Venous leak 27m

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I am 27m/6'3/207lbs and can confidently say I have never had a full erection in my life. Ever since I was young I had thoughts that something might be off but I believe i was completely in denial and thought my issues weren't real. I'd say the best I've ever gotten was a 50% erection, something that isnt suitable for penetration and it doesn't last very long. I've never really gotten morning wood either.

I got a penile doppler done recently and I was diagnosed with a right venous leak and arterial insufficiency. Here are the results:

15 mins post injection
Right Corpora PSV: 12.9
Left Corpora PSV: 18.7

Right resistive index: 0.8
Left resistive index: 1.0
I'm not sure why but an ESV was not included in the results

Some other things about me, my testosterone is quite good, in the 800 range. I don't always get the best sleep but it shouldn't be bad enough to never have achieved a good erection in my life

Viagra and daily cialis don't do anything noticeable for me. I go to the gym regularly and have started doing cardio but nothing helps. It all feels extremely hopeless. The fact that I cannot achieve a full erection doing all of this tells me that I am basically screwed, it shouldnt be this difficult or bad considering all the things im doing and how young I am. Urologist isn't really able to suggest anything besides supplements, and doesn't really recommend a penile implant (not that I really want to go that route).

I am suffering a lot of suicidal thoughts, and feelings of never being able to be in a stable, healthy relationship. I suffer from depression/anxiety and take 450mg of wellbutrin, and feel like it does nothing.

If anyone can please give me any sort of answer to this, I have been searching and trying things but it feels like im just hitting a brick wall and I don't know if I can mentally handle this much longer. I feel like giving up and everyday I wake up it's all I can think about. I can't even enjoy spending time with friends, social interactions, or any other activity because this dark cloud is over my head knowing that none of this matters and that the life I always wanted will never happen