1 week postop….fighting regret!

[TurnBackClock65]

1 week postop. AMS 700 CX. 1.5 rte. I won’t go back and talk about why I chose to go implant as it is already done an so irrelevant now.
If I could do it over? Probably would never have done it, but I remain optimistic.
Issues? Where do I start? Surgeon left me at 70%, instructed to leave it upright and not do anything else for 2 weeks. As I write this, my penis has shrunk about 3/4” since day 1. It is pointed to the left. The meatus (pee hole) is somewhat twisted toward 3 o’clock where it should be at 6 o’clock. An email to surgeon is responded to by his nurse who states that what I have described is “normal”, with no further explanation.
My scrotum/testicles are tender and I can’t imagine squeezing anything down there. Pump feels like it is more in the rear than it is in between the testicles as I thought it would be. Penis is very sore, it is brutal to try to keep this thing pointed up! Jock straps, socks, gauze, you name it I’ve tried.
I mentioned it had shrunk……when we measured preop I was told 5 3/4 “ was a realistic expectation. I measured at 4 3/4 on day 1, down to near 4” now (normal???). And this little thing is less rigid, less upright, and that much harder to keep upright. Where did those 21cm go? I am not hung up on size, but expect more, I’ve had enough embarrassment in the last 20 years.
But I am tired. Tired of the pain, soreness, worry. Just worn out. Ironically, the farthest thing from my mind is sex! I could give a f*** right now.
Many of you have mentioned speaking to your surgeon and actually getting answers? I envy you. All of my messages to the surgeon are answered by his nurse. All postop visits are with the ARNP, not with him. Apparently I have to get an infection or need a revision to see him again….and he was so receptive beforehand! God has company I guess, according to him.
So there it is. Would I do it again the way I feel right now? No f**king way.
Appreciate you guys and thanks for listening.

[Txagq8]

Dear Fighting Regret:

Not sure if reassurance or a pep talk is going to make you feel better. I’m going to tell you the truth based on my experience.

Incidentally, it’s been a while but when I had more time online and was posting a bit more often I talked on the phone (multiple times) with a young man who was truly freaking out about regretting his decision. He still posts occasionally. Pictures and everything. I don’t think he would sell his implant for $5 Billion.

I went bionic 31 Dec 2019. Very uncomplicated surgery. Uneventful recovery. I was pretty devastated with a bruised purple dick that was 2 1/2” shorter than the one I started with. I was just shy of 7” (6.8) and 3 or 5 days after surgery it wasn’t even 4 1/2”.

I got better service from my Doc and his PA. For first 3 weeks or so I was in the office 2 or 3 times a week. They said “cycle and it’ll be fine!” I’m not sure I truly believed them but I cycled. It all came back. Mostly, anyhow. A good BPEL (bone pressed erect length) is now 6 5/8. So I’ve lost less than .2”. That’s not a loss, that’s a rounding error.

You’re going to have swelling for several weeks, maybe a month. When the swelling goes away, I promise you’ll see more dick. Things that are swollen are distorted in appearance.

If I were you I might be inclined to rip the doctor a new asshole when I saw him. I expect good service from someone my insurance carrier has paid $$$ to treat me. Telling me “it’s normal” without an office visit won’t cut it.

However, truth be known, what you’ve described was certainly normal early in my recovery. And it took a good # of months of cycling for it all to resolve. But hell yeah it was worth it.

A week into being bionic I put on a brave face but internally I wondered “what the F have I done to my junk??? Two and a half years later I’m a 66 year old stud.

I hope things turn around for you. I would bet that they do. But Hoss, it ain’t gonna happen overbite.

