So here’s the update. Everything is coming along pretty great overall in my recovery from my Rigi10 MPP surgery, and I had my 6 week follow up with Hakky today. Long story short, he cleared me for sex. So naturally, within about 10 minutes of the call ending, I had already grabbed lube + condoms, and a sex toy masturbator and was ready to rock. Who can blame me? I’ve gone six weeks without any kind of release and my libido has been out of control.
First of all - it was amazing realizing that I didn’t need to maintain my erection. At all. It was just there, and I could just relax and focus entirely on pleasure.
Now - onto the good and not so good. We’ll start with the later.
Not so good #1 - pain: even using lube and a condom, I did find I’m still VERY sensitive in areas around the glans and underneath the glans / in the distal areas. I’m definitely still healing, and I found there were some “hot spots” that were painful when entering and slowly thrusting into the masturbator. Even though I was going very slow. However - I eventually found a rhythm and weirdly, certain hot spots went away.
Not so good #2 - buckling: this is the one that really bothered me. Now - I KNEW when I chose the MPP that it was not going to be as rigid as an IPP. This was a risk I was well aware of. However - I’m still bummed to report that with the masturbator, there was some buckling when initially entering. I found that I really needed to stabilize the base when going in. Once inside, things were totally good. But I have to admit, that it actually did remind me of some of my challenges with my natural erection pre-implant while having ED, and that sucked. But to be fair, there’s a few factors that could be amplifying the issue at this stage. 1) although I straightened the hinge out as best I can, I couldn’t get my MPP hinge COMPLETELY straight. I recognize that even a slight bend here could possibly influence a little bit of buckling feeling on entry. 2) the masturbator itself. It’s a tight device. Even with lube, it’s probably tighter than ANY natural vagina. 3) this was literally my first time using my MPP, and I’d like to believe that I’m also just going to need to do some learning. What works, what doesn’t. Etc.
The pain I was expecting. The buckling I was not, and it sucked. When I started posting about my MPP surgery I promised I’d be transparent about the good and the bad of it - and I feel I’ve definitely been that way so far. In the interest of transparency, when I felt the buckling, I was hit pretty hard by a feeling of anxiety, a bit of frustration, and the feeling that I’d made the wrong choice. Being completely honest here, and only time and additional experience is going to tell. But let’s end this on a high note.
The good - I was able to orgasm and have plenty of sensation: I’m numb around my incision site and I expect that to SLOWLY heal over the next year. But even with that - and EVEN with the pain I was feeling - I eventually hit a rhythm, relaxed, and next thing I knew I came harder than I have in years. Seriously. Years. I was absolutely shocked. It was an absolutely glorious orgasm. The fact I haven’t masturbated AT ALL in six weeks is a key factor here too
. But honestly, I think a part of me eventually was able to relax during all of it in a way that I haven’t really been able to before because of my venous leak - even just during masturbation. And that played into it too. So all in all - my takeaways: I’m worried about the bucking. It really upset me and honestly pissed me off. But I’m hoping that some of that is just related to the reasons I listed above, and I think I need to get used to the MPP. I’m grateful I have plenty of sensation and was able to orgasm - I recognize that’s a gift especially this early on in my recovery. Lastly - I’ll admit I’m actually a bit nervous about actual sex with a partner. There’s a few old FWBs in the area I’d love to connect with again, but I’m going to give myself another week or two of healing first, because I do think I need to take things slow, get more accustomed to the MPP, and not overdo it.
Anyhow, curious on perspectives from the brotherhood. Thank you all for the support and community here.
