3 weeks w/ Titan mostly regret

[LeTigre88]

..I do have very acute depressive thoughts and anxiety in the wake of this surgery so hearing about other guys who did as well who came out of it does give me hope. Been having trouble sleeping and some of the cycling regression has been difficult to accept.

Hi Lawrence, you're getting some good, compassionate advice here. (I am not implanted myself but it's likely on the horizon.)

Do not discount the fact that you are not getting good sleep yet- Insomnia erodes our emotional buffer, and compounds all issues, psychological and physical. Add that to the fact that the implant is a brand new foreign object to which your tissues themselves are "hyperaware" at this early stage.
Wishing you the best in getting through this rough stretch.

[Fuckmachine700]

Almost all men love their implants, but the difference is they wait until their recovery is over to tell their experience. Honestly, there's no need to separate older and younger guys because we are all fighting the same battle.

[dan_bionic]

Almost all men love their implants, but the difference is they wait until their recovery is over to tell their experience. Honestly, there's no need to separate older and younger guys because we are all fighting the same battle.

we are not fighting the battle anymore, we have won it already and enjoy sex and life with the best thing ever, with a functional dick, that is better than our dick during ED and for some of us, including me, better than my original dick.

Lawrence,
give it time and try to focus on the positives, you'll have the best sex of your life!
Dan

[splitpeach]

Its a bit dramatic mate. Life evolves. You had a limp dick. No future there and injections cannot go on forever. You were gonna do this sooner or later.

I'm mid 30s and I had some concerns in the first few weeks. But then so what. That's what it is now. You're acting like you've got an infection and your dicks gonna be amputated.

Sorry to be harsh but toughen up a bit. You're fine. It sounds like it all works.

I'm 5 weeks out now and am now well over the doubt and am just looking forward. No more pills, carrying injections. Futures bright!

[1984ptc]

Youll be fine. What youre going through is normal. You grieved over losing a normal feeling maybe less functional penis. Youre angry now cause it doesnt feel normal, cycling is annoying and why did you lose size and seem to struggle with recovery. In the near future youll get to the acceptance phase. My guess is in 3-5 months or worse case a year out, youll look back and realize this was a good choice.

Im only a couple years older than you. I had a lot of scarring from injections. Im thankful ipps exist. I just had incredible sex with the wife last night. Im 5 weeks out. I know ill need a revision, but a sexless life our age is a terrible thing to go through.. take care of yourself. Enjoy working out. Forget about how the implant feels. Eventually itll be natural to you.

[cbinspok]

well said 1984, if you're mentally ready for an implant cherries!
if you struggle with life, the new implant is not going to fairytale your sex life. it will be a process and may take even longer time, relax get your zzzes like all implanted men you'll get to a good place.

[SWorks17]

Lawerence, I feel for you that you’re having a tough time in your journey. It’s a marathon and not a sprint, it just takes time.
I couldn’t start cycling my implant until 6 weeks after I got device training. I could barely get in 10 pumps when the nurse asked me to pump it after he deflated me. Yeah, I was disappointed, but at the same time I knew I was on a long journey.
It took at least 6 months before my dick started feeling normal again and I could stay inflated more than 30 minutes without any discomfort or pain in my glans.
I reached out to my FrankTalk brothers and they just reassured me that it would get better and some guys heal at different rates.
So, I just kept following my doctors protocol and doing extra cycling in a hot tub of water 3 to 4 times a week.
I had PIV sex with my wife at 8 weeks and it was very disappointing, but I knew I was still healing. For me month 5 and 6 was a turning point. I’m 4.5 years out from surgery and I still cycle my implant in the shower most every day just to keep it stretched.
It gets better every week.

Hang in there Lawerence
Your Bionic Brother in Texas
SWorks

[KaBoom]

Lawrence,
I'm almost parallel to you.
I had titan implanted 4 weeks ago.

So far I have only had pains and frustrations to battle through and not many enjoyable or elation causing moments. But we knew this going in. The first month is supposed to be like that.

Ive had a constant 60% erection since the procedure, can only pee while squatting so close to the bowl I can smell the piss, have constant pain and discomfort when I wear normal clothes and have to tuck my guy underneath while it strains and chafes. No sex, even solo. Can't workout, cant even go for a comfortable stroll, and to make matter worse 2 nights ago I slept on my side and somehow the pressure and weight from my crossed legs managed to squeeze the bulb an extra pump or two during the night so its even more erect and hard. Haven't been able to attend any big social functions, its cost me more time off work than I anticipated (how can guys go back to office just days later I've read some here and believed I could too). And the worst thing is I have not been able to trigger the deflate button yet despite trying multiple days. I was starting to panic. But I have a follow up appt with doctor tomorrow and he will check the deflate and show me how to do. I got much support from a couple guys here I pm'd about it.

Despite all that...... I never lost my excitement about it and what lies ahead. Staring at my erect member right now, I too lost a bit, maybe 1 inch, but I know with cycling some of most will be recovered. And dont forget with sex the glans should add some length too. And even if I lose part of an inch, I had length to spare, and from the girth side of things already I can see its absolutely fine the way it is. so any gains there would be bonus.

