3 weeks w/ Titan mostly regret

[KaBoom]

I believe his thinking is that by regularly filling and emptying the cylinders, you prevent the scar tissue that forms around both the cylinders and the reservoir to become too restrictive.

didn't feel sexy at all. It was just work to get through. I think the same can probably be said for carrying around a partly-inflated implant for the first few weeks. I'm glad you got a taste of what's to come with that 15-second blow job.

That early cycling to avoid scar tissue and get the tubes moving obviously works based on his long tenure. Complete contrast to mine where Cycling only at 5-6 weeks on, and definitely no bath until week 5. The benefit this way is less chance infection from bath, and Edema layers will form more organically in full, plus the constant erection is like a extended pre stretch the entire time which might reduce cycling pain when you have to start because tissues already well used to it.

Guess both strategies have their benefits and drawbacks. in the end it sounds like we all get to the same result.

PS I hope my deflation works properly tomorrow. I really yearn for a flaccid dick at the moment :-O. Weird turnaround HA!

[Lawrence13]

Lawrence,
I'm almost parallel to you.
I had titan implanted 4 weeks ago.

So far I have only had pains and frustrations to battle through and not many enjoyable or elation causing moments. But we knew this going in. The first month is supposed to be like that.

Ive had a constant 60% erection since the procedure, can only pee while squatting so close to the bowl I can smell the piss, have constant pain and discomfort when I wear normal clothes and have to tuck my guy underneath while it strains and chafes. No sex, even solo. Can't workout, cant even go for a comfortable stroll, and to make matter worse 2 nights ago I slept on my side and somehow the pressure and weight from my crossed legs managed to squeeze the bulb an extra pump or two during the night so its even more erect and hard. Haven't been able to attend any big social functions, its cost me more time off work than I anticipated (how can guys go back to office just days later I've read some here and believed I could too). And the worst thing is I have not been able to trigger the deflate button yet despite trying multiple days. I was starting to panic. But I have a follow up appt with doctor tomorrow and he will check the deflate and show me how to do. I got much support from a couple guys here I pm'd about it.

Despite all that...... I never lost my excitement about it and what lies ahead. Staring at my erect member right now, I too lost a bit, maybe 1 inch, but I know with cycling some of most will be recovered. And dont forget with sex the glans should add some length too. And even if I lose part of an inch, I had length to spare, and from the girth side of things already I can see its absolutely fine the way it is. so any gains there would be bonus.

The ONLY positive or enjoyable so far: while I was fumbling unsuccessfully trying to locate and trigger the deflate button for 3rd day in row, my wife tried to for half hour as well because she can angle her hands and fingers any way unlike me. Suddenly, with my erect dick there in front of her, she wrapped her mouth around it for fun and gave a mini blow for 15 seconds, more for her own curiosity to get feel for it. Only 15 seconds because strict no sex until 6 weeks so no chance for me to get full stimulation. But in those 15 seconds, despite all the carnage and trauma my dick has gone through, I could absolutely tell that blow job felt just as good as before. Just that little moment has caused me much joy, and certainty this implant was the way to go.

And from here many more positive steps one by one will start to reveal themself, each feeling like another victory. Still some pains and frustrations to get through as well, but I have full faith that the positives will start to outnumber the negatives.

BTW, day 3 cycling seems soon based on what I heard from most others. But each URO has their own techniques I guess. I WISH I could have done that at day 3 and not put up with this big perma boner for a full month now. Seems you taking that for granted on your side, I am envious of you there.

Hey man wow, thank you for sharing man. Just hearing the specifics of someone concurrently going through the process makes me feel less isolated. I feel for you, in many ways your situation has been more limiting due to being kept the same inflated state. I will say that the unique early activation cycle of my surgeon has been brutal. It feels like you are beating up an already fragile penis that has already been through surgical hell.

I want to thank you for sharing that tid bit where you got a glimpse of hope with the quicky with your wife. That’s awesome man. Honestly, one of my biggest challenges has been going through this alone. The girl I loved left me a few months prior to the procedure after I stopped injections.

[Lawrence13]

I actually sympathize with you. I’m not too much older than you and was single like you. Unfortunately, you’re going to have go get used to making some concessions. As there is a price to pay to be able to have a hard dick on demand whenever you want. It took me about 4 months to get back to my pre op size.
And what no one will tell you on this site or is ever talked about is the fact that the flaccid especially in the first year is too much. You feel like you are constantly trying to hide your dick. If you’re not hiding your dick, you are protecting it. In my case, dogs jump on it laying in bed, kids run up and hit it by accident. The worst part about it all is I live in the south and spend most my weekends during the summer on the beach, pool, or on the river. It fucking sucks trying to conceal this thing whether you’re laying out, or getting out of a pool. You can no longer just wear a swimsuit in public, you pretty much have to wear tight underwear underneath. And I’m not gonna listen to argument about just be a shower and be proud of it. Thats ridiculous.

