New Journal and Ramblings

[dan_bionic]

T+8
Time to leave Istanbul. This travel day has been difficult, especially trying to keep the implant positioned upward while avoiding any external contact or infection. Luckily, I booked a seat with extra space on the plane, which was more manageable than a standard seat would have been. Still, the combination of the slight pain, the paranoia that something could be wrong, and the usual hassle of airport lines and procedures made the short trip to Barcelona quite uncomfortable. It was not the best experience so far.
On the bright side, I can't believe how fast time is going. 25% done.

T+8
Now I'm in Barcelona, staying at my summer home where I plan on very little activity for at least a week. I've been sleeping fine, aside from some occasional bursts of pain and a weird sensation of liquids moving inside me. This was the first time I've felt that, and I panicked for a few seconds, thinking I was bleeding.

But it was nothing. Everything looks good physically, and it seems I survived the flight just fine. I can urinate normally with no pain. I'll put some ice on it later to calm things down.

I'm embracing the fact that this is just a matter of time, and I'm pretty sure the next week will go by fast. I can confirm that every day feels a little better. Seeing this slow but steady progress really helps your headspace and reinforces the recovery process.

Good to hear, you're at home and relaxing in your summer house. All looks well now and you just need to take some sunny time and forget about the flight, which is always a little difficult cause that's the first kind of pressure, especially in the plane and normal airport.

All the best for you
Dan

[proudz]

Hey man. Very well written post & we share a lot of similarities in our circumstances. I don't have much to offer this detailed analysis of your experience this far but wanted to drop a support & acknowledgement message.
I'm just over a year out & on the younger(ish) side too. Recovery was pretty chill for me but things got so much better in the months after surgery- like ability to orgasm timely & explosive AF feeling. I've had a lot of exciting hookups since implant that could not have happened with shots or anything just haven't dived into writing about them- sort of busy with work & it's summer here so living it up & there's always video games lol.
But wishing you the success I've had & keep us posted, bro.
So true that it is a psychological boost as much as anything for many of us. Rooting for you brother

Hello man, great to hear from you!

My mindset right now comes from the classic business mantra: sex sells. And I'm not just talking about hooking up in the back of a car; I'm talking about how that core confidence makes the women around you feel safe and secure.

In a professional setting, this is invaluable. For the past two years, I basically refused to deal with any women in my professional network. I knew that even if my ideas and projects were good, they would eventually smell my insecurity and walk away. I missed out on millions in potential profit by intentionally avoiding those situations. "Small dick energy" is a real liability, especially in high-stakes industries like mine (finance/tech).

My little bionic solves all of that with the press of a button, so I can already see how life-changing this is. Since my dick is another asset now, I need to take care of it and make it put up some numbers, lol.

I got curious and found the Opsite spray at Walmart.com for the US folks. It's apparently a wound barrier spray that is air-permeable but blocks water and bacteria from getting to the wound:
https://www.walmart.com/ip/Opsite-Spray-100-ml/14312956320
proudz, you are kicking ass brother...congrats on your newfound confidence! Did you get this lovely bird's number for possible later communication?

ElbowRoom,
I think, we are going to hear much more juicy stories as soon as Proudz starts to have great Sex with all the chicks out there!
Best
Dan

Haha, maybe I should start writing a book! Cheers, man!

I got curious and found the Opsite spray at Walmart.com for the US folks. It's apparently a wound barrier spray that is air-permeable but blocks water and bacteria from getting to the wound:
https://www.walmart.com/ip/Opsite-Spray-100-ml/14312956320
proudz, you are kicking ass brother...congrats on your newfound confidence! Did you get this lovely bird's number for possible later communication?

You bet! I got her number and Instagram.
The Opsite instructions from my doctor are as follows:

* One spray every morning upon waking up.
* Another spray one hour before showering.
* Shower only every two days, for no more than five minutes at a time.

Of course, everyone should consult their own doctor before trying this during their recovery. I did see some potential negatives on ChatGPT about how it could hide an infection, but to me, it just seems like a basic aftercare product. No big deal.

[ElbowRoom]

You bet! I got her number and Instagram.
The Opsite instructions from my doctor are as follows:

* One spray every morning upon waking up.
* Another spray one hour before showering.
* Shower only every two days, for no more than five minutes at a time.

Of course, everyone should consult their own doctor before trying this during their recovery. I did see some potential negatives on ChatGPT about how it could hide an infection, but to me, it just seems like a basic aftercare product. No big deal.

Good on you, once you're healed up go get her!

Definitely follow your surgeon's advice, but that spray looks like a good tool to have on hand in the fight for a smooth recovery!

