3 weeks w/ Titan mostly regret

[Lawrence13]

Its a bit dramatic mate. Life evolves. You had a limp dick. No future there and injections cannot go on forever. You were gonna do this sooner or later.

I'm mid 30s and I had some concerns in the first few weeks. But then so what. That's what it is now. You're acting like you've got an infection and your dicks gonna be amputated.

Sorry to be harsh but toughen up a bit. You're fine. It sounds like it all works.

I'm 5 weeks out now and am now well over the doubt and am just looking forward. No more pills, carrying injections. Futures bright!

Well Splitpeach. I’m happy for you that you are having a positive go with it. Hope to join you in doubtless clarity soon. I can’t argue that my post could be interpreted as dramatic or that I’m being weak/not tough. We all have varying circumstances and things going on.

I will do my best to toughen up.

[Lawrence13]

Youll be fine. What youre going through is normal. You grieved over losing a normal feeling maybe less functional penis. Youre angry now cause it doesnt feel normal, cycling is annoying and why did you lose size and seem to struggle with recovery. In the near future youll get to the acceptance phase. My guess is in 3-5 months or worse case a year out, youll look back and realize this was a good choice.

Im only a couple years older than you. I had a lot of scarring from injections. Im thankful ipps exist. I just had incredible sex with the wife last night. Im 5 weeks out. I know ill need a revision, but a sexless life our age is a terrible thing to go through.. take care of yourself. Enjoy working out. Forget about how the implant feels. Eventually itll be natural to you.

I think I need to take you up on the advice of stop worrying about how it feels now and just let the prices play out. Yeah I mean, really the only sensible thing left to do.

[Lawrence13]

Today marks 21 days post 24cm coloplast titan via Dr. Eid. Have been cycling since day 3 in warm baths.

Raw honest thoughts.

Pros: wish there were more. The constant pain is gone. Off px meds. The cycling since day 3 has softened the cylinders just enough that I can conceal my flaccid state in my underwear. I have retained orgasim sensation.

Cons: Perfectly well understand it is still very early but there hasn’t been a single day thats gone by where I haven’t regretted this decision. If anything the decrease in pain has only made room for my brain to notice how this thing that’s been put in me is unnatural and has made me feel worse about my self not better. I’ve hit a wall cycling and it appears my tissue cannot or won’t expand as much as the cylinders need. Every time I try and push through I regress. There is little doubt I lost a full inch in length which at this point is the least of my concerns. I don’t see how I will ever be okay with having this implant or feeling confident or sexual with it. It’s a dead peice of plastic. A new source of shame and self doubt.

The more I read the posts of the men who “wish they had done it ten years earlier” the more I realize have almost nothing in common the people who like their implants. I was a bad fit for this. The thought honking this loud duck horn in front of a girl to get an erection makes me sick to my stomach. ( all the older married guys laughing “ oh it’s like a mateing call to my wife I…. Okay I get why you think it’s funny but for a single guy in his 30’s not so much). But that’s what I mean when I say I have nothing in common with the guys who actually like this device.

Certainly hope I have one of those drastic turn arounds and am open to the possibility it could happen. However, the truth is I currently hate my implant and pretty much every aspect of having one. Whether justified or not I am feeling a certain amount of animosity towards this site….. but really I think that’s likely more realistically anger at myself. Feel less like a bionic brother and more like an idiot. This was my decision alone after all.

Hope it gets better because obviously I have no fucking choice. Burned the ships as they say.


Just being honest.

First of all - as everyone else said in here, breathe! You are WAY too early to be worrying about what you have lost. Implants are in a state of flux for the first year. Gains take time, and they come VERY slowly. Maybe a 1/10 of an inch a month - not much that you would see - it takes time. There is always a possibility of loss, but there is also a possibility of gain - IN THE LONG RUN...so buckle up and be patient.

"A dead piece of plastic" is what is inside of your living and breathing body. You are MUCH more than your penis. The Titan does have a reputation for that deflated / crinkly feeling. However, it comes with added girth (granted not a TON - but any is good) when inflated. So there is that. Over time you DO get used to your implant. I'm almost a year and a half in and I honestly don't think about it much during the day. I cycle morning and night as usual, and just keep on trucking. What is NICE about it though is being able to get hard and STAY hard whenever I want for as long as I want. And the hardness is entirely adjustable.

For the "noise of inflating" there are ways around it --- inflate it before your start making out - what guy NORMALLY isn't hard before making out anyway (when they're a teen). Just excuse yourself to the bathroom for a moment to piss - and away you go.

Also - I think people are WAY more uptight about what people might think about in implant than in reality. Sure - a few people might get turned off - but most probably wont care - besides - sex is FAR more than your penis.

