Yet Another Journal: ED, Titan, Gay Sex, Implant Failure, Revision Surgery ...

[NYCGay]

Glad to hear you are back in action, NYC! It’s nice to hear you are not holding back out of fear of breaking another one!

Thank you! Well, it was the tubing that broke, not the cylinders, so I hope that using the device for DP won't make any difference.

[NYCGay]

Good morning, brother. Regarding the deflation issues, what I mean is that even when I deflate it to the maximum and the penis feels 'empty,' within a few seconds some of the fluid leaks back into the cylinders, leaving it looking large, turgant, and rigid. During the first three weeks of cycling, the result was a penis that wouldn't point toward my feet; instead, it stayed in an elevated state like a semi-erection—very uncomfortable, incompatible with my work, and very hard to hide.

Now it seems to be giving in a bit, and by deflating it fully, I can tuck it into my underwear pointing downward, despite the rigidity and significant discomfort I’m still feeling. I hope you’re right when you say that this evolves over the months and isn't just a constant cycle of clicking/crunching sounds and discomfort every time I move.

When you use the expression 'seeing the penis like a shower head' (or 'shower-style'), what exactly do you mean? I’ve seen that mentioned on FT [FrankTalk] before. This is truly my only big concern since 95% of the time I’ll have it deflated—especially in a job that requires physical labor, being an athlete, and not knowing how comfortable I’ll feel at the gym or in my active social life.

As for sex, I’ll take your advice and not wait for the discomfort to vanish completely. You’re probably right that this is just the path to getting my body used to its new reality.

Anyway, it’s a huge pleasure to share this experience and learn from you.

Thank you so much. A big hug.

Hi Fernando,

First, there is a linguistic misunderstanding regarding the word “shower.” It’s not shower as in “shower head”; it’s a person who shows, that is a show-er (pronounced so that it rhymes with “grower”). To give some context for the expression: a distinction is sometimes made, somewhat jestfully, between growers and showers (again: pronounced show + er). A grower is a guy whose penis is much shorter when flaccid than erect, so it grows a lot when he gets hard. A shower is a guy whose penis is pretty much the same length when flaccid as when hard, so he is showing off what he has, even when he’s not hard. In reality, these are of course not two distinct categories; you are really somewhere in the range between grower and shower.

And now to what this means for you as an implantee: The Titan cylinders expand in circumference when inflated, but the length is fixed; they are just as long when deflated as when inflated. This means that your penis will be almost as long when flaccid as when hard. (The only difference is that the glans may grow a little larger from sexual arousal, so your total erect length might be a fraction of an inch larger than your flaccid length.) So whether you were a grower or a shower (show-er) before you got the implant, you are now a shower.

As for the discomfort you’re having: based on my experience, that should keep improving over the next few months. Things just become more comfortable, even if your flaccid remains a bit turgid.

But it sounds as if you are having a problem with backflow: saline solution flowing back into the cylinders after deflation. I don’t really know much about that issue or if something can be done about it. I would recommend that you make a follow-up appointment with your doctor to show him your flaccid and your deflation technique and ask him if there is anything you could do differently.

I also responded to one of your other posts here on FrankTalk, recommending the same thing.

In any case, given that you are less than two months in, I’m almost certain that things will keep getting more comfortable on their own over the course of the next few months. Wherever discomfort you’re experiencing now, there will be less of it in a month, and still less a month after that.

Best of luck with your continued healing process. Let us know how things go.

Best,
NYCGay

[Echegollen]

This thread is very educational and entertaining at the same time. Thanks NYCGay.

I must say I'm surprised how fast you needed a revision (5-6 years). After all, Dr. Eid is one of the top surgeons for penile implants, and the Titan Coloplast is known to be sturdy... Could it be because of too many intense sex sessions?

[Fernando1998]

Good afternoon. I now understand the expressions "shower" and "grower." I used to be a "grower," whereas now, as you say, I am a "shower."

Indeed, I feel great discomfort when performing various movements, such as walking up or down stairs, bending over to pick things up off the floor, or any movement that involves slight pressure on the penis. I notice it feeling rigid and sensitive. I hope that with time all that discomfort will gradually disappear, because right now it is not pleasant. It is really the issue that worries me most—the comfort in the flaccid state (I know the Titan cylinders are very rigid, but I hope they become less so over time).

At least I think I have already mastered the deflation technique perfectly, I attach an image of the flaccid penis, even though the doctor told me that a small percentage of saline returning to the cylinders was common (which is why I feel the penis turgid, as if the cylinders were slightly full).

On the other hand, I feel the right cylinder is slightly bent, causing a small deviation to the right in the flaccid state (when erect, the penis remains perfectly straight), though I don't really care—it just adds an extra bit of discomfort to the flaccid situation.

As for my first sexual encounter, I followed your advice and yesterday I had my first encounter. I didn't want to penetrate the guy yet because I still feel some discomfort, but he performed fellatio on me, and honestly, the pleasure far outweighed the pain, so I am happy, and next time I will try to penetrate him.

As always, NYC, thank you very much for your words, which today are more useful than any other source of information, as I feel I am experiencing things that you have already lived through, and I feel extremely accompanied. A big hug.