot of dopamine shoots into my brain, it even sometimes works without prior self-help. To support to have at least a bit of normal feeling I take just for having sex additional single doses of either 15 mg Cialis or 100 mg Viagra. But even this works not 100%. In good times - i.e. on holiday with high testosterone levels - I can go longer (sometimes even up to 5-10 minutes), in bad times much worse. So my condition fluctuates.
Interestingly, nevertheless I still have quite strong nocturnal erections/morning woods, for the first 2-3 years I needed 2.5 mg of Cialis daily, then 5 mg daily, now I'm on 7.5 mg daily to keep that stage. When I dont take my daily Cialis, I loose my nocturnal erections more or less. With Cialis, they are mostly really strong, and I also notice that my penis comes up in the night rather quickly - unlike during the day

Can I enjoy sex? Definitely no. Whereas sex used to be a means of relaxation, it is now the source of tension and permanent worries: Will it work, will it not work? With spontaneous casual sex, it's a real self-torture. My "tactic" for the near future will now be to drastically increase the single doses before sex (possibly to 25 mg Cialis or 150 mg Viagra), and to have injections of Caverject at stock as an emergency programme if nothing works at all because of the tension. But is that fun for me? No. Not at all. And the misfunction is 24/7 on my mind.
So I have the thought more and more often: Get an implant with a top surgeon, and end of debate. Final solution. Enjoy life once again and behave like Roger Moore in his best years. You can't do that with pills and injections, but with the super powers of an implant?
Or is it too early for me? Pills didnt fail 100%, I didnt try injections. On the other hand, I'm 52, what am I waiting for?