All that being said, I’m still glad I did it. I have amazing sex. Something I’ve never had before.

My advice: your dick is going to be completely normal to women when pumped up so don’t worry what it feels like. They love it.
Don’t worry about the noise, just pump up right before. They never know.
As far as concealment, find you a good jock strap. It’s not nearly as free or as comfortable as previous life, but it’s the trade off.


Good luck

Franklin, when you were ready to star using the implant. How did you go about it as a single guy. What was your mind set at the time m? I thought I was going to have the love and support of my now ex…. That turned out to be …. Not accurate. Newly single with an implant is a tall order.

[Lawrence13]

It’s early early early days. Hang in there. So much changes so quickly in the first few months. This too shall pass.

Good wood. You’ve been a positive influence from day one regardless of my mood swings or despair. I appreciate your patience and kindness. I really do.

[Lawrence13]

when your incisions are all healed and closed, start using a VED device. It'll help pull some blood into the penis and tissues and it makes you feel a bit more like your old dick again. slip a cock ring on after using the VED and a lot of that blood will stay longer in place, helps a lot to keep the glans engorged with blood especially. It really doesn't feel like an unnatural dick when you do that. Maybe do a 10 to 20 minute VED session before you go out for the night or get together with a person for sex. I have used it also as a bit of foreplay with my sexual partners, some of them get turned on seeing your dick get engorged a bit in a pump before you have sex. That may depend on the level of comfort and familiarity you have with them, but I find quite a few people can view it as a bit of kink and like it. You can find great products on ebay, LeLuv has a wide variety of penis pumps in varying cylinder sizes, with flanged bases so you don't even need a sleeve for it. I use mine every day.

See I was wondering about using the ved. What would be a good way to go about it? Like pump up part of the way and then use the ved? Or 75 percent? I just don’t want to make a mistake.

[Lawrence13]

I’ve hit a wall cycling and it appears my tissue cannot or won’t expand as much as the cylinders need. Every time I try and push through I regress. There is little doubt I lost a full inch in length which at this point is the least of my concerns.

I’m not sure quite what you mean when you say that your tissue won’t expand as much as the cylinders need, or what you mean by saying that you regress.

I don’t see how I will ever be okay with having this implant or feeling confident or sexual with it. It’s a dead peice of plastic. A new source of shame and self doubt.

Well, I think at this point, just three weeks in, when you’re not yet fully healed and have not yet had sex, you’re very focused on the implant itself. Yes, it is a dead piece of plastic. Yes, it’s artificial and manmade. And yes, I’m still aware of that, even after having had the it for a few years. But that’s not what I’m focused on in a sexual situation. In a sexual situation, I handle the implant (chosing when to pump it up and so forth), but I’m focused on my cock (and on my partner). I don’t think: Now the cylinders are hard. I think: now I am hard. And it feels good being hard and knowing that I can stay hard, and it feels good to see that my hardness is appreciated. I know I’m a generation older than you and that I’m gay and you’re straight, but all the same: guys I have sex with who don’t know about my implant don’t relate to my cock as if it’s a dead piece of plastic; all they see is a hard cock, and they like that. I assume it would be the same with women.

And also: guys who do know about my implant, well, they don’t really seem to care. To them, as best as I can tell, it’s still primarily just a hard cock.

Been having trouble sleeping and some of the cycling regression has been difficult to accept. Right now with the set backs I feel that I’m probably a ways away from my first sexual experience.

I’d say, no need to rush it. Start seeking out sex when you feel ready for it. But till then, just keep in mind that what you’ve been focusing on so far are just all the bad things about having an implant. When you actually start having sex again you will get to experience the positive side of it too, which is, well, that it can be fucking amazing to have sex when you’re not constantly afraid of losing your erection.

Give it time. Try to keep an open mind. Don’t torture yourself unnecessarily.

The regression is that it feels like after a few sessions where I really pushed things, I may have caused tearing or significant strain of the tissue. Now it seems to be contracting and fighting expansion much harder. I’ve take a few days off but know that I have to get back to cycling .

I’m struggling massively with understanding what amount of pain is appropriate to feel or when it crosses into …. You are pushing to hard category.

[Lawrence13]

Lawrence,
1. Hang in there. 3 weeks post op is embryonic in terms of recovery. You are having a "WTF have I done?" experience, and questioning everything, despite having done all the due diligence beforehand, which likely indicated an implant to be the best option before you committed to it. Many of us have had similar experiences. At 3 weeks I still had to put up with a 30% to 40% erection 24/7, which was also nearly 2 inches shorter than my pre ED length. It caused all kinds of problems taking a piss, and I wasn't even allowed to use it for sex until after 6 weeks! And it was 9 months before I could confidently confirm that I had recovered pre ED length and girth.