[oldbeek]

Sounds normal and the answer you got from the nurse or pa is adequate. Hang in there. My dr has been doing them for 30 years and teaches at USC/Keck medical. His instructions were, let it hang at the most comfortable place for me. Dont touch it. guys here said pull the pump down while healing. He said don't touch it for 4 weeks. He pumped me up 80-90%. I thought I was going to die with pain. I had a stinging feeling like it was burned. I am retired so I went nude all day. I live out in the country so when going for a walk to stay in shape I just wore a long shirt. If someone came buy I just shielded the view of my dick with the shirt. Just touching my dick with the shirt would send me through the roof. I would wrap my dick with toilet parer and put a cardboard cylinder over ti to protect the tip from being touched. I could not push the release button because the whole area was so painfull that my mind would not let me squeeze it. At 4 weeks when the doc squeezed it I went through the roof. After the release it was heaven. I used my hot tub a lot for relief. Now I wouldn't trade it in for anything. You will heal with time and love it later.

[ShouldIwait]

I'm 9 days out with 23cm Titan

1 week postop. AMS 700 CX. 1.5 rte. I won’t go back and talk about why I chose to go implant as it is already done an so irrelevant now.
If I could do it over? Probably would never have done it, but I remain optimistic.
Issues? Where do I start? Surgeon left me at 70%, instructed to leave it upright and not do anything else for 2 weeks. As I write this, my penis has shrunk about 3/4” since day 1. It is pointed to the left. The meatus (pee hole) is somewhat twisted toward 3 o’clock where it should be at 6 o’clock. An email to surgeon is responded to by his nurse who states that what I have described is “normal”, with no further explanation.

Mine looked horrible! I accidentally deflated when sitting in a chair and freaked the fuc out. I figured out how to inflate (3 days out--big pain) BUT just a few pumps and all was well!!! You are probably the same. Don't freak until you start cycling


My scrotum/testicles are tender and I can’t imagine squeezing anything down there.
YES

Pump feels like it is more in the rear than it is in between the testicles as I thought it would be.
Just like me!

Penis is very sore, it is brutal to try to keep this thing pointed up! Jock straps, socks, gauze, you name it I’ve tried.
Guys on here mentioned baby socks...try it!

I mentioned it had shrunk……when we measured preop I was told 5 3/4 “ was a realistic expectation. I measured at 4 3/4 on day 1, down to near 4” now (normal???). And this little thing is less rigid, less upright, and that much harder to keep upright. Where did those 21cm go? I am not hung up on size, but expect more, I’ve had enough embarrassment in the last 20 years.
But I am tired. Tired of the pain, soreness, worry. Just worn out. Ironically, the farthest thing from my mind is sex! I could give a f*** right now.
YES

Many of you have mentioned speaking to your surgeon and actually getting answers? I envy you. All of my messages to the surgeon are answered by his nurse. All postop visits are with the ARNP, not with him. Apparently I have to get an infection or need a revision to see him again….and he was so receptive beforehand! God has company I guess, according to him.
So there it is. Would I do it again the way I feel right now? No f**king way.
Appreciate you guys and thanks for listening.

I'm 9 days out with 23cm Titan and feeling very good. FT has prepared me to NOT judge or freak out for the first couple of months. Hang in there my bionic brother

[DougAnd]

I went in with 7 and came out partially inflated with less than 4. Just like you I freaked out. For weeks. Don't. Took me 9 months to get back my 7. But I discovered you use it or lose it. Just inflated to 6. Could have let it sit and gotten more. Not worth the fuss. Hang in there count the days

[Scott61]

I'm 5 weeks post op today. The only thing I can add is to say you will probably be glad the pump is lower and behind your testicles. That's exactly how mine is and I haven't pinched the wrong one yet! I was worried in advance that it may be hard to distinguish between the pump and the testicles; this works out real well with the current exception that I can feel it pressing on most chairs while I sit down. I can tell, though, that I will get used to it and all will be fine.

Hang in there brother! It's all going to work out!

