Johnnyborg’s Malleable Journey

[JohnnyBorg]

Quick afternoon update:

Hakky said he’s not worried about bladder and emptying - I have noticeable bruising and swelling that he feels is weakening my stream. Gave me a prescription to help me pee better for the time being.

Pain is still okay, haven’t taken any oxy yet today. But I do feel some sensation coming back and with it, soreness.

Fun fact - Hakky mentioned that my surgery only took 30 minutes he also mentioned, unfortunately, that I didn’t bleed at all (which is a sign that I REALLY needed the implant, no blood in the tissues). Crazy. Really makes me feel even more confident in my choice.

Another fun fact: - Hakky decided to only undersize me by 5 mm instead of the full cm. I think his thinking was that because I’m younger and generally quite healthy that he could preserve a little bit more of my size. One of the many reasons I’m grateful I went with him - and really stresses the importance of going to an experienced surgeon that you trust.

[duke_cicero]

I'm one of the lucky ones that didn't have any problems filling a jug immediately after the surgery was over. I'm grateful for that. But the urinary issues you're describing are pretty common. There's a lot of internal swelling.

Crazy, though. 30 minute surgery and no bleeding? You definitely made the right choice.

Excited and hopeful that you'll continue to recover well!

[JohnnyBorg]

I'm one of the lucky ones that didn't have any problems filling a jug immediately after the surgery was over. I'm grateful for that. But the urinary issues you're describing are pretty common. There's a lot of internal swelling.

Crazy, though. 30 minute surgery and no bleeding? You definitely made the right choice.

Excited and hopeful that you'll continue to recover well!

Thanks Duke! Really appreciate it.

One thing I’m noticing is that my size seems smaller today than when I originally got out of surgery. Bruising and swelling is much more significant today than yesterday, so I’m wondering if that’s at play here. I have a picture from surgery where my penis seems to look a bit longer compared to where it’s at right now.

Only time will tell - right now, with the bruising and swelling, I’m clocking in around 4.3 inches. Hoping that my end size will be closer to 4.5 or above.

[duke_cicero]

I'm one of the lucky ones that didn't have any problems filling a jug immediately after the surgery was over. I'm grateful for that. But the urinary issues you're describing are pretty common. There's a lot of internal swelling.

Crazy, though. 30 minute surgery and no bleeding? You definitely made the right choice.

Excited and hopeful that you'll continue to recover well!

Thanks Duke! Really appreciate it.

One thing I’m noticing is that my size seems smaller today than when I originally got out of surgery. Bruising and swelling is much more significant today than yesterday, so I’m wondering if that’s at play here. I have a picture from surgery where my penis seems to look a bit longer compared to where it’s at right now.

Only time will tell - right now, with the bruising and swelling, I’m clocking in around 4.3 inches. Hoping that my end size will be closer to 4.5 or above.

Yeah, you need to give it time. Immediately post surgery, you're going to be girthy and huge because of the inflammation and bruising and trauma recovery that occurs basically instantly. But over time, that'll ease up. Don't judge the apparent size of your implanted penis except under absolutely ideal conditions. You need warm ambient air, or to be in a warm tub (not a hot tub) and to be aroused to really know where you stand. But right now your focus is solely on recovery and maintaining a living environment that is as free as possible of potential bacterial interference.

Take your Keflex twice a day (or however prescribed) exactly on schedule (if it was given to you). Don't be a hero when it comes to pain pills — you want to anticipate the pain so you don't run into a situation where you feel you really need the drugs and it's too late because then you need to metabolize the painkillers, which takes time. Stay hydrated. Track your protein intake. Keep up with electrolytes. Get things delivered to your home, if you can. Don't walk around anywhere unless you absolutely need to. Don't lift anything over 8 to 10 pounds or so. Make sure you're sleeping on your back, with your hips elevated using a pillow, to aid with drainage and circulation.

And don't freak out at this suggestion, but take your temperature a few times a day, just to make sure you're not dealing with a latent infection. I was an absolute insane person and took my temperature every 4 hours for the first month or so. Kept it all in a spreadsheet in case the worst happened and my doctor needed to know the timeline. Can you tell I work in management consulting? Lol.

