3 weeks w/ Titan mostly regret

[lasthope2.0]

Lawrence13,
First of all, I applaud you for being brutally honest and sharing how you feel.

You've chosen the best treatment for ED, and you're with the most experienced surgeon in the field. You're set up for success from the get-go.

I agree, it's not without some drawbacks, but you're still in the best place to be.

If there are problems, you'll still be in the best hands to have them addressed surgically.

honking this loud duck horn

I fucking did this literally during my work meeting today and it might have made it into the recording. Let’s take it as a sign that the pump is working as designed

Please relax. Have a laugh, and it will only get better after you recover. I’m also in the first month of recovery from an elective revision and going through conflicting thoughts.

Let’s not forget to have fun along the way. Three months from now we will be glad we did this.

[duke_cicero]

Lawrence13,
First of all, I applaud you for being brutally honest and sharing how you feel.

You've chosen the best treatment for ED, and you're with the most experienced surgeon in the field. You're set up for success from the get-go.

I agree, it's not without some drawbacks, but you're still in the best place to be.

If there are problems, you'll still be in the best hands to have them addressed surgically.

honking this loud duck horn

I fucking did this literally during my work meeting today and it might have made it into the recording. Let’s take it as a sign that the pump is working as designed

Please relax. Have a laugh, and it will only get better after you recover. I’m also in the first month of recovery from an elective revision and going through conflicting thoughts.

Let’s not forget to have fun along the way. Three months from now we will be glad we did this.

LastHope I was so confused for a second, lol, then I remembered that you're IPP now! I was seriously scratching my head....

[lasthope2.0]

Lawrence13,
First of all, I applaud you for being brutally honest and sharing how you feel.

You've chosen the best treatment for ED, and you're with the most experienced surgeon in the field. You're set up for success from the get-go.

I agree, it's not without some drawbacks, but you're still in the best place to be.

If there are problems, you'll still be in the best hands to have them addressed surgically.

honking this loud duck horn

I fucking did this literally during my work meeting today and it might have made it into the recording. Let’s take it as a sign that the pump is working as designed

Please relax. Have a laugh, and it will only get better after you recover. I’m also in the first month of recovery from an elective revision and going through conflicting thoughts.

Let’s not forget to have fun along the way. Three months from now we will be glad we did this.

LastHope I was so confused for a second, lol, then I remembered that you're IPP now! I was seriously scratching my head....

I don’t blame you Duke. These days I wake up looking for my MPP dick and realize I’m with IPP

[Franklin22]

I actually sympathize with you. I’m not too much older than you and was single like you. Unfortunately, you’re going to have go get used to making some concessions. As there is a price to pay to be able to have a hard dick on demand whenever you want. It took me about 4 months to get back to my pre op size.
And what no one will tell you on this site or is ever talked about is the fact that the flaccid especially in the first year is too much. You feel like you are constantly trying to hide your dick. If you’re not hiding your dick, you are protecting it. In my case, dogs jump on it laying in bed, kids run up and hit it by accident. The worst part about it all is I live in the south and spend most my weekends during the summer on the beach, pool, or on the river. It fucking sucks trying to conceal this thing whether you’re laying out, or getting out of a pool. You can no longer just wear a swimsuit in public, you pretty much have to wear tight underwear underneath. And I’m not gonna listen to argument about just be a shower and be proud of it. Thats ridiculous.

All that being said, I’m still glad I did it. I have amazing sex. Something I’ve never had before.

My advice: your dick is going to be completely normal to women when pumped up so don’t worry what it feels like. They love it.
Don’t worry about the noise, just pump up right before. They never know.
As far as concealment, find you a good jock strap. It’s not nearly as free or as comfortable as previous life, but it’s the trade off.


Good luck

[Lawrence13]

Lawrence13,
First of all, I applaud you for being brutally honest and sharing how you feel.

You've chosen the best treatment for ED, and you're with the most experienced surgeon in the field. You're set up for success from the get-go.

I agree, it's not without some drawbacks, but you're still in the best place to be.

If there are problems, you'll still be in the best hands to have them addressed surgically.

honking this loud duck horn

I fucking did this literally during my work meeting today and it might have made it into the recording. Let’s take it as a sign that the pump is working as designed

Please relax. Have a laugh, and it will only get better after you recover. I’m also in the first month of recovery from an elective revision and going through conflicting thoughts.

Let’s not forget to have fun along the way. Three months from now we will be glad we did this.

I appreciate you man. Yeah it’s been far and few between laughs yet. But honestly that’s because I’ve been under duress/ stress for months. Here I am 3 weeks post opp feeling like I made a mistake ( even though my situation pre op was not good) just haven’t felt any wins yet. Coming off a brutal few days where things seemed to be moving backwards. It’s just a lot.

I want this thing to work out. I want to feel good again. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin again. It’s just brutal right now. Patience has been tough to come by.

[GoodWood]

It’s early early early days. Hang in there. So much changes so quickly in the first few months. This too shall pass.

[OregonStrong]

when your incisions are all healed and closed, start using a VED device. It'll help pull some blood into the penis and tissues and it makes you feel a bit more like your old dick again. slip a cock ring on after using the VED and a lot of that blood will stay longer in place, helps a lot to keep the glans engorged with blood especially. It really doesn't feel like an unnatural dick when you do that. Maybe do a 10 to 20 minute VED session before you go out for the night or get together with a person for sex. I have used it also as a bit of foreplay with my sexual partners, some of them get turned on seeing your dick get engorged a bit in a pump before you have sex. That may depend on the level of comfort and familiarity you have with them, but I find quite a few people can view it as a bit of kink and like it. You can find great products on ebay, LeLuv has a wide variety of penis pumps in varying cylinder sizes, with flanged bases so you don't even need a sleeve for it. I use mine every day.