[duke_cicero]

My mindset right now comes from the classic business mantra: sex sells. And I'm not just talking about hooking up in the back of a car; I'm talking about how that core confidence makes the women around you feel safe and secure.

Truer words have never been spoken.

[Jgoody]

Hey man. Very well written post & we share a lot of similarities in our circumstances. I don't have much to offer this detailed analysis of your experience this far but wanted to drop a support & acknowledgement message.
I'm just over a year out & on the younger(ish) side too. Recovery was pretty chill for me but things got so much better in the months after surgery- like ability to orgasm timely & explosive AF feeling. I've had a lot of exciting hookups since implant that could not have happened with shots or anything just haven't dived into writing about them- sort of busy with work & it's summer here so living it up & there's always video games lol.
But wishing you the success I've had & keep us posted, bro.
So true that it is a psychological boost as much as anything for many of us. Rooting for you brother

Hello man, great to hear from you!

My mindset right now comes from the classic business mantra: sex sells. And I'm not just talking about hooking up in the back of a car; I'm talking about how that core confidence makes the women around you feel safe and secure.

In a professional setting, this is invaluable. For the past two years, I basically refused to deal with any women in my professional network. I knew that even if my ideas and projects were good, they would eventually smell my insecurity and walk away. I missed out on millions in potential profit by intentionally avoiding those situations. "Small dick energy" is a real liability, especially in high-stakes industries like mine (finance/tech).

My little bionic solves all of that with the press of a button, so I can already see how life-changing this is. Since my dick is another asset now, I need to take care of it and make it put up some numbers, lol.




Hell yeah brother. Sounds like you got a good head on your shoulders. With your mindset, once healed up I believe you're going to slay.

I've always had like a swag (rizz lol) with women but lacked that deep down confidence due to my ED. It seemed like I was the only guy I knew who had that kind of shit reality- blessed to attract them but cursed to express it as a man. Of course I never spoke of it tho. Saw a DR early, at like 19, out of desperation & he didn't believe me so I just lived with it for the next 8 yrs.

When pills were working things weren't terrible because I had the ability to function all the sudden. Before that, my early relationships were tough- I just couldn't get it up for them & my shame was dominant, still is regarding those relationships. Hell, I even have a kid with one of them.

Anyway, as you eloquently stated- the psychological affect is as huge as the mechanical affect for many of us & I think letting go of that "little dick energy" should be of paramount importance for anyone who may hold onto it. Cheers mate!

[proudz]

T+11 We are so back!
Not a lot was happening the last few days, but as the forum wisdom says, every day simply gets better. It feels like I have a new 911 in my garage that I can't drive until next month.

The pressure has started to build, and my horniness is going through the roof. Especially since the bulge is noticeable now, and being the tallest guy on the street, it definitely catches some glances. But inside my head, I'm just thinking, "Man, Be responsible."

This confirms my theory that the biggest worry about length or girth is a self-imposed paranoia that only you care about. When you've already won the genetic lottery in other ways, nothing else matters once the bionic part is ready. My dick wasn't the biggest before, and now it's truly monstrous, and it's not even fully healed yet.

Regarding the physical recovery, I broke protocol a little bit today. I took a hot bath and tried to find the pump. I didn't have much luck, though I can find the valve easily and press the button without any pain. In theory, the pump is immediately next to it, about 2-3 cm away, but I can't really detect it or differentiate it from the valve. I was ready to try a pump or two. I guess it's just a matter of time, like everything else. also found the "dog ears" and just laughed about it; I don't care that much. I'm fully deflated now after being kept at 30% for the first four days, and I'm still trying to keep it in the upward position.

Needless to say, there's no real pain at all. Obviously, if I touch near the incision or other healing areas it hurts, but it's more of a sharp, nerve-related pain than a constant ache. I took some photos, and there are no black or purple areas, just a small pink skin spot which I assume is part of the stitches breaking down and the skin healing.

The worst part now will be the wait: waiting to finally feel the pump, waiting to be cleared to masturbate, and waiting to find the first poor lady who crosses my path.

Best wishes to all!

[dan_bionic]

T+11 We are so back!
Not a lot was happening the last few days, but as the forum wisdom says, every day simply gets better. It feels like I have a new 911 in my garage that I can't drive until next month.

The pressure has started to build, and my horniness is going through the roof. Especially since the bulge is noticeable now, and being the tallest guy on the street, it definitely catches some glances. But inside my head, I'm just thinking, "Man, Be responsible."

This confirms my theory that the biggest worry about length or girth is a self-imposed paranoia that only you care about. When you've already won the genetic lottery in other ways, nothing else matters once the bionic part is ready. My dick wasn't the biggest before, and now it's truly monstrous, and it's not even fully healed yet.

