Hard flaccid has ruined me

[tommydog]

Whatever you do don't go for the implant. There are clinical risks associated with it and you are probably going to loose size. Thirdly, you are removing your natural physiology and there is no going back. Do you want to effectively turn your penis into an inflatable dildo dependent on bits of implanted plastic? Then you will need more revisions down the line, exposing you to more clinical risks. Its very probable in your lifetime there will be something better. I am 45 now and have never had an erection in my life good enough for sex, but I am hoping for something better in the next 20 years. Keep an eye on the scientific research, there are areas that could potentially cross over from other fields. Good luck and don't give up hope.