My ED story (UK)

[siltmonkey]

Week 5 so far

I’ve started going for walks. Actual outside fresh air time. At last. I’m a bit sore afterwards but everything is fine. Every day I seem to be able to bear underwear for longer. I have to kind of keep my dick pushed a little down but it’s bearable and not stretching or squashing anything. My wife bought me some ‘relaxed fit’ trousers which hide everything for now. Kind of hard to get used to, seeing as I keep myself trim and usually wear slim-fit clothes. Hey ho.
I have now managed to drive. It’s easy because it’s sitting down which is still the most comfortable position, and it’s note like I’m going to use my dick to change gear or anything.
Some things come as a surprise. The other morning I was wrapping presents and realised I was kneeling. Kneeling without pain or effort. I can crouch now, bend my knees. I’m a bit like a toddler finding out how everything works. I can’t go to the gym yet so I do upper-body workouts at home. That helps me feel better – exercise is definitely good for you.
On my latest walk I had my dick pointed down in my underwear. The first time I have been able to do it and not feel pain. I can feel it though. Every step I can tell it’s there. Perhaps this is what men with enormous dicks have to put up with every day. But it’s not painful. That’s progress. And it’s pointing down. That’s also progress. My wife says it doesn’t stick out too much either and if it does ‘show’ she kind of likes it. She also helped by wrapping a small bandage loosely around it so it doesn’t chafe. What a woman.
At this point I’m beginning to get microscopically less anxious. I currently have a large lump in my trousers. I remember the joke chinese proverb – ‘Man who walk sideways through airport door going to Bangkok.’ But it’s not so painful anymore. It inflates. I can deflate it quite a bit. And I don’t care that I probably won’t do the splits or conquer obstacle courses. I’ve already got some sensation in it. My mind is even turning to the possibility of sex. The last few, irregular orgasms I’ve had have been anxiety-riddled unsatisfying affairs. If I can give my wife an incredible feeling every time that would be amazing in itself. I have come to regard sex as largely mental anyway. A two-way street to be sure, but seeing how truly that girl has stuck to the ‘for better or worse’ part of the marriage vow, I’m going to put her first regardless. Then hopefully I’ll eventually learn to drive this new thing I have for my own pleasure.

Part way through the week I did a short trip with my family. A real trip outside! This must be how prisoners feel after release. I could even keep up with them while walking. Wasn’t expecting that so this is a high point. I’m steeling myself for some low points, of which I am sure there will be plenty. But let’s take a small victory.

There’s my low point. I got complacent and thought it was all tea and biscuits from now on. But no. Recovery is a rollercoaster. All morning I had my dick tucked away in my larger trousers with no problem. Look at me, world! I’ve got a large package! Pride comes before a fall. After lunch I inflated, left it for my required 15 minutes, then deflated, tucked it back in and boy did it hurt. Mostly in the perineum, a bodily area I had largely ignored until these medical shenanigans. Can’t ignore it now. Did I slightly over-inflate? Is that possible? This is a steep learning curve. Back to the pain medication. Paracetamol (tylenol in the US I believe) and codeine mix. Hope that kicks in soon.

Thankfully, the drugs do work. The pain has subsided like a politician’s manifesto and I’m back to where I was. Phew.

[Irish Lad 34]

Hey bro Great post - thanks for sharing.

We are on a similar timeline for recovery here because I was also implanted in UK almost 6 weeks ago. I had a penoscrotal Titan fitted.

The first few weeks were rough for me but I saw the most improvement around week 4 - week 5. Now at almost 6 weeks out I still get stiff and achy, mostly when wearing office trousers. I'm still a lot less flexible than I was. I'm finding it hard to make the new flacid comfortable. But I'm cycling every day and masturbating. Length is near enough what I had before with glans engorgement but I think I've lost a small bit of girth in the upper half mostly beneath the glans, and the shape has changed..

The only issues I can find myself are the slight loss of girth and change of shape in the upper half, and also some palpable tubing at about 4 o' clock beneath the base of my penis. It's mostly only palpable jutting out when I lye flat on my back, it's not as bad when I stand up straight. I'm thinking of having it reviewed in maybe 6 - 12 months to see if I can move that tubing out of the way.

Your post is good I find it most inspiring that you have already been successful in dating and successful in a satisfying long-term relationship with what seems like an amazing woman. This is an aspect of your case that gives hope to many of us!

With ED and the treatments it's a 2 sided coin for many of us. On the one side is the physical problem and the treatments, but on the other side is dating and relationships. Even after my implant - myself and many others will still struggle with confidence around women. I personally worry now will the shape of my penis be OK for a woman, will it have enough girth, will they judge me for having an implant, will the tubing annoy them etc etc?! I don't have much experience dating. I would like to find a partner and I now have the hard penis but I also find I now have anxiety about how I'll be judged for the implant and all that goes with it.

Your case is really inspiring because it shows that it is possible to meet women even if your erection is not 100% perfect or natural.