Yet Another Journal: ED, Titan, Gay Sex, Implant Failure, Revision Surgery ...

[NYCGay]

Glad to hear you are back in action, NYC! It’s nice to hear you are not holding back out of fear of breaking another one!

Thank you! Well, it was the tubing that broke, not the cylinders, so I hope that using the device for DP won't make any difference.

[NYCGay]

Good morning, brother. Regarding the deflation issues, what I mean is that even when I deflate it to the maximum and the penis feels 'empty,' within a few seconds some of the fluid leaks back into the cylinders, leaving it looking large, turgant, and rigid. During the first three weeks of cycling, the result was a penis that wouldn't point toward my feet; instead, it stayed in an elevated state like a semi-erection—very uncomfortable, incompatible with my work, and very hard to hide.

Now it seems to be giving in a bit, and by deflating it fully, I can tuck it into my underwear pointing downward, despite the rigidity and significant discomfort I’m still feeling. I hope you’re right when you say that this evolves over the months and isn't just a constant cycle of clicking/crunching sounds and discomfort every time I move.

When you use the expression 'seeing the penis like a shower head' (or 'shower-style'), what exactly do you mean? I’ve seen that mentioned on FT [FrankTalk] before. This is truly my only big concern since 95% of the time I’ll have it deflated—especially in a job that requires physical labor, being an athlete, and not knowing how comfortable I’ll feel at the gym or in my active social life.

As for sex, I’ll take your advice and not wait for the discomfort to vanish completely. You’re probably right that this is just the path to getting my body used to its new reality.

Anyway, it’s a huge pleasure to share this experience and learn from you.

Thank you so much. A big hug.

Hi Fernando,

First, there is a linguistic misunderstanding regarding the word “shower.” It’s not shower as in “shower head”; it’s a person who shows, that is a show-er (pronounced so that it rhymes with “grower”). To give some context for the expression: a distinction is sometimes made, somewhat jestfully, between growers and showers (again: pronounced show + er). A grower is a guy whose penis is much shorter when flaccid than erect, so it grows a lot when he gets hard. A shower is a guy whose penis is pretty much the same length when flaccid as when hard, so he is showing off what he has, even when he’s not hard. In reality, these are of course not two distinct categories; you are really somewhere in the range between grower and shower.

And now to what this means for you as an implantee: The Titan cylinders expand in circumference when inflated, but the length is fixed; they are just as long when deflated as when inflated. This means that your penis will be almost as long when flaccid as when hard. (The only difference is that the glans may grow a little larger from sexual arousal, so your total erect length might be a fraction of an inch larger than your flaccid length.) So whether you were a grower or a shower (show-er) before you got the implant, you are now a shower.

As for the discomfort you’re having: based on my experience, that should keep improving over the next few months. Things just become more comfortable, even if your flaccid remains a bit turgid.

But it sounds as if you are having a problem with backflow: saline solution flowing back into the cylinders after deflation. I don’t really know much about that issue or if something can be done about it. I would recommend that you make a follow-up appointment with your doctor to show him your flaccid and your deflation technique and ask him if there is anything you could do differently.

I also responded to one of your other posts here on FrankTalk, recommending the same thing.

In any case, given that you are less than two months in, I’m almost certain that things will keep getting more comfortable on their own over the course of the next few months. Wherever discomfort you’re experiencing now, there will be less of it in a month, and still less a month after that.

Best of luck with your continued healing process. Let us know how things go.

Best,
NYCGay

[Echegollen]

This thread is very educational and entertaining at the same time. Thanks NYCGay.

I must say I'm surprised how fast you needed a revision (5-6 years). After all, Dr. Eid is one of the top surgeons for penile implants, and the Titan Coloplast is known to be sturdy... Could it be because of too many intense sex sessions?

[Fernando1998]

Good afternoon. I now understand the expressions "shower" and "grower." I used to be a "grower," whereas now, as you say, I am a "shower."

