New Titan First Full Test Drive on Day 56

[stephen54]

Need I mention that we started having sex at 17 and have been married for 46 years. 66 years old and still the most important person to each other. Sex is just part of the reward. Good sex breed intimacy. Intimacy breeds good sex.

Smart man. Lucky couple. Dead on the nails correct, man. Congrats that you both wake up each day knowing that deeply, and honoring that.

[stephen54]

Wow, and I thought I was graphic, lol. Glad to hear the progress.
Just posted on my thread about being able to fuck ass after a month of bitching. Was pleasantly surprised, as I thought the malleable would not hold up. A little back story, but I am uncut, and dabbing my dick after I piss was uncomfortable. I was expecting that ANY type of pressure on it would be uncomfortable.
Needless to say, I went to town this afternoon. Did not 'finish', but took a wild test drive!

I was being diplomatic, man. I realize this forum runs the entire bell curve of sensibilities. I'm not everyone's cup of tea, so occasionally I try to rein my stuff in and mind my manners. Occasionally. My "graphic" dial goes a lot higher up than that post....

I am going to go read your thread! Love it.

[stephen54]

Wifey & I have gotten a bit more out of my implant last week. Due to her weight we had to be creative, using the porno "scissor" position with her on her right side with her left leg up, and honestly I didn't do much of the work due to the awkward position of my legs. I just maxed out penetration and let her grind, all the while working he clitoris bulge. I didn't cum either night during our sessions but the first night she came seven times and the second night it was ten times. She said she'd never cum like that before.

God almighty. I love that. That's a damn lot of orgasms for her, man!

[stephen54]

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I explained to her that this was, in the 9 years we've been together, the literal first time of god knows how many times we've had sex, the first time that I've had the confidence and the ability to lay motionless inside her without worrying about how soon the erection will wane and start to soften without the continual stimulation of thrusting. It was absolutely, indescribably, utterly fucking magic...to shed that anxiety and mental overthinking and worry and all the other ED bullshitty bullshit. It's mind boggling to me still that I have an on-demand iron bar dick we can do (apparently) mostly whatever the hell we want with. It's almost impossible for me to internalize and believe this new reality. It's an adjustment, man. The new world where my mind now can open up and fully see her during sex...fully enmesh with our shared experience in a way that I was always previously challenged with because I would be feeling some interference and some mental limitations prior, because I was never, ever, ever able to be fully present. Because my dick had let me down in the past so many times and in so many ways. And because I knew it could let me down, my mind was never 100% able to free fall into her and into us and into the shared experience because of the fucking ED static constantly playing in my head. So we just had an experience where this whole new world opens up now, and possibility is ripe and real. It's emotional as hell for me. Not going to pretend otherwise. Just about on the verge of tears last night in those moments where I'm recognizing I can give myself over to her, mentally and emotionally, absolutely 100%....and relax...and connect...and connect more deeply and more intensely because that motherfucking ED has been outsmarted and out-engineered and my mind doesn't now need to mentally catalogue and stress all the shit which has gone wrong and could go wrong. Poof. Fucking non-issue. It's extraordinary. Oh...I came. Orgasm was awesome and familiar. She came. I feel like my sensations and sensitivity there is at like 85-90% of what it was pre-op. It's definitely progressively returning. It all feels familiar and awesome.

Thanks for that testimonial.

Here's mine:

When I first began to notice my E.D. it was;

For a LONG time I was plagued by the nagging anxiety of the questions, "Will I stay hard long enough to please her?" then,

"Will I stay hard enough to have an orgasm myself?",

"Will I get hard enough to even get inside her?"

and ultimately the near certainty,

"You will not even GET hard.". And that NEAR certainty was worse than a certainty.

Now that the anxiety of, "Will I stay hard?" is gone, (not to mention the anxiety in the back of HER mind, "Will HE stay hard long enough for me to have even ONE orgasm?") sex can be as carefree, spontaneous and playful as can be.

And during sex, I don't concentrate on keeping my erection. I am free to concentrate of making the most of an erection with staying power, concentrate on how it feels to her and concentrate on being the kind of considerate man IN BED as I try to be OUT OF BED that makes us (her and me) happy with each other.

Yes. "Awesome".

Thanks so much. I entirely understand you. Awesome. And congrats for you both, every one of these types of testimonials and stories just make us happy as hell. She reads some with me here. So cool this brave new world...

[Waynetho]

Wifey & I have gotten a bit more out of my implant last week. Due to her weight we had to be creative, using the porno "scissor" position with her on her right side with her left leg up, and honestly I didn't do much of the work due to the awkward position of my legs. I just maxed out penetration and let her grind, all the while working he clitoris bulge. I didn't cum either night during our sessions but the first night she came seven times and the second night it was ten times. She said she'd never cum like that before.

God almighty. I love that. That's a damn lot of orgasms for her, man!

