Titan Implant with Dr. Taj - Journal

[equusAz]

Congratulations!

Definitely looks good.

You'll definitely enjoy it. The pain will lesson over time - a LOT of time - so don't be in TOO big of a rush. Your sizing looks great! I had mine done at Chesapeake Urology (GBMC) in Baltimore by Dr. Segal. Once healed you will perform better than you ever have.

Enjoy!

[Mtricher]

Two Week Update

Haven’t posted much because things are not all that different, but each day get about 2% better. Here’s a few things I’ve noticed and have been thinking about.

Cycling – I do this for 2 hrs a day in the morning and for 30-45 min during my shower in the evening. Really tough to find the balance between pushing myself and managing pain. If I pump too much it feels like my dick is going to explode and I just can’t handle it for two hours. It’s a very distracting deep ache and sometimes pain that makes me squirm and watch the clock. More recently I’ve been taking it down a notch – I tend to push myself hard in general so it’s hard to admit that I can’t sit near my limits every day. Not sure the incremental gains of pushing so hard is worth it anyway. I’m looking forward to the day where I can pump it to rock hard without discomfort. Feels like a long time away.

Healing – My scrotum was dark purple for the first 12 days. Then I put a heating pad on it and it started to clear up right away. Much better now but still swollen (I had infrapubic incision). I can still feel some thickened tissue next to the pump but it’s easier to pump and deflate with less pain. I’m going to remove my staples in a couple of days, healing well. Still have a lot of swelling on the left side of the base where the tube run down to the scrotum.

Flaccid – I still find it very hard to find a comfortable position for my dick in my underwear. Whether I push it up, to the side, or down I am always bending the cylinders and creating a kink that I can feel under the skin. The cylinders want to be straight so bending in any direction causes discomfort. It is a bit more comfortable to keep things at 30-50% inflated. I think daily walking help because anything that flexes your cylinders helps soften them. At night though it’s rough. Almost every night I wake up with pain/discomfort because of the way it’s hanging. But during the day it varies greatly, sometimes I just can’t find a comfortable position and it hurts all the time. Other times, especially when sitting, I don’t feel anything and there is no pain. This gets just a little better each day.

Erections and size – Before surgery I was bone pressed flaccid and stretched to about 7.25. Erect was probably about 7 inches. I can’t do a bone press now because of the swelling but I’d estimate I’m at about 6.5”. Girth is similar to pre-op with 5” at the base and a max of 4.75 mid shaft. Hoping I can get the whole thing to 5” girth. My whole dick leans to the left and I have a left torsion of about 15%. I also had this pre-op so no big surprise. But it does look almost as though the right cylinder is pushing out further – but the tips in my glans are even. I do Perito bends to the right to help stretch the left side. I also have more swelling on the left and I imagine after time this will normalize.

Pump – My pump feels like it’s about in the right place, behind my left testicle. I pull on it each day. I can just get my fingers above the squared off top of the OTR so it hasn’t adhered to anything and I can kind of twist it around. I can definitely hear it when I pump – it’s a soft moaning sound, which surprises me because I though this pump was quieter. I’m getting better at not having it shoot out of my fingers too. I read that after deflating you should give the bulb a little squeeze to close the valve. I do this but it still feels like I inflate some anyway without intending. I’ve heard this could be residual fluid in the proximal cylinders. I think this will get better when swelling goes down and I can push harder. My dick does look like smashed roadkill when completely empty though. But from a distance I can’t imagine anyone would notice.

Sex – no intercourse yet but I’ve jerked off many times. Usually there is pain and pleasure at the same time. I can especially feel the pull on the pump when I clench down, a little spike of pain. I’ve also found that you can jerk off with only being at about 60-70%, makes it easier as long as you aren’t rough. Orgasms are pretty intense. I’m going to ask one of my “friends with benefits” to give me a blow job and tell me what it feels like. Being a guy, he should be a good judge how realistic it feels. He can also tell me what he thinks of my pump – what would he think it is and how much does he notice!

I could keep going…. So much to cover. I hope this helps. I’m only at 2 weeks so a long distance to go yet. I remember having so many questions – so ask away if you want.

