New to trimix ended up in ER

[Martin6469]

Agree with ...ButNotOff and RJ. I'll just add that some stays in my system for 36-48 hours, so I never inject again until three days have passed, regardless of whether or not it worked the first time.

[Nocturne]

You’re not alone - this is basically the situation I am in. My ER trip was in December. And yeah it was a bit more traumatic than I had realized in the moment.
I now have the Alprostadil but have not yet had a chance to use Trimix again. My wife is very busy and travels for work, her parents live with us and are elderly and sick (dad has cancer, mom has dementia), and we still have one child at home (teenaged daughter who is curiously resistant to the idea of changing her room to one that does NOT abut our bedroom, and yep she’s generally up there at night). Saturday and Sunday mornings are pretty much our only time to try, and that’s if nothing else goes wrong (the dogs flip out over nothing, our daughter has a bad dream and comes into our bed, etc).
We took the day off together Friday and thought we’d have some time then but oopsie doopsie we forgot the maids come on Fridays and are in the house until JUST about when our daughter gets home from school. Oopsie doopsie!
As it stands, I have almost an entire vial of Trimix that cost me $500 from the men’s health sharks I got it from in August, that I should just throw out at this point. And another vial that is close to a month old now without ever having been opened.
We have sex about once a week (this past weekend was a cavalcade of goofery where I got hard and comfortably inside my wife when she had a sudden leg cramp and that ended that, followed by my actually prepping a needle the next morning only to have her father text her about a dizzy spell he was having so she had to go handle that. Neither of those were on ME, so I didn’t feel so bad, but this morning we tried one more time before getting up for work (as she’ll be gone another three days) and yeah I did the “get plenty hard in her mouth only to lose it the moment I penetrate her” thing again, so… nope.
I’m tired. I’m so tired.
I don’t NEED the Trimix; I’ve had sex without it almost once a week (sometimes twice!) for all of these months. It’s anxiety ridden, white knuckle sex, but it feels great afterwards. I really do want to get proficient in using it though, for mornings like this one - but as it stands no way was I going to roll the dice on it after what happened the last time I used it on a workday morning.
I just keep reassuring myself that it will get better I guess. Until what? I can vividly picture all of this time as time I’ll look back on after finally getting an implant and thinking, “Why the fuck did I waste all of that time that I’ll never get back?”