34 and lifelong ED
Posted: Wed Jan 16, 2019 5:47 pm
Hi I have not posted before but I have been following the site for several years. I am 34 years old and have had lifelong Ed. I have known since I was a teenager that something just was not right with my penis. Ever since my first sexual encounter when I knew I was super turned on but nothing was happening downstairs. This moment of embarrassment scarred me deeply. I was afraid to date and put myself out there for the fear that when we got into bed I would be unable to perform. Meanwhile I was able to masterbate but as soon as I stoped stimulating myself the dick would immediately start to soften. I also would never get spontaneous erections that I would hear about from my friends.
Then in my early 20’s I started dating a beautiful woman that I had been friends with and things turned to sex. She was the type of woman that had lots of sexual experience and knew what she wanted in bed. I remember making out and her begging me to fuck her only to find out I had a limp noodle. She performed oral sex on me which was an ordeal but I eventually finished. She was very nice about it but I could tell that she thought it was her fault. We attempted sex on several different occasions after that and finally was able to get a partial erection that we could have have sex, if you want to call it that because it only lasted for a short time because my fear of loosing the erection. At the time I was super embarrassed and did not want to talk with anyone about my issue. After several months of this my girlfriend convinced me to go see a dr about it. So I went to the dr and got the typical reaction most young guys here have talked about being that they tell you it’s all in your head but here is some viagra try this.
In the beginning the viagra worked great and we were able to have decent intercourse but the sex was not that satisfying because I was constantly worried about loosing the erection and she was always thinking She was not turning me on. After another year we got married and then she got pregnant. A little while later I was noticing I was always tired so I went to the dr and had my testosterone levels checked. I was in the low 100s. The dr put me on the gels, patches and then finally she tried the shots to get my levels up in normal range. Also during this time the viagra stopped working so she put me on Cialis which worked for a couple months but stopped working as well. All the while my wife is getting more frustrated with the whole situation because all she wants is to have a hard dick to fuck.
Then one day I was searching the internet and I came across this site. I remember staying up late trying to learn as much as I could. After educating myself some I bought a medical ved. After a couple uses my wife came to the conclusion that it is impossible to keep the passion going when I have to stop and pump my dick up. I then took the plunge and called a reputable urologist at Keck Medicine of usc and made an appointment. This was the best thing I have ever done for myself. The dr was fantastic she didn’t look at me like it was in my head like the other dr’s had, she actually wanted to find out the problem. She sent me for a penile Doppler test and scheduled an appointment to see the PA for a prescription for Trimix. After the Doppler test I found out that I had a severe venous leak which caused the Ed.
The trimix worked great initially, I had erections like I had never had before and could last as long as I wanted. I was thinking this was going to change my sex life and fix the issues of a sexless marriage that we had. While my erections were great with trimix the spontaneity and passion was still hard to get. Eventually that mixture stopped working and the dr had to up the dose several times.
Now to where I am now, three months ago my wife of 9 years moved out and told me she wanted to divorce. She tells me that it is not because of the miserable excuse for sex but I know that’s a lie because I found out she had sex with someone only a couple weeks after leaving.
I saw the urologist last month and told him what happened and my concerns with trying to date and use trimix and upping the dose every couple months. He suggested getting a penile implant would be the solution. After reading hundreds of posts on this forum I knew a lot about them and told him let’s do it. My surgery is now scheduled for January 24th as long as the insurance approves the surgery. I am worried about the usual things everyone talks about like loosing length and the pain that is going to be involved.
At this point I don’t see another option , I don’t want to doom my myself and my next relationship from the start. After all I am only 34 right now and I don’t think that woman my age are very accepting of a man that cannot get A hard on. I am hoping that if I do this I can build some confidence that I have never had before.
Then in my early 20’s I started dating a beautiful woman that I had been friends with and things turned to sex. She was the type of woman that had lots of sexual experience and knew what she wanted in bed. I remember making out and her begging me to fuck her only to find out I had a limp noodle. She performed oral sex on me which was an ordeal but I eventually finished. She was very nice about it but I could tell that she thought it was her fault. We attempted sex on several different occasions after that and finally was able to get a partial erection that we could have have sex, if you want to call it that because it only lasted for a short time because my fear of loosing the erection. At the time I was super embarrassed and did not want to talk with anyone about my issue. After several months of this my girlfriend convinced me to go see a dr about it. So I went to the dr and got the typical reaction most young guys here have talked about being that they tell you it’s all in your head but here is some viagra try this.
In the beginning the viagra worked great and we were able to have decent intercourse but the sex was not that satisfying because I was constantly worried about loosing the erection and she was always thinking She was not turning me on. After another year we got married and then she got pregnant. A little while later I was noticing I was always tired so I went to the dr and had my testosterone levels checked. I was in the low 100s. The dr put me on the gels, patches and then finally she tried the shots to get my levels up in normal range. Also during this time the viagra stopped working so she put me on Cialis which worked for a couple months but stopped working as well. All the while my wife is getting more frustrated with the whole situation because all she wants is to have a hard dick to fuck.
Then one day I was searching the internet and I came across this site. I remember staying up late trying to learn as much as I could. After educating myself some I bought a medical ved. After a couple uses my wife came to the conclusion that it is impossible to keep the passion going when I have to stop and pump my dick up. I then took the plunge and called a reputable urologist at Keck Medicine of usc and made an appointment. This was the best thing I have ever done for myself. The dr was fantastic she didn’t look at me like it was in my head like the other dr’s had, she actually wanted to find out the problem. She sent me for a penile Doppler test and scheduled an appointment to see the PA for a prescription for Trimix. After the Doppler test I found out that I had a severe venous leak which caused the Ed.
The trimix worked great initially, I had erections like I had never had before and could last as long as I wanted. I was thinking this was going to change my sex life and fix the issues of a sexless marriage that we had. While my erections were great with trimix the spontaneity and passion was still hard to get. Eventually that mixture stopped working and the dr had to up the dose several times.
Now to where I am now, three months ago my wife of 9 years moved out and told me she wanted to divorce. She tells me that it is not because of the miserable excuse for sex but I know that’s a lie because I found out she had sex with someone only a couple weeks after leaving.
I saw the urologist last month and told him what happened and my concerns with trying to date and use trimix and upping the dose every couple months. He suggested getting a penile implant would be the solution. After reading hundreds of posts on this forum I knew a lot about them and told him let’s do it. My surgery is now scheduled for January 24th as long as the insurance approves the surgery. I am worried about the usual things everyone talks about like loosing length and the pain that is going to be involved.
At this point I don’t see another option , I don’t want to doom my myself and my next relationship from the start. After all I am only 34 right now and I don’t think that woman my age are very accepting of a man that cannot get A hard on. I am hoping that if I do this I can build some confidence that I have never had before.