[Mtricher]

Week 3

Things are going ok and gradually improving. Cycling still hurts and I’m trying not to overdo it so that I can stand it for two hours. Doing some light Perito twisting because my dick definitely points to the left, at about 11:00. It also continues to have torsion to the left at about 10-15 degrees. I cycle for 2 hours in the morning and then for 30-45 min in the evening. I inflate harder in the evening and getting into the shower to let the hot water hit my dick is like an orgasm itself! So much discomfort relief! I really don't know how people early on say they pump to the max and feel no pain. I feel like I'm going to explode and it's a constant deep aching pain if I start to push it hard. Can't imagine trying to pump until I can't squeeze anymore. My glans still doesn't inflate much but it did quite a lot before the implant. Most of the time it's small and cold, which is weird because I've always had a big glans. I can't do a BPL measurement because of the infrapubic scar but I'd estimate I'm at about 6.5 inches max right now.

The weird thing is that at the base, the right cylinder continues to bulge out a bit which may contribute to my leaning left. I do think I’m right sized and the tips are even if I straighten things out. Again, this might just be that I have a little less room in my left corpus cavernosum because of Peyronies. I’ll ask my doc about it on Friday. Can anyone feel tubing coming from the right cylinder in the proximal cylinder, sort of between the balls and the leg? I think it exits there but I’m not sure. My pump is on the left.

Getting some pain from the crumpling, accordion like rubber at the base when deflated. I can feel the edges and folds (dog ears) and they can push against the skin, causing pain. Everything smooths out when I inflate but it can hurt sometimes. At night I have been inflating more to smooth things out so it doesn't hurt. For a few nights I had a lot of pain near the pump, kind of dull pulling feeling. I couldn’t fall asleep for at least an hour from the pain – even after 800mg of Advil and a Percocet. Before bed last night I was careful to apply a heating pad to my balls and that seemed to help a lot. I also made sure I repositioned my dick throughout the evening so I didn’t build up pain pressure points from the folds. Slept much better last night.

A real game changer has been letting my dick hang down instead of flipping it up. I was allowed to do this after two weeks and it’s like night and day. It feels so much more natural and pain free to having it hanging down. I also bought some Separatec Underwear (see picture) which is so much more comfortable that what I had. I love how it lets your dick sort of stick out and not get smashed down. The movement and lack of restriction really help reduce pressure points.

I’ve noticed some thickened tissue in my ballsack near the end of the pump. I think it’s just scar tissue and inflammation, not an adhesion. I’ve been massaging it and pushing it around to make sure it’s not stuck to something. The pump does not hang super low though. I can just manage to get my fingers around the top of the OTR pump around the squared edges and feel the tubes going into it. I do pull on it and it may drop down a bit over time. It pushes my left testicle forward but it doesn’t hurt. Probably heat and massage will continue to make it better. Inflating is getting much easier but deflating can still be a bit painful. You really have to squeeze hard and do it multiple times. I do hate how the pump makes a soft croaking sound.

All for now! I love this forum. I search it multiple times a day for input on what I’m going though and it’s so helpful and reassuring. I hope my posts help others as well.

[Kodixx]

Mtricher, thanks for the updates, they are good reads. Your descriptions sound like a healthy recovery, and soon you'll be back in the saddle enjoying your new found bionic capabilities. You asked about tubing. I've always felt some on the left side but its hard to tell just how everything's routed down there. It was more noticeable while things were still healing at least until around 10-12 weeks. Best wishes !

- Chuck

Week 3 Things are going ok and gradually improving. Can anyone feel tubing coming from the right cylinder in the proximal cylinder, sort of between the balls and the leg? I think it exits there but I’m not sure. My pump is on the left.

