Conflicted: pump or semi rigid

[JH2007]

For me, initially, it was that I could not be too wild with cock. I want to fuck some ass:)!
Then, as time went on and I got this malleable, even though I have not used it, I already have seen the downsides. I may be able to conceal eventually, but it is painful right now.
The constant rigid state is making me change the way I sleep and actually have sex too!
With sleeping, I cannot just roll over, cock gets in the way.
With sex, at this point, if I am not careful, I can hurt myself.

How can you hurt yourself?

[Agfa13]

The tissues have not healed yet, so if I try any type of penetration, I will be 'forcing' the tips into the tissues, therefore hurting myself.
Right now, whacking off is not as pleasurable as it should be, as there are downsides to handling my cock. The feeling of cock being beaten raw, and when I piss, since I am uncut, just dabbing my cockhead is a little bit uncomfortable.