Postby phliptrip » Wed Apr 05, 2023 4:40 pm
I think my implant has a slight downward bend at the tip that will eventually cause a distal perforation and I still have zero regrets or zero doubt that I did the right thing. I finally used it today fully and holy shit, I haven't had sex like that since I was 17. I did things I haven't been able to do for 15-20 years, hell maybe *ever* and that was before I knew I even had ED of any kind. Without a doubt is the best sex I have had in decades. I am sore as hell. She can barely walk. I am completely satisfied. My wife told me flat out she didn't know if her body can keep up with my bionic penis, but she wants to find out. She's sexually interested in me again. She plays with my dick and not like it's a chore. I feel a whole level of confidence I haven't felt ever in my life. If I have to get a revision then I have to get a revision. There is always a risk with surgery. I frankly would rather die then deal with the years of ED and the depression they caused me. I love my Titan, painful Max inflation and all. I only regret not doing it years ago. It's done more for my depression and anxiety in just over a month then 15 years of therapy and antidepressants. No regrets. None. If it never got any better than it was today, I would still have no regrets.
"Live today. Not yesterday. Not tomorrow. Just today. Inhabit your moments. Don’t rent them out to tomorrow. Do you know what you’re doing when you spend a moment wondering how things are going to turn out? You’re cheating yourself out of today. Today is calling to you, trying to get your attention, but you’re stuck on tomorrow, and today trickles away like water down a drain. You wake up the next morning and that today you wasted is gone forever. It’s now yesterday. Some of those moments may have had wonderful things in store for you, some terrible, but now you’ll never know." -some book my wife read (paraphrased)
Or if you want something a bit more classical, "I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it." - Groucho Marx
Or for something very simple, you could get hit by a car and die would you rather die struggling with ED or having sex. Choice is pretty simple for me.
But the things I choose and the choices I make are for me, you have to decide what is important to you. Our lives can end at any point for any variety of reasons, I'm choosing to live the best life I can live at any given point. The fears of tomorrow may never come, because I may not exist by the time they could even occur. So I can only live for today and what makes my life the best for today. Nothing is perfect, nothing is 100% predictable, etc
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46yo, Venous Leak, Diabetic, ED 2016, VED/Cialis 2021, Needle phobia. 20cm Titan implant w/3.5cm RTE (pump location) 03/02/23 by Dr Aram Loeb (HVS) at University Hospital, Ohio. PED 7"x5.5", PO 6"x5.5", CS 7.5"x5.5".