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LBC2020 wrote:

hectorm64 wrote:

LBC2020 wrote:Honestly
I’ll be frank...I’m not totally impotent obviously
But the mental toll for me is no unbearable. I couldn’t even imagine doing anytning w a women...I wouldn’t even pay for sex bc it would be over in a few seconds or minutes...either I’d cum or lose it....so that kills the libido

I’m doing the implant even though maybe injections would work for now or more and higher doses kf cialis, but at the end of the day for me, and my obsessive personality that would still make me feel shitty bc I know I would just worry about the next time, the next time, etc.


Can anyone relate to this? I’m
Literally doing this so I can get over this PTSD of ED as I call it...it’s like a phobia now...sure I still get erect and looks totally normal for a certain time but once it’s gone it’s gone....and that mental toll is too great....if I never had sex again and lived on an island I’d still want the implant just to mentally feel like a man...

Does this sound insane?

Hey Man,
I can related to your situation. For some people, maybe sound funny but PTSD of ED is real. I was implanted 9 weeks ago with an excellent result and very smooth recovering time but I am still battling my PTSD of ED. My bionic works perfect but sometimes before sex all those bad memories come to my mind, like before asking me myself " What happen if it doesn't work" I have been working on override those traumatic memories, I know eventually, it will go away.
My implant market the turning point in my regaining control of my life. I am rebuilding new satisfying healthy sex experiences and enjoy my life. The world is new to me and not limited by the restrictive vision of ED anxiety. It amazes me to think back to what my life was like only a couple months ago. I am a happy man now. Only you guys can understand how miserable I was.
LBC2020, Get your implant ASAP with a good surgeon, you will overcome your PTSD of ED soon.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts, you are not the only one with PTSD of ED
Good luck man.
Hector

Thanks hector

It’s likely
Going to cost me my marriage which is horrible

Why can’t a women understand

She said she can’t promise me she’ll accept it it I have to do what I have to do

So here we go

I’m so nervous I could honestly bang myself I really am

Overcome w anxiety
Dealing w my family life while trying to literally save my self abs my mental health

I feel like after this successful surgery I’ll be a man and slowly get myself back

With or without my wife but that would really suck...losing your kids and family bc of the horrible effects of ED and depression

Fuck

How much your penis shrunk on Finasteride?

When fully hard it looks the same

But my hpta crashed
Hypogonadism for years now on TRT and hcg forever

My flaccid dick is the shrunken part...really flimsy and no more random erecrions
Libido in the dumps

Depression


At least the implant will fix a huge part of this cycle

I still vividly recall my first full blown failure to launch. It was at a romantic B&B for our 20th anniversary. I thought a nuclear bomb detonated in my head. I wanted to leave after the first night and go home. My wife persuaded me to stay but the second night was the same thing. I didn't learn until years later that a surgery I was recently recovered from, the removal of my sigmoid colon, can leave up to 75% of men who have that with intractable ED. I spent a few years in a hopeless downward spiral that included a lot of suicidal ideation. I felt useless. I couldn't deal with anyone which led to me closing a sign company I'd owned all my adult life and retiring at age 58. I basically became a vegetable with a routine that involved oversleeping every day and laying on the couch all day long mindlessly watching tv. I stopped most participation in family events and probably never smiled for years. Life held little meaning to me and I felt vastly inferior to all other men, just a hollow shell of who I used to be.

I speak at ED seminars for urologists about my implant. I conclude my talks with this statement. "After over 20 major surgeries I've been taken off a deathbed twice but I consider my implant surgery to be the greatest medical miracle of my life". That gets a lot of notice but it's the full truth. It was and remains to this day the biggest life changer. There is no aspect of my life now I don't consider to be perfect. I recently bought a bus type motorhome that's a massive jump from my rolling bedroom hippie van of my youth and it's gonna see as much or more action as the van did!

I HAVE to do this then


My wife leaves or not I have to do this fir me

I do shit for others all day and now I’m an angry bitter man

I don’t want that shit anymore

I’m not less than anybody if I had potency

I pray everynight this
Goes well

Sad to say but I’m prepared to die at this point so that’s how I knew it was time to fix this issue

I can’t take any more failure

I don’t know how you guys put up with things for so long I’m in awe actually

All my adult life I had been a poor performer. About 20 years ago I started on Viagra. I think my saving grace was back then Viagra was so fricking expensive that I decided to get a VED to help defray the cost. In hindsight that cheapskate move probably maintained my length. I've been bionic for almost a year with porn star super powers. No regrets.