Anyway, these are the things that helped me. I imagine Hakky gave you an awesome list and some great resources.

I know there's a lot of drama on this forum about size loss, but it's very difficult to even apprehend clearly what that even means. Your tissues are going to continue to change and adapt for the better part of a year. Probably even longer. The penis is dynamic tissue and very complex, and you're just getting started on your journey. Some days you're going to look huge. Some days you're going to look small, or smaller than normal.

Take into account that ambient temperature, hydration, sleep, stress, arousal, average blood pressure over the course of a week, etc. are all going to impact how large your penis looks at any given moment. After I'm done exercising, sometimes my penis looks pretty small in the shower. But a couple hours later, I'm back in business. This is because the body naturally pushes blood to the areas it needs most under stress/exercise.

And finally: Even if I was guaranteed to lose an inch off my penis, I'd still consent to the procedure. I'd do it all over again in a heartbeat.

[JohnnyBorg]

Yeah, you need to give it time. Immediately post surgery, you're going to be girthy and huge because of the inflammation and bruising and trauma recovery that occurs basically instantly. But over time, that'll ease up. Don't judge the apparent size of your implanted penis except under absolutely ideal conditions. You need warm ambient air, or to be in a warm tub (not a hot tub) and to be aroused to really know where you stand. But right now your focus is solely on recovery and maintaining a living environment that is as free as possible of potential bacterial interference.

Take your Keflex twice a day (or however prescribed) exactly on schedule (if it was given to you). Don't be a hero when it comes to pain pills — you want to anticipate the pain so you don't run into a situation where you feel you really need the drugs and it's too late because then you need to metabolize the painkillers, which takes time. Stay hydrated. Track your protein intake. Keep up with electrolytes. Get things delivered to your home, if you can. Don't walk around anywhere unless you absolutely need to. Don't lift anything over 8 to 10 pounds or so. Make sure you're sleeping on your back, with your hips elevated using a pillow, to aid with drainage and circulation.

And don't freak out at this suggestion, but take your temperature a few times a day, just to make sure you're not dealing with a latent infection. I was an absolute insane person and took my temperature every 4 hours for the first month or so. Kept it all in a spreadsheet in case the worst happened and my doctor needed to know the timeline. Can you tell I work in management consulting? Lol.

Anyway, these are the things that helped me. I imagine Hakky gave you an awesome list and some great resources.

I know there's a lot of drama on this forum about size loss, but it's very difficult to even apprehend clearly what that even means. Your tissues are going to continue to change and adapt for the better part of a year. Probably even longer. The penis is dynamic tissue and very complex, and you're just getting started on your journey. Some days you're going to look huge. Some days you're going to look small, or smaller than normal.

Take into account that ambient temperature, hydration, sleep, stress, arousal, average blood pressure over the course of a week, etc. are all going to impact how large your penis looks at any given moment. After I'm done exercising, sometimes my penis looks pretty small in the shower. But a couple hours later, I'm back in business. This is because the body naturally pushes blood to the areas it needs most under stress/exercise.

And finally: Even if I was guaranteed to lose an inch off my penis, I'd still consent to the procedure. I'd do it all over again in a heartbeat.

Thanks as always Duke! Pain and everything is already very manageable only ~24 hours after surgery.

Yeah, I’m going to be keeping a very close eye on all the same things you called out. Tomorrow I’m cleared to shower, so going to make sure everything is clean and properly dried, etc.

It’s interesting because I think my goal was to be at around 4.5 inches post surgery, since my erect and stretched length was closer to ~5 inches on a really good day. I think the thing that’s throwing me off is that this felt very conservative, but right now I’m clocking in a bit closer to 4.3 - which isn’t the end of the world but does feel odd.

I’m also holding out hope that I get residual erection and engorgement still - I had no problems with engorgement pre-implant. It was retaining the erection that was the issue.

Anyways - all of these things are important to me, but it’s still way way too early to be bugged by them. I’ve only been out of surgery for like, 24 hours. I gotta just stay focused on what matters most right now - recovery!

[JohnnyBorg]

End of day 1 post surgery:

Pain: some pain still peeing (resultant from catheter), and some aching from things feeling extra tight right now (swelling / edema) and the fact that there’s two foreign metal rods in my dick I’ve noticed that my pelvic floor is very tense. I think this is normal given all circumstances but I’m really hoping it starts to relax over coming days. I haven’t needed to take any oxy today, just did Tylenol.

