greetings and intro!

[Jbcsatx]

Howdy from the great state of Texas! I am soon to be 53 years old and have suffered from ED all of my life-long before it was ever called ED. My first planned sexual encounter was a total failure at the age of 18. My college friends were banging a new girl every night and I had the desire but as you can imagine the humiliation when my first attempt to join the ranks of manhood ended in despair. I made an appointment with an urologist-remember I was 18. He did a brief look and tug and said it was all in my head and sent me on my way. He felt so sorry for me he did not even charge me for the office visit. A year later I went to an endocrinologist and was diagnosed with hypogonadism and given FSH, HCG, and testoseerone injections. I married a lovely lady and managed to father two adorable children but sex was hit and miss-most often a miss. We dove into our careers and the day to day responsibilities of raising a family and ignored the elephant in the room. I eventually quit the testosterone injections-they were painful and I did not like the emotional peaks and valleys. All of this eroded the marriage and I sank to rock bottom. About that time, Viagra and the internet came along and it was a life saver-a drug that produced a desired erection and the infamous chat rooms where I realized I was not the only freak of nature out there. But it was too late to save the marriage. Searching for answers to why me? I decided I must be gay-I was unsuccessful at being turned on by a woman that would have given any man a head turn and an erection. Well, Viagra enabled that but without it nothing! The ED drugs worked for about ten years but have now quit working and all I get are the unpleasant side effects. I am a health care professional so I have researched ED and am probably as well educated about it as most physicians. Knowing there were no new options on the horizon, I went to a renowned urologist here in San Antonio and he confirmed that my only hope was an implant-something I had known about for years but never considered until I made a friend that had had one. I told him to investigate whether my insurance would pay and in a few days his scheduler called and said she had a date of October 9, 2012 open. I readily accepted and have been on the internet 24/7 learning all I could since them. I have watched numerous videos of the surgery-seen before and after pics and was really pumped up and excited-what did I have to lose at this point-oh yeah maybe an inch lol! And I really don’t have an inch to spare. I found Frank Talk after doing a Google search to inquire about glans augmentation-an article that appeared on the evening news one night several months ago. Well, I have read almost every post on the site and am now scared *!*!less about the surgery. I had scheduled a week off of work and had plans of having the surgery on Tuesday-resting and recuperating on Wednesday-going to the beach house in South Padre to recover for 5 days and go back to work on day 9. I had no idea the recovery could be so painful and lengthy. I think I am not going to back out and hope for the best outcome with minimal pain, swelling, and positive results. I plan to journal my entire journey with you guys good or bad so get ready pics included. I would love to hear from any/all of you regarding your journey. We have all experienced the darkness, loneliness, and humiliation of living with erectile dysfunction and I am ready to finally feel like the man God intended me to be. I will always wonder why me-what is wrong with me-and maybe someday I will get the answers but am looking forward to functioning like a man should. Tell me I am crazy, but I am planning on doing this without anyone else knowing about it-not even my grown children. It has always been an embarrassment to me and definitely has not ever been a topic of discussion with anyone other than my doctor. I will start my posts and pics on pre op visit on September 26 which is also my birthday-this could be the best gift I have ever given to myself! Thank you all for sharing your experiences on Frank Talk…my hopes that my story will inspire someone else suffering to seek help regardless of if it an implant or not—sad that this is such a taboo subject even in the 21st century-every man thinks about sex every so many minutes-I have thought about the inability to have sex just as often over the past 30 years so I am ready to think about being able to not only think about sex but act on it whenever and for however as long as I want-Look out world!!!!! Man hugs to all of you!

[antelope]

So proud of you for taking this big step. It's never too late!

Best wishes for hard times!

Greg

[bob1138]

Welcome to FT.
This is a group of great guys who are more than willing to share their personal experiences with ED.
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Bob