26 years old. Implant or suicide.

[Anatomical suicide]

Hi everyone.
I'm an Italian 26 years old male who suffers from a severe form of ED
It all started during my first sexual encounters, when i realized that achieving and maintaining a decent erection was a struggle.
As a matter of fact, apart from any sexual encounter I could have possibly had, i hardly can think about a single masturbatory session carried out with a good rigidity and without losing the initial erection. There were particular circumstances when it happened, but in the overwhelming majority of cases, even when masturbating and even with manual stimulation, it would be almost a miracle if I got to obtain a full erection and, even if did so, I'd lose it in a matter of seconds.
Laying down on my back is the only position allowing me to obtain and maintain a decent erection, also without stimulation. The instant i move and turn right or left i start immediately losing it, while if I sit or, even worse, stand up my dick goes limp in no more than 5 or 10 seconds.
These are clear symptoms of venous leak and, along with the total absence of morning and nocturnal erections, they are making my existence, especially at this stage, unbearable. A nightmare.
I was visited by a specialist: my T blood level got checked and turned out to be excellent and, based on my anamnesis, he suspected a venous leak. I was prescribed a cure, a typical cure with Cialis daily and supplements. I'm about 1.68 cm and 56 kg. Perfect phisical shape. While taking Cialis and supplements i even started a 40 minutes aerobic activity almost every day in the hope of getting better, building a stronger cardiovascular system and finally beating or at least deepening my ED.
With my absolute astonishment nothing worked and the scenary got even worse, despite all sacrifices. The above mentioned are only few of them.
I had a three days holiday and i was with the girl I've been hooking up with since may.
We had already tried to have sex in the previous months and you can imagine the result. I wasn't even able to maintain an erection during oral. She was supportive and seemed to have understood my condition.
Last week we tried again. Now i had Cialis, a cure and one month of intense phisical activity.
It couldn't be worse than other occasions. On the contrary, it went worse, far worse.
Not only did I lose six times (!) my erection during petting, two times even under her manual stimulation and right before cumming, but my attempts to penetrate were so ridiculous that i couldn't even look at her eyes. Again, she acted as if nothing had happened, but i could see her disappointment. She's 30 yeas old and had never come across such human failure.
I got back home, sent her a message and i was about to commit suicide. I couldn't put up mentally with such humiliation. My mother stopped me. I was forced to openly talk about it and an implant appeared to be the only solution, with all the risks associated.
I don't even feel like a man. I'm half man. I was betrayed by my genetics that gave me a non functioning penis. The relationship with the girl i was talking about is probably going to end because of this unacceptable condition.
Just wanted to get in touch with some implanted young members and know if i may ask you something about your robotic instrument down there.
Sorry for my English and thanks for your attention.

[Sensei_099]

Hi bro, I feel your emotions throughout your message, but do not lose hope !! you don't have to lose hope. I can understand you because I have 24 I am around 185 cm and 87 kg perfectly in shape, and my erection become worse and worse throughout the years, now it's difficult to have and maintain an erection but I will find a solution ! The medicine is better than before and we can heal ourselves in one way or another. Overall you are healthy, you can walk, run, watch, smell and eat. You can dm me if you want to talk.

[pentagram]

Hey
I have exactly the same symptoms like you. I am almost 30.
I was in many urologists. They described me always pills. Sildenafil,
Tadalafil, wardenafil etc. I was Taking sildenafil 100 mg with tadalafil 20 mg
And results was not enough. Finally i took doppler test. It showed venous leak.
My urologist looked on results and confirmed it. He doesnt have expirience with implants
so i wrote to Another doctor to talk about price of implant etc.
He was talking that implant should be the last Choice. He was talking that doppler
test isn't the exact examination, he was talking about fals diagnose of doppler test.
He said that i should make angio ct because it is more accurate than doppler.
So i took this test but now i have to wait on results.
I feel like i am in dead end. I don't know what to do. I know how you feel. Be strong man

[Mazzio]

I was in the same situation about 40 years ago. My erections were poor and I failed with all girls totally in bed. It was humiliating and depressing. At that time there was no cure for ED. The doctors were total idiots. I knew that there was problem with the blood flow. You can feel a severe venous leak when the bloods flows out from the dick. Doctors said that I had mental problems.
For over 15 years I did not have any physical contacts with women. I lived mostly alone and was very depressed. When Viagra came to market it worked enough for sex. Me erection was about 80%. That is the best I've ever had. After about 10 years I changed to injections. Now I use pill+injection combo.
Try to find a solution that works for you. Go for an implant after all other options have been tried.
Anyway you are not alone with your problems.