Regarding the physical recovery, I broke protocol a little bit today. I took a hot bath and tried to find the pump. I didn't have much luck, though I can find the valve easily and press the button without any pain. In theory, the pump is immediately next to it, about 2-3 cm away, but I can't really detect it or differentiate it from the valve. I was ready to try a pump or two. I guess it's just a matter of time, like everything else. also found the "dog ears" and just laughed about it; I don't care that much. I'm fully deflated now after being kept at 30% for the first four days, and I'm still trying to keep it in the upward position.

Needless to say, there's no real pain at all. Obviously, if I touch near the incision or other healing areas it hurts, but it's more of a sharp, nerve-related pain than a constant ache. I took some photos, and there are no black or purple areas, just a small pink skin spot which I assume is part of the stitches breaking down and the skin healing.

The worst part now will be the wait: waiting to finally feel the pump, waiting to be cleared to masturbate, and waiting to find the first poor lady who crosses my path.

Best wishes to all!

Proudz, if you feel the valve, why can't you feel the pump?
It's just below and much bigger

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[proudz]

Proudz, if you feel the valve, why can't you feel the pump?
It's just below and much bigger

Found it! The area felt more relaxed today, and I could feel the pump right on top of the valve. I think it was previously hidden under the swelling around the incision, so I couldn't get a good feel for it.

T+12
Well, I got a Hinge date with a 27-year-old lady for next Sunday (T+19). That motivated me to finally find the pump, so at least if things get intimate, we can do some oral or tantric sex.

You should have seen the look on my face when I found the pump and started using it. I felt slight discomfort but no real pain. I used my full palm and, while I don't know if I did it correctly, I gave it a few pumps—probably more than 20. I left it inflated that way for about two and a half hours. Since it was kind of uncomfortable to move or sit, I pressed the valve, pushed down on my penis, and it went back to its original size. I felt a great sense of relief that the system works as expected.

Tomorrow, I will try combining using the implant pump with a VED to speed up the recovery and get more accustomed to the feeling. Some doctors leave you pumped for weeks while others don't, so I just did a mix. I'm not sure what percentage of full inflation I reached, as I didn't continue pumping because I didn't want to force the machine this early. I'm really happy with the progress. Also, the scrotum is looking good, apart from the incision which looks about 25% healed. I'm staying hydrated, eating well, and getting some sun. Life is good, my brothers.

If you're worried about the pain, just consider that some forum members have other health conditions or previous issues with their penis. If you are otherwise healthy, I don't think the pain will be a major concern.

Godspeed

[proudz]

T+14
Well, it wasn't all going to be easy, was it? I had my first real paranoia attack today. The doctor cleared me to start pumping for five minutes at a time, doing about 10-15 pumps. While I was doing this, I felt a strange sensation of movement, almost like liquid moving around the pump. It didn't feel like saline; it felt more like fluid moving in the tissue.

I then did the worst possible thing: I asked ChatGPT. Of course, it told me this was a sign of an urgent infection that needed to be addressed by my surgeon immediately. I messaged my doctor, and he told me to stay calm and that it's impossible to have a leak in the tubes this early. But I started overthinking everything.

Did I use too much strength and break the tubing? That doesn't seem possible, since the connectors are really strong. Did I push too hard somewhere else and now I'm bleeding internally? In any case, I don't know what's happening inside, maybe it's just the tissue pocket that holds the pump settling. But damn, I'm really scared now.
I will try to pump again later to see if the device still works. If it doesn't, then I have a problem, because I'll need to go back for a physical check-up. Let's pray it's just paranoia, because there's no pain, change in color, or swelling.

Has anyone else experienced this? What happens if the saline solution leaks inside the scrotum? I would feel that somehow, since it's a liquid, right?

Next update in a week.

[Kodixx]

proudz, can't say that I've experienced exactly what you're describing, but I may have experienced something similar. If you experienced swelling or internal bleeding, it could be fluid that your body hasn't absorbed back yet. When I pump sometimes I feel the sensation of fluid (saline) moving around. If you have no fever, no swelling, no color change, and you're not feeling bad -- it seems unlikely that its infection. But I'd keep an eye on those things as long as you're concerned. If in the unlikely chance it is saline leaking out, remember its sanitary fluid intended to not harm the body in the event of a leak.

- Chuck

The doctor cleared me to start pumping for five minutes at a time, doing about 10-15 pumps. While I was doing this, I felt a strange sensation of movement, almost like liquid moving around the pump. It didn't feel like saline; it felt more like fluid moving in the tissue.
Has anyone else experienced this? What happens if the saline solution leaks inside the scrotum?