[Lawrence13]

Hey man. 21 days is still very very early in the game. I'd re-evaluate at 6 months and 12 months. I really think it's going to get better.

Duke appreciate your support. I know I’m likely just at my rock bottom phase and need to give it more time.

[NYCGay]

I’ve hit a wall cycling and it appears my tissue cannot or won’t expand as much as the cylinders need. Every time I try and push through I regress. There is little doubt I lost a full inch in length which at this point is the least of my concerns.

I’m not sure quite what you mean when you say that your tissue won’t expand as much as the cylinders need, or what you mean by saying that you regress.

I don’t see how I will ever be okay with having this implant or feeling confident or sexual with it. It’s a dead peice of plastic. A new source of shame and self doubt.

Well, I think at this point, just three weeks in, when you’re not yet fully healed and have not yet had sex, you’re very focused on the implant itself. Yes, it is a dead piece of plastic. Yes, it’s artificial and manmade. And yes, I’m still aware of that, even after having had the it for a few years. But that’s not what I’m focused on in a sexual situation. In a sexual situation, I handle the implant (chosing when to pump it up and so forth), but I’m focused on my cock (and on my partner). I don’t think: Now the cylinders are hard. I think: now I am hard. And it feels good being hard and knowing that I can stay hard, and it feels good to see that my hardness is appreciated. I know I’m a generation older than you and that I’m gay and you’re straight, but all the same: guys I have sex with who don’t know about my implant don’t relate to my cock as if it’s a dead piece of plastic; all they see is a hard cock, and they like that. I assume it would be the same with women.

And also: guys who do know about my implant, well, they don’t really seem to care. To them, as best as I can tell, it’s still primarily just a hard cock.

Been having trouble sleeping and some of the cycling regression has been difficult to accept. Right now with the set backs I feel that I’m probably a ways away from my first sexual experience.

I’d say, no need to rush it. Start seeking out sex when you feel ready for it. But till then, just keep in mind that what you’ve been focusing on so far are just all the bad things about having an implant. When you actually start having sex again you will get to experience the positive side of it too, which is, well, that it can be fucking amazing to have sex when you’re not constantly afraid of losing your erection.

Give it time. Try to keep an open mind. Don’t torture yourself unnecessarily.

[LGXDownunder]

Lawrence,
1. Hang in there. 3 weeks post op is embryonic in terms of recovery. You are having a "WTF have I done?" experience, and questioning everything, despite having done all the due diligence beforehand, which likely indicated an implant to be the best option before you committed to it. Many of us have had similar experiences. At 3 weeks I still had to put up with a 30% to 40% erection 24/7, which was also nearly 2 inches shorter than my pre ED length. It caused all kinds of problems taking a piss, and I wasn't even allowed to use it for sex until after 6 weeks! And it was 9 months before I could confidently confirm that I had recovered pre ED length and girth.

2. While it's true that ED and implants tend to be biased towards middle age or older guys, there are quite a few younger men on here with with implants or researching them. There is currently some interesting discussion between 1984ptc and splitpeach about their recoveries. Both also recently implanted, of similar age, evaluating their progress and expectations vs results so far. It might be worth reading for comparison.
https://www.franktalk.org/phpBB3/viewtopic.php?f=6&t=27925#p269659

3. Cycling isn't a magic bullet that will instantly restore what you had before. In my experience it does help but takes time and patience.
Regardless of age everyone's recovery timeframe is different and it can vary wildly. You had a more complex procedure than most. It could be that the additional trauma means your corporeal tissue may take longer to fully heal and adapt to the implant cylinders to restore your size.

4. You were implanted by one of the world's leading surgeons. Trust in his ability to get the outcome you desire, over time.

5. Yes it can feel unnatural for quite a while. I would say mine only felt 100% comfortable and natural once I could have sex totally pain free, many months down the track. Once that happened my sexual confidence went through the roof. Now I can't wait for the next opportunity to pump it up and fuck for as long as possible, without ever losing my erection. It has never felt better or more natural, even in my twenties it wasn't this good.

6. Even the MS pump on my LGX makes a very slight wheezing sound, but only on deflation. I'm the only one who can hear it and only when it's very quiet. Otherwise ambient noise completely masks it. Like others have said there are many ways to pump discreetly if you think the sound will be a problem.

7. Try and focus on the positives. No pain or meds, you can orgasm already, and can conceal your flaccid. Like many I couldn't do any of those things at 3 weeks. I wasn't even allowed to deflate my dick to flaccid for 6 weeks, so concealing it was very challenging. Discomfort persisted for months. I had numbness underneath the shaft. It was probably 3 months after I started having sex again before I could orgasm consistently. None of these things is uncommon but recovery protocols and experience can differ greatly.

Finally, we hear you and understand your frustration. Appreciate your honesty, but probably not the best idea to use inflammatory comments that tend to alienate people. Most of us have no medical training. Just a bunch of guys trying to fix the same problem and offer whatever support and reassurance that we can for fellow sufferers.