My 12 days of Christmas have started
Posted: Thu Dec 19, 2019 7:59 am
It’s a bit past 6 am, Dec 19th.
I have a report time to go get my LGX implanted of 6 AM on the 31st.
I’ve dealt with life, death, premature babies, multiple combat tours. Why is a simple medical procedure affecting me so?
My wife and I discussed doing this. The ED had made sex pretty much a train wreck over time even with shots and pills. She said, basically, git r done...so I’m cautiously optimistic. But I’m doing this for me and if it helps with wife great, if it does nothing except provide me an erection I use by myself I’m ok with that too. This is all about restoring me to something a lot closer to normal than I have ever been.
As a pubescent teen, when I taught myself the age old art of self abuse, I had no idea that erections didn’t get hard, then soften up 2 minutes later, then harden up again with continued stroking, then soft, then harden ad Infinitum until ejaculation. I quickly figured out that left hand clamped around base of dick (homemade do it yourself cock ring) helped keep things harder. To me, that was normal. I knew nothing else.
When I got sexually active in college, I was initially pretty quick and beyond excited to the point I never lasted too long, so the ED was never really noticeable. But it reared it’s ugly head once married, as I tried to slow things down and make sure my wife was having a good time. She would mention things she would like, but anything less than 100% violent constant stimulation resulted in a cock too soft to do anything with.
That’s going to change. In twelve days. Why am I worrying?
The first time I jumped out of a plane (in the Army) it was fear of the unknown. The second time I would call it fear of the known.
I’m scared. Shitless, actually. Not about the size deal. Well maybe a little but not really. And the infection risk and general anesthesia and overall recovery are worrisome but I historically do real well and heal quickly. I had an inguinal hernia done in 2014 and was back at work on a drilling rig. 3 days later. Not lifting, obviously, but back climbing stairs and telling folks what to do. Everybody said shoulder surgeries were bad but I tore both rotator cuffs and had them fixed. Kept me out of gym for 3 months is all. So why am I agonizing about this?
I’ll be ok. Just needed to vent a bit. Glad this place exists.
I have a report time to go get my LGX implanted of 6 AM on the 31st.
I’ve dealt with life, death, premature babies, multiple combat tours. Why is a simple medical procedure affecting me so?
My wife and I discussed doing this. The ED had made sex pretty much a train wreck over time even with shots and pills. She said, basically, git r done...so I’m cautiously optimistic. But I’m doing this for me and if it helps with wife great, if it does nothing except provide me an erection I use by myself I’m ok with that too. This is all about restoring me to something a lot closer to normal than I have ever been.
As a pubescent teen, when I taught myself the age old art of self abuse, I had no idea that erections didn’t get hard, then soften up 2 minutes later, then harden up again with continued stroking, then soft, then harden ad Infinitum until ejaculation. I quickly figured out that left hand clamped around base of dick (homemade do it yourself cock ring) helped keep things harder. To me, that was normal. I knew nothing else.
When I got sexually active in college, I was initially pretty quick and beyond excited to the point I never lasted too long, so the ED was never really noticeable. But it reared it’s ugly head once married, as I tried to slow things down and make sure my wife was having a good time. She would mention things she would like, but anything less than 100% violent constant stimulation resulted in a cock too soft to do anything with.
That’s going to change. In twelve days. Why am I worrying?
The first time I jumped out of a plane (in the Army) it was fear of the unknown. The second time I would call it fear of the known.
I’m scared. Shitless, actually. Not about the size deal. Well maybe a little but not really. And the infection risk and general anesthesia and overall recovery are worrisome but I historically do real well and heal quickly. I had an inguinal hernia done in 2014 and was back at work on a drilling rig. 3 days later. Not lifting, obviously, but back climbing stairs and telling folks what to do. Everybody said shoulder surgeries were bad but I tore both rotator cuffs and had them fixed. Kept me out of gym for 3 months is all. So why am I agonizing about this?
I’ll be ok. Just needed to vent a bit. Glad this place exists.