The ONLY positive or enjoyable so far: while I was fumbling unsuccessfully trying to locate and trigger the deflate button for 3rd day in row, my wife tried to for half hour as well because she can angle her hands and fingers any way unlike me. Suddenly, with my erect dick there in front of her, she wrapped her mouth around it for fun and gave a mini blow for 15 seconds, more for her own curiosity to get feel for it. Only 15 seconds because strict no sex until 6 weeks so no chance for me to get full stimulation. But in those 15 seconds, despite all the carnage and trauma my dick has gone through, I could absolutely tell that blow job felt just as good as before. Just that little moment has caused me much joy, and certainty this implant was the way to go.

And from here many more positive steps one by one will start to reveal themself, each feeling like another victory. Still some pains and frustrations to get through as well, but I have full faith that the positives will start to outnumber the negatives.

BTW, day 3 cycling seems soon based on what I heard from most others. But each URO has their own techniques I guess. I WISH I could have done that at day 3 and not put up with this big perma boner for a full month now. Seems you taking that for granted on your side, I am envious of you there.

[NYCGay]

BTW, day 3 cycling seems soon based on what I heard from most others. But each URO has their own techniques I guess. I WISH I could have done that at day 3 and not put up with this big perma boner for a full month now. Seems you taking that for granted on your side, I am envious of you there.

Dr. Eid is famous for prescribing cycling very early: on the third day after surgery, you pull out the catheter, take a painkiller, lie down in a hot bath, and pump it up as hard as you can stand. I believe his thinking is that by regularly filling and emptying the cylinders, you prevent the scar tissue that forms around both the cylinders and the reservoir to become too restrictive.

I remember expecting it beforehand to feel sexy to be hard, but initially, it felt more like a weird science experiment. There I was, with ugly bruising on my dick and ballsack, with shaved pubes (which is a look I don't like), in a fair amount of pain, in spite of the painkiller, sporting an unflagging hard-on ... Under those circumstances, it didn't feel sexy at all. It was just work to get through. I think the same can probably be said for carrying around a partly-inflated implant for the first few weeks. I'm glad you got a taste of what's to come with that 15-second blow job.

[equusAz]

Today marks 21 days post 24cm coloplast titan via Dr. Eid. Have been cycling since day 3 in warm baths.

Raw honest thoughts.

Pros: wish there were more. The constant pain is gone. Off px meds. The cycling since day 3 has softened the cylinders just enough that I can conceal my flaccid state in my underwear. I have retained orgasim sensation.

Cons: Perfectly well understand it is still very early but there hasn’t been a single day thats gone by where I haven’t regretted this decision. If anything the decrease in pain has only made room for my brain to notice how this thing that’s been put in me is unnatural and has made me feel worse about my self not better. I’ve hit a wall cycling and it appears my tissue cannot or won’t expand as much as the cylinders need. Every time I try and push through I regress. There is little doubt I lost a full inch in length which at this point is the least of my concerns. I don’t see how I will ever be okay with having this implant or feeling confident or sexual with it. It’s a dead peice of plastic. A new source of shame and self doubt.

The more I read the posts of the men who “wish they had done it ten years earlier” the more I realize have almost nothing in common the people who like their implants. I was a bad fit for this. The thought honking this loud duck horn in front of a girl to get an erection makes me sick to my stomach. ( all the older married guys laughing “ oh it’s like a mateing call to my wife I…. Okay I get why you think it’s funny but for a single guy in his 30’s not so much). But that’s what I mean when I say I have nothing in common with the guys who actually like this device.

Certainly hope I have one of those drastic turn arounds and am open to the possibility it could happen. However, the truth is I currently hate my implant and pretty much every aspect of having one. Whether justified or not I am feeling a certain amount of animosity towards this site….. but really I think that’s likely more realistically anger at myself. Feel less like a bionic brother and more like an idiot. This was my decision alone after all.

Hope it gets better because obviously I have no fucking choice. Burned the ships as they say.


Just being honest.

First of all - as everyone else said in here, breathe! You are WAY too early to be worrying about what you have lost. Implants are in a state of flux for the first year. Gains take time, and they come VERY slowly. Maybe a 1/10 of an inch a month - not much that you would see - it takes time. There is always a possibility of loss, but there is also a possibility of gain - IN THE LONG RUN...so buckle up and be patient.

"A dead piece of plastic" is what is inside of your living and breathing body. You are MUCH more than your penis. The Titan does have a reputation for that deflated / crinkly feeling. However, it comes with added girth (granted not a TON - but any is good) when inflated. So there is that. Over time you DO get used to your implant. I'm almost a year and a half in and I honestly don't think about it much during the day. I cycle morning and night as usual, and just keep on trucking. What is NICE about it though is being able to get hard and STAY hard whenever I want for as long as I want. And the hardness is entirely adjustable.

For the "noise of inflating" there are ways around it --- inflate it before your start making out - what guy NORMALLY isn't hard before making out anyway (when they're a teen). Just excuse yourself to the bathroom for a moment to piss - and away you go.

Also - I think people are WAY more uptight about what people might think about in implant than in reality. Sure - a few people might get turned off - but most probably wont care - besides - sex is FAR more than your penis.

Perfectly normal to be upset after your surgery. I went through the same and pushed through. You'll get there too!

Give it time!