I read our exchange to her and she told me to tell everyone that she's catching up for lost time.

[Agfa13]

ROFLOL! All you guys are funny:)!
Glad to hear the that the bionic cocks you all have really do have a good purpose, esp. after all the fucking money and misery it cost all of us.
When my buddy came home, told him all about my adventures. He was happy for me, esp. after all the bitching he has heard from me "...ahhh, the price of glory" is what he would always say. Its about time I got some good from this glory!

[niarceel]

Stephen,

You are such an incredible asset to this forum. Thank you so much for sharing the intimate details, thoughts, and feelings that you and your wife have had during this entire process, especially your first full "test drive" of the Titan.

The same compliment applies to all you gentlemen who have bared your souls and shared your lives on this forum.

I've been using Trimix for year. I recently realized that 1 out of 8 men who inject are going to get Peyronies Disease. I do not like those odds. Plus, Trimix causes so much discomfort/pain that it's hard to enjoy an orgasm. I think I've had enough.

I have an appointment with Dr. James Hotaling, Head of Urology, University of Utah Hospital and Medical Center, in 13 days. I told my wife that I'm going to get an implant and get this over with.

P.S. I wish you success in getting your length and girth back. I have read some men's posts that after a few months, their penises' return to approximately where they were before the implant. I know I don't have to tell you, "Keep using that thang!".

[stephen54]

Stephen,

You are such an incredible asset to this forum. Thank you so much for sharing the intimate details, thoughts, and feelings that you and your wife have had during this entire process, especially your first full "test drive" of the Titan.

The same compliment applies to all you gentlemen who have bared your souls and shared your lives on this forum.

I've been using Trimix for year. I recently realized that 1 out of 8 men who inject are going to get Peyronies Disease. I do not like those odds. Plus, Trimix causes so much discomfort/pain that it's hard to enjoy an orgasm. I think I've had enough.

I have an appointment with Dr. James Hotaling, Head of Urology, University of Utah Hospital and Medical Center, in 13 days. I told my wife that I'm going to get an implant and get this over with.

P.S. I wish you success in getting your length and girth back. I have read some men's posts that after a few months, their penises' return to approximately where they were before the implant. I know I don't have to tell you, "Keep using that thang!".

Hey friend! Great to hear from you. Let's be in touch, I want to know your experiences up at Univ Utah in a few weeks and what the plan becomes for you going forward. I'm excited for you. For you both. Being diligent and well-informed...I know you are doing all of that. You clearly have your partner on your side and charging in to this new world together. Such a blessing, right? And I just like how resolute you seem to be. Purpose-driven to get it on, get moving, get through the shit, and get on the other side with her. I love your diligence and research mixed with your urgency. Totally understand and love that.

Would love to catch up after your visit!

[Randy461]

Stephen,
Sounds like you have progressed well with only a few hiccups along the way. Very inspiring to read how truly emotional it is.
I am still considering traveling from Indy to see Dr Levine. I spoke with his office last week about a consult so I am hoping to move forward with that.
Thanks again for the inspiration.

[stephen54]

Stephen,
Sounds like you have progressed well with only a few hiccups along the way. Very inspiring to read how truly emotional it is.
I am still considering traveling from Indy to see Dr Levine. I spoke with his office last week about a consult so I am hoping to move forward with that.
Thanks again for the inspiration.

Hey Randy!

Thank you for those kind words. I've found that I've really benefitted from the guys here who have either on this forum, or on the phone, or in private messages, just given me the gift of being blunt, honest, clear, and wide open sharing their experiences both physical and psychological. Everyone has, in some way, become a part of the larger puzzle I've needed to assemble for my own sanity going forward with this implant. The guys here have inspired me repeatedly, so I love having the opportunity to share our experiences with this implant, with hopes that it is of help to others who are considering this.

Honestly...my penis has changed. I wake up and go through my life now with a mechanical dick. I thought this would be more off-putting and odd and uncomfortable etc but it's really not. I'm sometimes quite aware that I'm bionic and sometimes it's totally off my radar consciousness. And there are certainly odd things I run across . Today I felt fluid spontaneously swish in kind of a weird little rush deep around my pubic bone. This was while I was driving in the car. Odd. No explanation. But this weird stuff is now coming mostly in stride. It's kind of like...hmmm...ok...fluid whooshed in my perineum. Weird. "Whatever".

And then your day goes on normally.

And I think it's that super fast transition, for me anyway...where my day goes on after an odd physical feeling, or after some discomfort from cycling...because - well...this mechanical dick delivers swagger. I feel mostly sexually invincible. It's such an unfamiliar, but utterly god-like feeling. My wife and I start to play around and I am now able to immerse myself like never before into her and into Us and into the shared experience.

Because I cannot fail.

It's an insane...blessed...addictive feeling and place to find myself. I'm so grateful I did this.