[Anatomical suicide]

Hey
I have exactly the same symptoms like you. I am almost 30.
I was in many urologists. They described me always pills. Sildenafil,
Tadalafil, wardenafil etc. I was Taking sildenafil 100 mg with tadalafil 20 mg
And results was not enough. Finally i took doppler test. It showed venous leak.
My urologist looked on results and confirmed it. He doesnt have expirience with implants
so i wrote to Another doctor to talk about price of implant etc.
He was talking that implant should be the last Choice. He was talking that doppler
test isn't the exact examination, he was talking about fals diagnose of doppler test.
He said that i should make angio ct because it is more accurate than doppler.
So i took this test but now i have to wait on results.
I feel like i am in dead end. I don't know what to do. I know how you feel. Be strong man

Sorry to hear that. I can feel you.
If I you have the same symptoms I have and dont't respond to those dosage of combined Cialis and Viagra there's nothing to wait. You've even had a Doppler with a diagnosed venous leak.
It's clear that there is nothing to wait. I know this is a torture, a devastating torture when someone is as young as us. I'm determined to go on and try to end this nightmare. Don't wanna waste time with exams and useless therapies no more. My symptoms are clear, my life experience even more.
I hope you the best.

[Anatomical suicide]

Hi bro, I feel your emotions throughout your message, but do not lose hope !! you don't have to lose hope. I can understand you because I have 24 I am around 185 cm and 87 kg perfectly in shape, and my erection become worse and worse throughout the years, now it's difficult to have and maintain an erection but I will find a solution ! The medicine is better than before and we can heal ourselves in one way or another. Overall you are healthy, you can walk, run, watch, smell and eat. You can dm me if you want to talk.

Thanks, bro.
I hope you can find a solution, better if that were an oral one: try Cialis, Viagra and Levitra, if you haven't already done it.
Sadly, my only remaining solution is getting an implant.
My condition is not bereable. I can't even masturbate.
If yours is not that desperate, I'm sure you will find a way out.
Stay strong!

[Anatomical suicide]

I was in the same situation about 40 years ago. My erections were poor and I failed with all girls totally in bed. It was humiliating and depressing. At that time there was no cure for ED. The doctors were total idiots. I knew that there was problem with the blood flow. You can feel a severe venous leak when the bloods flows out from the dick. Doctors said that I had mental problems.
For over 15 years I did not have any physical contacts with women. I lived mostly alone and was very depressed. When Viagra came to market it worked enough for sex. Me erection was about 80%. That is the best I've ever had. After about 10 years I changed to injections. Now I use pill+injection combo.
Try to find a solution that works for you. Go for an implant after all other options have been tried.
Anyway you are not alone with your problems.

Hi, Mazzio.
Thanks for your reply.
Did you get an implant or are you planning to do so?

[Mazzio]

I don't have an implant. If I can go on with pills+injection combo that enough for me. Even the doctors who do implant surgeries say that it is better to go through all other options before an implant. If you can hang out some years who knows if there will be something new solutions to the ED market.

[AST2123]

Hi everyone.
I'm an Italian 26 years old male who suffers from a severe form of ED
It all started during my first sexual encounters, when i realized that achieving and maintaining a decent erection was a struggle.
As a matter of fact, apart from any sexual encounter I could have possibly had, i hardly can think about a single masturbatory session carried out with a good rigidity and without losing the initial erection. There were particular circumstances when it happened, but in the overwhelming majority of the case, even when masturbating and even with manual stimulation, it would be almost a miracle if I got to obtain a full erection and, even if did so, I'd lose it in a matter of seconds.
Laying down on my back is the only position allowing me to obtain and maintain a decent erection, also without stimulation. The instant i move and turn right or left i start immediately losing it, while if I sit or, even worse, stand up my dick goes limp in no more than 5 or 10 seconds.
These are clear symptoms of venous leak and, along with the total absence of morning and nocturnal erections, they are making my existence, especially at this stage, unbearable. A nightmare.

Sorry for my English and thanks for your attention.

I am not as young as you are, but I was in the same situation for about 4 years. I can understand how it feels when you are in bed with your woman and can't have or maintain an erection. I didn't give up. I tried pills, injections, and Muse (into the urethra), but they all failed. All this time, I didn't know anything about implants, when I came across on FT, I said to myself this is the solution I have to go for. I started the process with ups and downs (with insurance issues), and finally got it implanted. Now, I can't be happier.
I don't know if the implant is covered or not for you, or if you can afford it, but you just need to know that there an excellent solution for you out there. Once you know that, you will no longer be depressed. Apart from that, you have a very supportive girl friend. Read more and more about young guys experiences here, and talk to your friend openly.

[Anatomical suicide]

I don't have an implant. If I can go on with pills+injection combo that enough for me. Even the doctors who do implant surgeries say that it is better to go through all other options before an implant. If you can hang out some years who knows if there will be something new solutions to the ED market.

I don't see any solution, if not in a distant future, maybe 15-20 years. By that time I will be 45 years old and, if i don't get to solve this problem NOW, i will be a cadaver. Way before that time.
Here in Italy, Europe in general, they haven't even come to agree on the existence of a venogenic disfunction. There is no available exam able to diagnose a venous leak with an elevated rate of accuracy. The only things andrology offers are pills casually discovered 23 years ago.
So I can't see how can they come up with a resolutive solution in the brief term.
Individuals lke me suffering from venogenic disfunction are screwed up: pills, injections or implant. Here is the package. The alternative is suicide - I'd get there - or whichever else but sex or women.