Indeed, I feel great discomfort when performing various movements, such as walking up or down stairs, bending over to pick things up off the floor, or any movement that involves slight pressure on the penis. I notice it feeling rigid and sensitive. I hope that with time all that discomfort will gradually disappear, because right now it is not pleasant. It is really the issue that worries me most—the comfort in the flaccid state (I know the Titan cylinders are very rigid, but I hope they become less so over time).

At least I think I have already mastered the deflation technique perfectly, I attach an image of the flaccid penis, even though the doctor told me that a small percentage of saline returning to the cylinders was common (which is why I feel the penis turgid, as if the cylinders were slightly full).

On the other hand, I feel the right cylinder is slightly bent, causing a small deviation to the right in the flaccid state (when erect, the penis remains perfectly straight), though I don't really care—it just adds an extra bit of discomfort to the flaccid situation.

As for my first sexual encounter, I followed your advice and yesterday I had my first encounter. I didn't want to penetrate the guy yet because I still feel some discomfort, but he performed fellatio on me, and honestly, the pleasure far outweighed the pain, so I am happy, and next time I will try to penetrate him.

As always, NYC, thank you very much for your words, which today are more useful than any other source of information, as I feel I am experiencing things that you have already lived through, and I feel extremely accompanied. A big hug.

[NYCGay]

This thread is very educational and entertaining at the same time. Thanks NYCGay.

I must say I'm surprised how fast you needed a revision (5-6 years). After all, Dr. Eid is one of the top surgeons for penile implants, and the Titan Coloplast is known to be sturdy... Could it be because of too many intense sex sessions?

Thank you for your kind words.

My Titan OTR broke down after just 4 ½ years of service. Though I don’t know the reason, my hunch is that it was not because of the sex being too intense. What broke was one of the tubes coming out of the pump. According to Dr. Eid, the OTR has proven to be prone to fail early in exactly this way. He thinks the reason is how the tubes are attached to the pump. The arrangement is different on the older Titan with the Classic pump, which apparently has proven to be much more robust. When you grab the bulb to pump up the device, you often bend the tubes. The way the tubes are arranged on the OTR, there is more stress on a single tube, whereas on the Classic, the stress is more evenly divided among the three tubes, which may explain why it doesn’t break down as often. Dr. Eid gave me a Classic at my revision. I got the impression that he’s gone back to using only the Classic, due to this issue with the OTR.

[NYCGay]

Good afternoon. I now understand the expressions "shower" and "grower." I used to be a "grower," whereas now, as you say, I am a "shower."

Indeed, I feel great discomfort when performing various movements, such as walking up or down stairs, bending over to pick things up off the floor, or any movement that involves slight pressure on the penis. I notice it feeling rigid and sensitive. I hope that with time all that discomfort will gradually disappear, because right now it is not pleasant. It is really the issue that worries me most—the comfort in the flaccid state (I know the Titan cylinders are very rigid, but I hope they become less so over time).

At least I think I have already mastered the deflation technique perfectly, I attach an image of the flaccid penis, even though the doctor told me that a small percentage of saline returning to the cylinders was common (which is why I feel the penis turgid, as if the cylinders were slightly full).

On the other hand, I feel the right cylinder is slightly bent, causing a small deviation to the right in the flaccid state (when erect, the penis remains perfectly straight), though I don't really care—it just adds an extra bit of discomfort to the flaccid situation.

As for my first sexual encounter, I followed your advice and yesterday I had my first encounter. I didn't want to penetrate the guy yet because I still feel some discomfort, but he performed fellatio on me, and honestly, the pleasure far outweighed the pain, so I am happy, and next time I will try to penetrate him.

As always, NYC, thank you very much for your words, which today are more useful than any other source of information, as I feel I am experiencing things that you have already lived through, and I feel extremely accompanied. A big hug.

Congratulations on your first blowjob with your new dick! I’m glad to hear it felt good. I’m confident the other guy enjoyed it too, given what you have to offer. If anal penetration turns out to be more painful, do not be discouraged: you’re less than two months in. It will get better with time. Also, I forgot to ask you before, but I assume that your doctor has cleared you for having sex at this point. (If not, you should of course follow his advise.)