Perfectly normal to be upset after your surgery. I went through the same and pushed through. You'll get there too!

Give it time!

Thanks so much for the encouragement. I really am getting these that this deep breathe time. I gotta stick with it and settings go. Yeah I basically reached my crash out point …. Thankfully the worst of that was expressed as a slightly dramatic Frank talk post and nothing more lol.

[Lawrence13]

Lawerence, I feel for you that you’re having a tough time in your journey. It’s a marathon and not a sprint, it just takes time.
I couldn’t start cycling my implant until 6 weeks after I got device training. I could barely get in 10 pumps when the nurse asked me to pump it after he deflated me. Yeah, I was disappointed, but at the same time I knew I was on a long journey.
It took at least 6 months before my dick started feeling normal again and I could stay inflated more than 30 minutes without any discomfort or pain in my glans.
I reached out to my FrankTalk brothers and they just reassured me that it would get better and some guys heal at different rates.
So, I just kept following my doctors protocol and doing extra cycling in a hot tub of water 3 to 4 times a week.
I had PIV sex with my wife at 8 weeks and it was very disappointing, but I knew I was still healing. For me month 5 and 6 was a turning point. I’m 4.5 years out from surgery and I still cycle my implant in the shower most every day just to keep it stretched.
It gets better every week.

Hang in there Lawerence
Your Bionic Brother in Texas
SWorks

Sworks thanks for the encouragement. It sounds like I need to buckle in. I feeling probably going to mirror your recovery trajectory based on what I’m feeling now.

[dan_bionic]

Almost all men love their implants, but the difference is they wait until their recovery is over to tell their experience. Honestly, there's no need to separate older and younger guys because we are all fighting the same battle.

we are not fighting the battle anymore, we have won it already and enjoy sex and life with the best thing ever, with a functional dick, that is better than our dick during ED and for some of us, including me, better than my original dick.

Lawrence,
give it time and try to focus on the positives, you'll have the best sex of your life!
Dan

Dan with out question the goal is to end up like you and have your enthusiasm, happiness and epic sex life with the implant. Make no mistake, I want to be like you. I’m just having a real bad time right now and possibly let my lack of sleep make things exponentially worse.

Lawrence,
As soon as you had your first sex with implant and see the girl enjoying your dick, you'll forget all of your negative points and just go for the next horny chick
Just start it positive and forget the negatives, nothing to loose now and the only way to go forward.
Waiting for your first report of great sex with a sexy horny chick!
Dan

[CardinalCopia]

@Lawrence13

I'll chime in... I am 5-days out from revision surgery. I had an AMS implant fail after 9.5 years and now have a Titan. Dr. Eid did my revision surgery. I will do a comparison but will save that for another thread.

I wanted to reply to your post because when I originally got my AMS implant, I wasn't much older than you. I had just turned 40 when I got mine. My ED story was a little bizarre. At 37, I got really sick with a mystery illness, that destroyed my parasympathetic nervous system and left me with serious autonomic dysfunction literally overnight. One day I was getting rock hard erections at will, and the next day I wasn't. Pills and shots did nothing. After 3 years of meeting with specialists, it was decided that an IPP was my best (only) option.

By the time of my surgery, my penis had atrophied a massive amount. Prior to getting sick, I was a nice 7.5" erect with excellent girth. I remember post-surgery, when I could finally begin pumping a significant amount, I was maxed out at 5" and had much less girth. Talk about depression, believe me, I understand everything that you are going through. I was a young, healthy, successful, good looking, heterosexual man with a beautiful penis, who was now degraded to a mechanical, MUCH smaller version of myself!

I could go on and on, but I want to get to the point. Once you are fully healed, everything that you are experiencing now, will be a non-issue. I dated many gorgeous women with my IPP, and believe me when I tell you, they all loved it. Also believe me when I tell you, not a single one knew I had it until I told them. That was always an interesting conversation! You will become a pro at inflating/deflating to the point where it will be second-nature.

Regarding size, you will get a decent amount back, trust me. Before my AMS implant failed, I was at 6.25. Now, that's definitely not 7.5", but it is still a significant gain from where I was post-op. If I hadn't been completely limp for 3-years and change, my guess is it would have come back quicker.

Hang in there, implant surgery is a long, slow road. I am dealing with the pain and discomfort as we speak, and it sucks....bad. It is also bringing back not-so-good memories. That said, I have had an amazing sex life with lots of gorgeous, experienced girls, and at no point was my implant an issue. I know it is only a matter of time before this pain and discomfort is once again in the rearview mirror.

Go easy on yourself. Trust Dr. Eid and the process. Be patient, and come back in 6 months and tell us all a feelgood story about a rocking one-night stand with a 10!