implanted - my story
Posted: Fri May 04, 2018 10:02 pm
Hey guys. I just got implanted yesterday and wanted to share a quick fragmented version of my story followed by a journal. I want to begin by giving my dad a shout out because without him I would not have been where I am today with this issue and other issues in early adulthood. He helped me find a way to treatment.
My story began 10 years ago when I was only seventeen years old. I was a junior in high school, whom had recently began experimenting with the opposite sex. I remember having rock hard erections, then literally overnight could not get an erection for the life of me. I had never had this problem. I was able to masturbate and achieve an erection pretty much anytime. I had morning erections everyday, would pop uncontrollable wood in class, and could get erect with a girlfriend. At the time I did not know what caused my ED. I initially attributed it tripping on LSA around the time I noticed my dysfunction. I tried to masturbate while in a lucid state and failed. I figured it was all in my head following this failure but after a few months of consistent failure, catching flack from girlfriends, and trying every OTC supplement out there I approached my father and asked for help. I could not get hard, did not have morning erections, and could not masturbate (could ejaculate but with a flaccid penis). I knew something was wrong. We set up an appointment with a urologist and the doctors concluded that at my age ED would have psychological causes and sent me out the door with some viagra and the assumption my dysfunction would resolve with time. Boy did the viagra work. I could get hard as a rock on just 25 mg. I hated the flushing side effect but it worked. My girlfriend was happy ( I never told ANYONE about my problem in high school) and I was happy. I found PDE5 inhibitors which seemed to fix my problem temporarily. I quickly acquired a stash of all of the PDE5 from doctors and online sources (much cheaper) and was GTG. I favored cialis at the time as 5 mg daily dose worked great. What I noticed however, was that the effectiveness of these medication diminished over time. By sophomore year in college, I could barely keep a hard on with upwards of 40 mg of cialis. Additionally trying to cope with ED while at a University surrounded by beautiful women caused some mental health issues. I began experiencing severe depression and anxiety 2009-2012 to which I self medicated with drugs. The drugs helped me cope with my dysfunctioning penis but probably expedited the path to worsening dysfunction. ED fucked my head up, I thought about it all day everyday (even to this day, however I have accepted it) and it tormented me. Once I got my life somewhat together and stopped seeking highs I made it a point to do anything and everything to treat my ED. I remember one day watching a TLC show that followed a 22 y/o with ED. He ended up getting a revascularization surgery with great results. Around this time and 5 years of ED, it was clear that my ED was not in my head. Without the medication I was nothing, and with it I was not much. I started looking for solutions I had not explored and I found that many young men experience impotence following damage to the pudendal penile artery. This cause of ED is common among aggressive mountain bikers and can be treated with a revascularization surgery as I had witnessed on TV. A light went of in my head. At the onset of my symptoms I was mountain biking 5 days a week. In fact, I remember overshooting a drop off transition and impacting my pudendal region shortly before noticing symptoms. I thought I had figured out the cause of my impotence. I found a world class doc that does revascularization, and had the workup. Both of my penile arteries were occluded. one entirely and one partially. I qualified for the surgery and had it done. Essentially they connected an artery in my stomach to my penile artery in an attempt to restore bloodflow. The surgery has about a 50 % success rate. Initially I noticed slight improvement in erections which diminished over a few months back to my terrible severe ED. This was a hard time for me. I thought I had found the answer and it did not work in my favor. I decided to continue with PDE5 and started trying injections and pumping. Long story short injections were terrible for me, the pump was a joke, and I was sick of planning sex around medication. I was back to the drawing board and I knew that the implant would likely be my next option. This was hard to accept. I did not want an implant; the thought of it made me cringe. Who would want to have sex with someone with an implant? how do you hide it? what will people thinK? It took me the last 2 years to come to terms with the implant but I finally had it done yesterday. Hopefully this was a good choice.
My story began 10 years ago when I was only seventeen years old. I was a junior in high school, whom had recently began experimenting with the opposite sex. I remember having rock hard erections, then literally overnight could not get an erection for the life of me. I had never had this problem. I was able to masturbate and achieve an erection pretty much anytime. I had morning erections everyday, would pop uncontrollable wood in class, and could get erect with a girlfriend. At the time I did not know what caused my ED. I initially attributed it tripping on LSA around the time I noticed my dysfunction. I tried to masturbate while in a lucid state and failed. I figured it was all in my head following this failure but after a few months of consistent failure, catching flack from girlfriends, and trying every OTC supplement out there I approached my father and asked for help. I could not get hard, did not have morning erections, and could not masturbate (could ejaculate but with a flaccid penis). I knew something was wrong. We set up an appointment with a urologist and the doctors concluded that at my age ED would have psychological causes and sent me out the door with some viagra and the assumption my dysfunction would resolve with time. Boy did the viagra work. I could get hard as a rock on just 25 mg. I hated the flushing side effect but it worked. My girlfriend was happy ( I never told ANYONE about my problem in high school) and I was happy. I found PDE5 inhibitors which seemed to fix my problem temporarily. I quickly acquired a stash of all of the PDE5 from doctors and online sources (much cheaper) and was GTG. I favored cialis at the time as 5 mg daily dose worked great. What I noticed however, was that the effectiveness of these medication diminished over time. By sophomore year in college, I could barely keep a hard on with upwards of 40 mg of cialis. Additionally trying to cope with ED while at a University surrounded by beautiful women caused some mental health issues. I began experiencing severe depression and anxiety 2009-2012 to which I self medicated with drugs. The drugs helped me cope with my dysfunctioning penis but probably expedited the path to worsening dysfunction. ED fucked my head up, I thought about it all day everyday (even to this day, however I have accepted it) and it tormented me. Once I got my life somewhat together and stopped seeking highs I made it a point to do anything and everything to treat my ED. I remember one day watching a TLC show that followed a 22 y/o with ED. He ended up getting a revascularization surgery with great results. Around this time and 5 years of ED, it was clear that my ED was not in my head. Without the medication I was nothing, and with it I was not much. I started looking for solutions I had not explored and I found that many young men experience impotence following damage to the pudendal penile artery. This cause of ED is common among aggressive mountain bikers and can be treated with a revascularization surgery as I had witnessed on TV. A light went of in my head. At the onset of my symptoms I was mountain biking 5 days a week. In fact, I remember overshooting a drop off transition and impacting my pudendal region shortly before noticing symptoms. I thought I had figured out the cause of my impotence. I found a world class doc that does revascularization, and had the workup. Both of my penile arteries were occluded. one entirely and one partially. I qualified for the surgery and had it done. Essentially they connected an artery in my stomach to my penile artery in an attempt to restore bloodflow. The surgery has about a 50 % success rate. Initially I noticed slight improvement in erections which diminished over a few months back to my terrible severe ED. This was a hard time for me. I thought I had found the answer and it did not work in my favor. I decided to continue with PDE5 and started trying injections and pumping. Long story short injections were terrible for me, the pump was a joke, and I was sick of planning sex around medication. I was back to the drawing board and I knew that the implant would likely be my next option. This was hard to accept. I did not want an implant; the thought of it made me cringe. Who would want to have sex with someone with an implant? how do you hide it? what will people thinK? It took me the last 2 years to come to terms with the implant but I finally had it done yesterday. Hopefully this was a good choice.