[hectorm64]

1 week postop. AMS 700 CX. 1.5 rte. I won’t go back and talk about why I chose to go implant as it is already done an so irrelevant now.
If I could do it over? Probably would never have done it, but I remain optimistic.
Issues? Where do I start? Surgeon left me at 70%, instructed to leave it upright and not do anything else for 2 weeks. As I write this, my penis has shrunk about 3/4” since day 1. It is pointed to the left. The meatus (pee hole) is somewhat twisted toward 3 o’clock where it should be at 6 o’clock. An email to surgeon is responded to by his nurse who states that what I have described is “normal”, with no further explanation.
My scrotum/testicles are tender and I can’t imagine squeezing anything down there. Pump feels like it is more in the rear than it is in between the testicles as I thought it would be. Penis is very sore, it is brutal to try to keep this thing pointed up! Jock straps, socks, gauze, you name it I’ve tried.
I mentioned it had shrunk……when we measured preop I was told 5 3/4 “ was a realistic expectation. I measured at 4 3/4 on day 1, down to near 4” now (normal???). And this little thing is less rigid, less upright, and that much harder to keep upright. Where did those 21cm go? I am not hung up on size, but expect more, I’ve had enough embarrassment in the last 20 years.
But I am tired. Tired of the pain, soreness, worry. Just worn out. Ironically, the farthest thing from my mind is sex! I could give a f*** right now.
Many of you have mentioned speaking to your surgeon and actually getting answers? I envy you. All of my messages to the surgeon are answered by his nurse. All postop visits are with the ARNP, not with him. Apparently I have to get an infection or need a revision to see him again….and he was so receptive beforehand! God has company I guess, according to him.
So there it is. Would I do it again the way I feel right now? No f**king way.
Appreciate you guys and thanks for listening.

Hey man,
It is easy to advice and very difficult to practice " Patience"
During the first four weeks your mind is going to trick you. Please wait with patience for the final product.
I have heard that when the surgeon leaves you 70% inflated, the out come is better, It brutal but it pays off. Please try to manage the pain and have a positive mind. Believe us, you will be so happy for taking this decision, the only thing bad here is your doctor careless, If was you I will demande to see him in person, you can express your concerns. He didn't do it for free, you have a right to demand what you paid for.
Hang in there my friend, write to us, we support each other. I thanks my bionic brothers for helping me. I don't think I couldn't do it alone. I learned a lot here and after 16 months post-op I still come here for answers.
I am sending a big hug my friend.
Hector

[68CatFan]

Two and a half years of reading posts by gents who just got an implant and nearly everyone starts out with "What did I just do?" anxiety. Then a year later you see the "no regrets" down in their bio. BTW, it is not irrelevant of why you chose an implant or what you've gone through because it helps others who are going through the same issues. Who was your surgeon? Please share your experience with him or her too.

[TurnBackClock65]

I thank you all for the responses and support! My 1 week post op post did sound a bit wimpy, but that is truly how I felt at the time.
To update: At my 2 week appointment I was examined by the PA and according to her everything looked great. She proceeded to find the deflate button and told me to take a deep breath while squeezing……it was not pleasant at all, but oh what relief!! She said it was still slightly inflated, but ok to leave it that way. Instructed me to leave it alone, don’t do anything for 4 weeks, then they will teach me how to cycle.
And that’s what I have done…..leave it alone. It has shrunk a bit more, not really concerning to me. In fact my only concern now is the hard “nodules” I feel at the base of my shaft on both sides. They feel like pebbles, but can be compressed with my finger. Are these kinks? Feels like the hard edge of a kink in a garden hose. I guess I worry a bit that if these are kinks then isn’t that a weak spot more prone to breaking? Any thoughts out there?
Otherwise, most of the swelling is gone, I can clearly feel the pump but still can’t imagine squeezing it! Is that all in my head? Even if it doesn’t involve a testicle, you’re still squeezing your tissue pretty damn hard! Maybe it’s my brain that can’t accept squeezing anything in my scrotum? (Thank you brain!).
Anyway….1 month post op now, just leaving it alone and getting used to that rather huge 3rd testicle.
Thanks again! Please let me know your thoughts about those hard bumps at base of shaft!

[tomas1]

You'll really enjoy it when you try to squeeze the pump and it squirts out of your grasp and smashes into one of its brothers.
Seriously though, I guess your kinks are "do ears"?