[JohnnyBorg]

Week 3

Things are going ok and gradually improving. Cycling still hurts and I’m trying not to overdo it so that I can stand it for two hours. Doing some light Perito twisting because my dick definitely points to the left, at about 11:00. It also continues to have torsion to the left at about 10-15 degrees. I cycle for 2 hours in the morning and then for 30-45 min in the evening. I inflate harder in the evening and getting into the shower to let the hot water hit my dick is like an orgasm itself! So much discomfort relief! I really don't know how people early on say they pump to the max and feel no pain. I feel like I'm going to explode and it's a constant deep aching pain if I start to push it hard. Can't imagine trying to pump until I can't squeeze anymore. My glans still doesn't inflate much but it did quite a lot before the implant. Most of the time it's small and cold, which is weird because I've always had a big glans. I can't do a BPL measurement because of the infrapubic scar but I'd estimate I'm at about 6.5 inches max right now.

The weird thing is that at the base, the right cylinder continues to bulge out a bit which may contribute to my leaning left. I do think I’m right sized and the tips are even if I straighten things out. Again, this might just be that I have a little less room in my left corpus cavernosum because of Peyronies. I’ll ask my doc about it on Friday. Can anyone feel tubing coming from the right cylinder in the proximal cylinder, sort of between the balls and the leg? I think it exits there but I’m not sure. My pump is on the left.

Getting some pain from the crumpling, accordion like rubber at the base when deflated. I can feel the edges and folds (dog ears) and they can push against the skin, causing pain. Everything smooths out when I inflate but it can hurt sometimes. At night I have been inflating more to smooth things out so it doesn't hurt. For a few nights I had a lot of pain near the pump, kind of dull pulling feeling. I couldn’t fall asleep for at least an hour from the pain – even after 800mg of Advil and a Percocet. Before bed last night I was careful to apply a heating pad to my balls and that seemed to help a lot. I also made sure I repositioned my dick throughout the evening so I didn’t build up pain pressure points from the folds. Slept much better last night.

A real game changer has been letting my dick hang down instead of flipping it up. I was allowed to do this after two weeks and it’s like night and day. It feels so much more natural and pain free to having it hanging down. I also bought some Separatec Underwear (see picture) which is so much more comfortable that what I had. I love how it lets your dick sort of stick out and not get smashed down. The movement and lack of restriction really help reduce pressure points.

I’ve noticed some thickened tissue in my ballsack near the end of the pump. I think it’s just scar tissue and inflammation, not an adhesion. I’ve been massaging it and pushing it around to make sure it’s not stuck to something. The pump does not hang super low though. I can just manage to get my fingers around the top of the OTR pump around the squared edges and feel the tubes going into it. I do pull on it and it may drop down a bit over time. It pushes my left testicle forward but it doesn’t hurt. Probably heat and massage will continue to make it better. Inflating is getting much easier but deflating can still be a bit painful. You really have to squeeze hard and do it multiple times. I do hate how the pump makes a soft croaking sound.

All for now! I love this forum. I search it multiple times a day for input on what I’m going though and it’s so helpful and reassuring. I hope my posts help others as well.

Hey Mtricher, great to read your updates!

Out of curiosity - how is your IPP concealment when wearing pants? I ask because I’m at ~ Week 5 with an MPP, and the photo you posted with your separatec looks a lot like how my MPP currently hangs (I also have separatec and some compression boxers too). I find the separatec very comfy but my bulge can be harder to manage. I thought this might be an MPP exclusive thing, but have been reading that many IPP brothers also need to strategize on how to best conceal their implant on account of a more prominent flaccid state!

Anyways, just curious on your take. I hope you keep healing up and get to use your IPP soon!

[Mtricher]

Concealing the bulge is difficult. I am used to wearing fitted pants. Fortunately, I work at home so I can wear joggers pretty much every day. Unfortunately, I’m leaving for a business trip today and will be away for two days. I found some loose fitting pants with a lower crotch that are a darker color. You can still see me hanging a little bit to the left, but it’s not near what you would see in some of the fitted pants I have. I am worried about this long term since I don’t want to buy a bunch of new pants and I hate how loose pants look.

When I get comfortable enough for the tip of my dick to wrap down around my balls. I think I’ll be able to conceal it a bit better. The only way I think you could minimize the bulge is by flipping your dick upward or to the side. For me that’s really uncomfortable. I think the bottom line is you have to change the kind of pants you wear or just be OK with having a bigger bulge. I think lighter pants in general show it off much more.