Constipation: I was able to take a small poop, which was a relief. But nothing major yet. It’s tricky, because i think the tension I’m experiencing in my pelvic floor definitely is adding to the challenge. Hopefully tomorrow I’ll feel a bit better and can have a more significant bowel movement.

Overall: feeling good overall - my size is slightly raising my anxiety since it’s under what I was hoping it would be - I’m at 4.3 inches and was hoping for 4.5 or higher - but I also know that my penis is still swollen and bruised, and this is potentially making my penis seem a bit fatter than it is but also slightly shorter. The other thing is that I’m a little overweight and carry some fat on my belly and fat pad, but I’ve been slowly losing weight the past few months. So hoping continued weight loss might “reveal” some hidden centimeters of penis we shall see!

Honestly, for 24 hours out of surgery, I think I’m doing fairly well! It’s going to take some SERIOUS getting used to - I can definitely tell that’s going to be the case - but am still feeling hopeful and still feeling confident this was the right decision.

[Scott424]

End of day 1 post surgery:


Overall: feeling good overall - my size is slightly raising my anxiety since it’s under what I was hoping it would be - I’m at 4.3 inches and was hoping for 4.5 or higher - but I also know that my penis is still swollen and bruised, and this is potentially making my penis seem a bit fatter than it is but also slightly shorter. The other thing is that I’m a little overweight and carry some fat on my belly and fat pad, but I’ve been slowly losing weight the past few months. So hoping continued weight loss might “reveal” some hidden centimeters of penis we shall see!

The size you are looking for was that aroused or non-aroused, remember right now you are not aroused and will gain a little length in the glands when you are. I am now 7 weeks post-op and seem to be a little longer than I was after the surgery. Remember if you are still swollen in your fat pad you might not be able to press all the way down to the bone to measure (if you are measuring bone-pressed). I would not stress about size until you are able to have sex again.

[ElbowRoom]

I think the blood is normal, I had a little occasional spotting through the first week or so. As long as it’s not continuous and flowing, it’s likely fine.

Sounds like you’re happy with your results so far, which is great! All the issues of getting used to this new thing will get sorted out.

Thanks Elbow I really appreciate it!! How have you been holding up? Has Hakky had a chance to try aspirating the fluid pocket (I forgot what it’s actually called)?

I’m scheduled to have it aspirated on Feb. 4. I’ll let you know how it goes. Thanks for asking!

[JohnnyBorg]

End of day 1 post surgery:


Overall: feeling good overall - my size is slightly raising my anxiety since it’s under what I was hoping it would be - I’m at 4.3 inches and was hoping for 4.5 or higher - but I also know that my penis is still swollen and bruised, and this is potentially making my penis seem a bit fatter than it is but also slightly shorter. The other thing is that I’m a little overweight and carry some fat on my belly and fat pad, but I’ve been slowly losing weight the past few months. So hoping continued weight loss might “reveal” some hidden centimeters of penis we shall see!

The size you are looking for was that aroused or non-aroused, remember right now you are not aroused and will gain a little length in the glands when you are. I am now 7 weeks post-op and seem to be a little longer than I was after the surgery. Remember if you are still swollen in your fat pad you might not be able to press all the way down to the bone to measure (if you are measuring bone-pressed). I would not stress about size until you are able to have sex again.

Thanks Scott, I really appreciate it! I hope your recovery has been smooth. Yes, I’m going to refrain from overthinking the size aspect until I’ve healed up much more.

[JohnnyBorg]

I think the blood is normal, I had a little occasional spotting through the first week or so. As long as it’s not continuous and flowing, it’s likely fine.

Sounds like you’re happy with your results so far, which is great! All the issues of getting used to this new thing will get sorted out.

Thanks Elbow I really appreciate it!! How have you been holding up? Has Hakky had a chance to try aspirating the fluid pocket (I forgot what it’s actually called)?

I’m scheduled to have it aspirated on Feb. 4. I’ll let you know how it goes. Thanks for asking!

Excellent, I hope all goes well!