Your flaccid does indeed look quite turgid. Considering the backflow from the reservoir, it may not ever get any smaller, but it will probably soften up a bit, so that eventually it will hang lower and point out less. As for the discomfort during physical activities, based on my experience, it will slowly fade away over time.

But rather than just waiting for things to get better, you may want to try different kinds of underwear and wearing your dick in different positions, to find out what’s most comfortable (or least uncomfortable). Initially, I often wore my dick up and to the side. That way, it was kept straighter, avoiding the hard kinks to the cylinders, which pressed painfully against the tissue from the inside when I bent the dick down and back in tight briefs. I can’t say exactly for how long my flaccid caused me discomfort, but I definitely think it still did at the point where you are now. It does get better. Now I can wear any kind of underwear and put my dick in any position, and only occasionally do I even feel a need to rearrange myself.

[Fernando1998]

Hello brother.
It was definitely a pleasant experience for me (even though I felt some discomfort), as well as for the guy who performed the oral sex. The doctor gave me the green light to have relations this week, though he warned me to be careful.

Regarding the turgidity and stiffness of the penis, I’m concerned. When I deflate, the cylinders become practically flat, but then they refill with fluid until they look like the image; is there no way to stop this reflux? (I’ve tried closing the valve by giving it one pump of inflation, which they say stops the fluid from flowing back into the cylinders). In this thread of your journal, I saw a picture where you talked about your deflated penis, and in the photo you added on December 3, 2025, your flaccid penis also looks turgid.

Is that image of your penis completely deflated? How many months post-implant were you in that photo? It looks quite rigid—how did you position it so you could move around all day without constantly feeling the cylinders? Did you notice much improvement in the flaccid state as the months went by? Is there any trick to speed up the process of flexibility and natural drooping of the penis? Could walking around the house naked help?

Thanks in advance for the advice, brother. Big hug!

[NYCGay]

Hello brother.
It was definitely a pleasant experience for me (even though I felt some discomfort), as well as for the guy who performed the oral sex. The doctor gave me the green light to have relations this week, though he warned me to be careful.

Regarding the turgidity and stiffness of the penis, I’m concerned. When I deflate, the cylinders become practically flat, but then they refill with fluid until they look like the image; is there no way to stop this reflux? (I’ve tried closing the valve by giving it one pump of inflation, which they say stops the fluid from flowing back into the cylinders). In this thread of your journal, I saw a picture where you talked about your deflated penis, and in the photo you added on December 3, 2025, your flaccid penis also looks turgid.

Is that image of your penis completely deflated? How many months post-implant were you in that photo? It looks quite rigid—how did you position it so you could move around all day without constantly feeling the cylinders? Did you notice much improvement in the flaccid state as the months went by? Is there any trick to speed up the process of flexibility and natural drooping of the penis? Could walking around the house naked help?

Thanks in advance for the advice, brother. Big hug!

I wish I knew if there is anything that can be done about the reflux issue, but I don’t. All I know is that even though I think I’ve had a bit of that with both my previous OTR and with my current Classic, it didn’t bother me after I had gotten used to having the implant. Yes, a little while after I have deflated, my flaccid turns a little more turgid than it was right after I deflated it. But the discomfort that came with stoving away my perhaps-not-quite-flaccid flaccid faded with time. As for appearances, I can conceal it when I want to.

I checked the December 3, 2025 pic you mentioned. Well, I have two pics in that post. In one of them, I’m pumped up to the max, so I assume that’s not the one you’re talking about. The flaccid pic was taken in March 2025, so almost four years after I got the implant. But I don’t remember if I took it right after deflating, or if there may have been some reflux into the cylinders before I took the pic. It’s also entirely possible that I had deliberately put a pump or two into the device just to look bigger. (I will not deny that I have an exhibitionistic streak.)

The bottom line for me is: after a few months, my flaccid no longer caused me discomfort, and I can conceal it when I want to. If I look largish when naked, that doesn’t bother me at all.