2. While it's true that ED and implants tend to be biased towards middle age or older guys, there are quite a few younger men on here with with implants or researching them. There is currently some interesting discussion between 1984ptc and splitpeach about their recoveries. Both also recently implanted, of similar age, evaluating their progress and expectations vs results so far. It might be worth reading for comparison.
https://www.franktalk.org/phpBB3/viewtopic.php?f=6&t=27925#p269659

3. Cycling isn't a magic bullet that will instantly restore what you had before. In my experience it does help but takes time and patience.
Regardless of age everyone's recovery timeframe is different and it can vary wildly. You had a more complex procedure than most. It could be that the additional trauma means your corporeal tissue may take longer to fully heal and adapt to the implant cylinders to restore your size.

4. You were implanted by one of the world's leading surgeons. Trust in his ability to get the outcome you desire, over time.

5. Yes it can feel unnatural for quite a while. I would say mine only felt 100% comfortable and natural once I could have sex totally pain free, many months down the track. Once that happened my sexual confidence went through the roof. Now I can't wait for the next opportunity to pump it up and fuck for as long as possible, without ever losing my erection. It has never felt better or more natural, even in my twenties it wasn't this good.

6. Even the MS pump on my LGX makes a very slight wheezing sound, but only on deflation. I'm the only one who can hear it and only when it's very quiet. Otherwise ambient noise completely masks it. Like others have said there are many ways to pump discreetly if you think the sound will be a problem.

7. Try and focus on the positives. No pain or meds, you can orgasm already, and can conceal your flaccid. Like many I couldn't do any of those things at 3 weeks. I wasn't even allowed to deflate my dick to flaccid for 6 weeks, so concealing it was very challenging. Discomfort persisted for months. I had numbness underneath the shaft. It was probably 3 months after I started having sex again before I could orgasm consistently. None of these things is uncommon but recovery protocols and experience can differ greatly.

Finally, we hear you and understand your frustration. Appreciate your honesty, but probably not the best idea to use inflammatory comments that tend to alienate people. Most of us have no medical training. Just a bunch of guys trying to fix the same problem and offer whatever support and reassurance that we can for fellow sufferers.

This is a humbling reply. That you took the time to go into such detail means a lot. Especially providing specific examples of discussions I should watch. Ultimately, I think I basically just reached a point where I cracked a bit. I was having alot of difficulties in the months leading up to this procedure. The past week my sleep has cratered and I would say my emotions I’d gotten the best of me. That much is clear. Equally clear that I really need to start understanding that this is not a quick fix. This is a grinding process of results measured in months.

[Lawrence13]

..I do have very acute depressive thoughts and anxiety in the wake of this surgery so hearing about other guys who did as well who came out of it does give me hope. Been having trouble sleeping and some of the cycling regression has been difficult to accept.

Hi Lawrence, you're getting some good, compassionate advice here. (I am not implanted myself but it's likely on the horizon.)

Do not discount the fact that you are not getting good sleep yet- Insomnia erodes our emotional buffer, and compounds all issues, psychological and physical. Add that to the fact that the implant is a brand new foreign object to which your tissues themselves are "hyperaware" at this early stage.
Wishing you the best in getting through this rough stretch.

Hi Le Tigre!!! Your point about sleep is dead accurate. I don’t know what I expected was going to occur when my sleep started to erode. Sleep deprivation is bad enough on humans who having nothing bad happening to them…. Let alone someone in the storm of a life change if this nature. There’s no question the sleep deprivation had me extremely compromised. At the moment my number one priority is fixing that.

[Lawrence13]

Almost all men love their implants, but the difference is they wait until their recovery is over to tell their experience. Honestly, there's no need to separate older and younger guys because we are all fighting the same battle.

I don’t think there is any issue with sharing my experience as it occurs.

I’m not seeking to separate older men. Plenty of seasoned men have given me great advice and valuable wisdom. Having said that, it’s no slight to older men that I would also want to hear from men closer to my age who are in a more similar place in life.

[Lawrence13]

Almost all men love their implants, but the difference is they wait until their recovery is over to tell their experience. Honestly, there's no need to separate older and younger guys because we are all fighting the same battle.

we are not fighting the battle anymore, we have won it already and enjoy sex and life with the best thing ever, with a functional dick, that is better than our dick during ED and for some of us, including me, better than my original dick.

Lawrence,
give it time and try to focus on the positives, you'll have the best sex of your life!
Dan

Dan with out question the goal is to end up like you and have your enthusiasm, happiness and epic sex life with the implant. Make no mistake, I want to be like you. I’m just having a real bad time right now and possibly let my lack of sleep make things exponentially worse.