My Young History 19 years Old

[UnbrknJR]

Hello everyone, new to FrankTalk but not so new, later having read many posts. Here I will make a thread about me history. I will try to be as detailed as possible.
19 years old, Spain, at 16 I had my first sexual relationship a little strange, an incomplete erection, it cost me get it. Nervous thing, I thought. Last year I had sex again. Of the numerous times I tried, only two were "successful" and I say success because I managed to penetrate, but it was quite an achievement for me. They were embarrassing situations, I thought it was a trigger, but they were too repetitive. So after suffering these situations, I decided to tell my parents and go to the doctor. I am lucky that I have received the support of my parents all this time.

My problem is that I got erections, but they were kind of soft, and when I got them good they lasted
very little, so it was impossible for me to keep them.

The first uro I visited was a fucking jerk, he treated me for Psychological, without exploring me and I send myself analytics.
I evaluated the analytics with my endocrine which told me that all the results were correct, including prolactin, a hormone related to sexuality.
Visit another known urologist, who also hinted, that he also thought he was psychological, and he told me that I would deny any doctor who told me to put a prosthesis on, which I think if I needed it right now, who is him to tell me no.

I went to another urologist, until now my current doctor, which he has behaved very well. He sent me the Doppler ultrasound.
In the test everything seemed to be going well until the doctor saw something abnormal in veins. I was diagnosed with venous leak. After seeing the results, they offered me to do an embolization, (a procedure similar to sclerotherapy) but not they guaranteed me the results, so I did another test An angiography, to better see how the vein worked,
I They anesthetized and so it was, they confirmed a leak but it was slight.

While the trial period, I asked my uro to send me any oral treatment, Cialis 5mg daily, which currently consumption, and it seems to have a good effect, I can have relationships sex and penetrate, but I don't know if it's a 100% good erection, since my problem is probably from birth, and I don't have a correct reference of what is an erection. This will surprised my urologist and the radiologists in charge of the embolization, since with my problem it was rare that they worked.

After this they recommended that I continue with the pills.

There was a stop and I continued with the oral treatment.
This month I saw Rosello Barbara, a well-known doctor internationally and very good in prosthetics. It was a very good query.
I went to my parents, and he gave the three of us a great informative talk about the erection process. I think I am in good hands, and if I need a treatment Surgical he is the one, due to my geographical situation.
The doctor told me that he does not agree with the embolization and its effectiveness compared to other proven solutions, so leave me again at the starting point.
He also told me that it was normal that the pills could function by being a healthy young boy.
Now he is the one who is going to make another diagnosis and another echo-duplex I am waiting for the test since it has stopped due to coronavirus theme.

So far a summary of my medical history, surelyI left something, but that's how I am in context.

Now comes the emotional part, the most devastating part and for the one I write on this page. At 19 years old receive this news it is something that destroys you. I have a relationship with the girl that I mentioned in the beginning, and as you will understand it is something super hard for both of us. She supports me, but I can't take it off of the head, even though the pills work, does not leave to be present in my head, I feel like I enjoy sex only at the moment, because at the beginning for me it is a test, I do not know if I will overcome, and at the end, my thoughts They come back and remind me that this time it worked, but I don't know when I stop doing it.
Even during masturbation it is a constant anxiety, because I can't stop thinking about it, stimulating myself to see if the erection is still working, stand up, make sure that I can still.

My self-esteem is rocketing, every time I hear or see Something sexual, my head is spinning, feeling me inferior with those around me, feeling less men, disgusting images of other boys making the girl I'm with better than me. Thinking about my loving future, about how to carry everything, on how to downplay it, how to overcome it, on the very likely implant, that I will need, in the period that I will not be able to maintain relations before and after the operation, in the operation.
Why is this happening to me? I have gone to psychological help, sometimes it helps, but I can't control it always ...
And every time I stop taking the pills I feel terrible, sad and inferior, they have created a dependency on me.

Here the first post and my story, I will try to be extensive, and bring relevant and useful information about treatments, medical opinions, and doubts that together we can solve. I will appreciate any advice and comment, thanks.

[David_R]

We are with you, brother.
Estamos contigo, hermano.

[Captain1117]

Totally understand your mental situation.
As a bit older man who had several heartbreaks in teen age and twenties here are few facts that you need to think about:

I will start with a short term fix(while you wait for implant):

As a single man with ED for last few years.I can say this with confidence .If you can make a female orgasm several times even before you take your pants off..she wont remember how hard you were or how long you lasted etc.
Please watch some youtube videos about multiple orgasms and squirting orgasms.
I have discussed this with dozens of young girls and when they have sex with most men or they themselves while masturbating do not always come. So if you know the art of orgasm(dick not required). and take the time and care to give it to her few times in one session.she/they will be super happy with you.


1. I have read in the forum about men in their seventies and maybe later age , are enjoying sex with the help of an implant. This wasn't possible 100 years back. Let's say you get an implant and heal in another year from now. You will have at least 60 plus years of satisfying sex life ahead.I am sure in next 10-20 years there will be way advanced implant coming out..so your future sex life can only get better from here.Read the last line twice.

2. The anxiety and loss that you are feeling because of this one girl you like is not going to last. Please read/watch Dr.Esther Perel to understand that biologically humans are serial monogamers. Even if this relationship gets over ..you will continue to meet and attract lots of women..if you chose to. I know at 19 you probably believe in the romantic love for life idea(I did too) but please read the science.

3. Please understand that in sexual marketplace a mans worth peaks when he reaches late 30, early 40, unlike a females that peak around 23. More importantly you need to realize that you my friend are the prize..dont make any ..any woman your prize in life. Read/watch Rollo Tomassi, Rational Male..he is also on youtube.

You have lot of time on your side, supportive parents, a good doctor and a proven medical device available.

Feel free to reach out if I can be of any assistance.