Yet Another Journal

[GoodWood]

Your husband sounds amazing. It’s great to have such a supportive partner in life. I’m glad you have your surgery scheduled and will be back in the saddle in 2026.

I’m happy to return the favor with a show and tell if you want to check out the classic pump. You helped me as I was getting ready to take the leap.

[NYCGay]

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Wishing you all the best and a speedy recovery.

Thank you! I appreciate it.

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I'm sure you don't need me to tell you that Dr. Eid will take good care of you.

Indeed. That’s why I’m going back to him, even though I can’t find out whether or to what degree it will be covered by my insurance.

[NYCGay]

I’m happy to return the favor with a show and tell if you want to check out the classic pump. You helped me as I was getting ready to take the leap.

Thank you, GoodWood! I will DM you.

[ElbowRoom]

Indeed. That’s why I’m going back to him, even though I can’t find out whether or to what degree it will be covered by my insurance.

I would think if the insurance covered the initial surgery, that they’d cover a revision. After all, if the revision isn’t done you’d be left completely impotent and with ongoing atrophy. That sounds to me like the very definition of “medically necessary”.

[NYCGay]

I would think if the insurance covered the initial surgery, that they’d cover a revision. After all, if the revision isn’t done you’d be left completely impotent and with ongoing atrophy. That sounds to me like the very definition of “medically necessary”.

Your reasoning is correct; your logic is solid. But unfortunately, that isn’t exactly the situation I’m in. The insurance I have now is not the one I had in 2021 when I got my implant. Back then, I had Aetna BlueCross BlueShield through my employer. That plan covered ED treatment, including implants.

Now I’m on my husband’s insurance with Cigna. This plan explicitly excludes any treatment for ED.

But, and here comes the ambiguity, the plan explicitly includes repairs and replacements of internal prostheses.

After doing some research online, it seems that the explicit exclusion doesn’t necessarily override the explicit inclusion. So Cigna may cover the replacement, even though they would not have covered a virgin implant.

I don’t expect my insurance to pay for anything that is not covered. My gripe with Cigna is just that they refuse to provide me with a definite determination beforehand.

But I’ll stop whining about my insurance (at least for now). I consider myself fortunate that I can afford to pay for the procedure out-of-pocket, and that I have a husband who tells me to go for it.

[cbinspok]

Good luck NYC
We’re rooting for you!

[ElbowRoom]

I would think if the insurance covered the initial surgery, that they’d cover a revision. After all, if the revision isn’t done you’d be left completely impotent and with ongoing atrophy. That sounds to me like the very definition of “medically necessary”.

Your reasoning is correct; your logic is solid. But unfortunately, that isn’t exactly the situation I’m in. The insurance I have now is not the one I had in 2021 when I got my implant. Back then, I had Aetna BlueCross BlueShield through my employer. That plan covered ED treatment, including implants.

Now I’m on my husband’s insurance with Cigna. This plan explicitly excludes any treatment for ED.

But, and here comes the ambiguity, the plan explicitly includes repairs and replacements of internal prostheses.

After doing some research online, it seems that the explicit exclusion doesn’t necessarily override the explicit inclusion. So Cigna may cover the replacement, even though they would not have covered a virgin implant.

I don’t expect my insurance to pay for anything that is not covered. My gripe with Cigna is just that they refuse to provide me with a definite determination beforehand.

But I’ll stop whining about my insurance (at least for now). I consider myself fortunate that I can afford to pay for the procedure out-of-pocket, and that I have a husband who tells me to go for it.

I had Cigna bedore I switched to BC/BS for my surgery. Cigna was a PITA to deal with and definitely didn’t cover it under my policy.

Fingers crossed for you, it’s a tough situation.

[NYCGay]

Good luck NYC
We’re rooting for you!

Thank you!

[NYCGay]

Cigna was a PITA to deal with and definitely didn’t cover it under my policy.

PITA indeed. I’m glad it was not just my imagination.

[NYCGay]

Thanksgiving

Today is Thanksgiving in the U.S. But I’m in Mexico now, and I’m not originally from the U.S. so no turkey for me. (Also, I’m vegetarian.)

But I do try to foster a feeling of gratefulness.

I’m immensely grateful for my supportive husband. Before I got my implant in 2021, he was weary of the idea. It seemed too risky to him.. What if something went wrong? And he doesn’t bottom anyway, so he was fine with my thickish turgid-but-not-hard cock.

But he knew how it frustrated me not being able to get hard, and how it ruined the joy I could have gotten – and he was getting – from the extramarital affairs we allow each other. Once I had made up my mind – I wanted an implant, and right away, as soon as the procedure could be scheduled – he was fully onboard.

He spoon-fed me my first meal when we got home after the surgery, as I was lying flat on my back in bed. I would have been perfectly capable of feeding myself, but it felt good to be pampered.

I’m also grateful that I’m scheduled do get my replacement implant four weeks from tomorrow, and for the sexual joy and intimacy, with my husband and others, that it will enable me to get.

Because being impotent sucks. (As if I had to tell information anyone on this site about that.) It doesn’t affect you just when you’re having sex – or would be having sex but can’t – it’s somewhere in your mind all the time. It was a great confidence-booster to know that I could always delivery sexually, and it’s an equally great confidence-sapper to know that I can’t delivery at all. It makes me feel like less of a man – which might have been fine if it made me feel like a woman instead, but it doesn’t; it just makes me feel like someone who’s excluded from the sexual side of being a human. When I get fucked, I feel like, and enjoy feeling like, one man submitting to the masculine power of another man, and I want to be hard for that too. Not being able to get hard, I don’t quite feel like having any kind of sex at all.

By that, I do not mean to denigrate guys who remain more or less flaccid when they bottom. On the contrary, I applaud them for the courage to engage in sex regardless. But I spent pretty much my whole adult life, up until I got the implant, obsessing over my inability to maintain an erection. I don’t want to go back there. It’s felt so good being able to get reliably hard, these last four and a half years.

So, yes, I’m grateful that I will be getting it back, for however few or many years it may last.