Depression haven't moved out of bed for the 4 days

What are your fears? Ideas? Hints? to coping with ED. What helps you with your mental game? How are relationships affected?
young_and_impotent
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Depression haven't moved out of bed for the 4 days

Postby young_and_impotent » Mon Dec 30, 2019 12:54 am

Since the surgery I have been depressed about my length. Now I have a small and thin penis. I don't know why this happened I guess all the ED shortened my penis. But I had assumed sticking a rod on the OT would offset that. I regret not going for VED. Actually I did buy two VEDs but they didn't work.

I honestly don't believe cycling would help too much. My implant is too small. Going for a revision to Eid or Kramer in the US would be too expensive right now. I don't even know that I would they would even do the surgery or I would even gain any length. Honestly I'm half hoping this implant fails soon.

I am trying to buy a VED in India but I am not getting anything. Perhaps I will ask my surgeon, but he has to agree that post op VED works. I think I should give it a try.

Right now I'm supposedly 90% inflated and the pump feels like a rock. I would like to start cycling but it's too painful. I'm afraid if I deflate it I won't be able to inflate it again.

I am not angry with my surgeon. I think he tried his best.

Maybe I should accept my new normal which is 4.5 inches and move on. Maybe later down the road get a revision. Till then at least I can get hard right?
28 year old with severe lifelong ED.
Implanted in New Delhi on 26/12/19 with AMS CX (15x12) + 4cm RTE
Post op length 4.5 inches from ~ (5.5 to 6) inches. Disappointed!
Wish to have a revision to LGX some day.

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Re: Depression haven't moved out of bed for the 4 days

Postby Biker60 » Mon Dec 30, 2019 1:10 am

Bro

Take it easy on yourself. You just had the surgery and you need to heal. You do know that you will be amble to have sex with you implant. In your profile you indicated no erections in years. Well you are on you way. I have PD lost 3 inches from 6. I get implanted on Thurs. if I come out with 4.5 inches and straight, I will be happy. I was made no promises. I expect to be straight or have normal curve. I am a 90 degrees. By the way depression and stress impedes healing. That should be your focus. Heal, plenty of time to think about future plans. Heal first.

young_and_impotent
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Re: Depression haven't moved out of bed for the 4 days

Postby young_and_impotent » Mon Dec 30, 2019 2:49 am

Thanks for your kind words, means a lot. I hopeI will stop being so depressed once I heal completely.
28 year old with severe lifelong ED.
Implanted in New Delhi on 26/12/19 with AMS CX (15x12) + 4cm RTE
Post op length 4.5 inches from ~ (5.5 to 6) inches. Disappointed!
Wish to have a revision to LGX some day.

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Re: Depression haven't moved out of bed for the 4 days

Postby Txagq8 » Mon Dec 30, 2019 4:44 am

young_and_impotent wrote:I am not angry with my surgeon. I think he tried his best.

Maybe I should accept my new normal which is 4.5 inches and move on. Maybe later down the road get a revision. Till then at least I can get hard right?


I wouldn’t be too surprised to find that you’re way too busy with the women to have time for a revision.

Women are not, by and large, size queens. Yes all women are different but most seem to want a HARD dick that’s more or less average in size. 4.5 might be on the lower end of average but I think most statisticians agree that it falls within the realm of normal or average. I’m not lying to make you feel better. There are lots of guys just your size.

I spend some time at a website devoted to size. One site member is a former college athlete, former Navy guy, and he seems to get more and better Pusey than 10 other dudes combined. He’s 4x4. Refers to himself as hungnlike a chipmunk

I understand the angst about size. I might be the worlds worst. I’m starting this implant deal from roughly 7x6 and I went it back. But the truth is a big floppy dick isn’t much good for sex and if I end up trading size for rigidity, that’s what happens. I don’t think I need to elaborate on how tiresome it gets to spend two hours masturbating a slightly erect dick. And it takes so long to climax but as it just doesn’t get enough stimulation when deflarex.

I wish you continued good and sexually active Days in the future.
Robust, adolescent 65 year old. Venous leakage forever. Used shots, shots+pills 30+ years. Married to same wife ~35 yrs. Implanted 31Dec2019 in Austin Tx. AMS 700 LGX 18 cm with 5 cm RTE.

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Re: Depression haven't moved out of bed for the 4 days

Postby David_R » Mon Dec 30, 2019 9:21 am

Biker60 wrote:Bro
Take it easy on yourself. You just had the surgery and you need to heal.


I totally agree.

young_and_impotent
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Re: Depression haven't moved out of bed for the 4 days

Postby young_and_impotent » Tue Dec 31, 2019 8:25 am

Another day spent in bed, browsing Franktalk non-stop. Basically trying to cherry-pick stories were people increased their length who had CX.

Reading my favorite study over and over again.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5678524/

To be honest I was never the guy to measure his penis but I'm just so disappointed.
I have some hopes cycling, some with VED, some with daily cialis and exercise which would make my penis look fuller. I don't know how Cialis would help as the cavernosa part is now cut but people mentioned in the forum. Maybe that was only for glans.
I wish I had office work, at least I would be forced to do that. I don't have to go to the office till 6th. Hopefully, I make use of the next 6 days better. I have a new and exciting job to join at the end of February.
28 year old with severe lifelong ED.
Implanted in New Delhi on 26/12/19 with AMS CX (15x12) + 4cm RTE
Post op length 4.5 inches from ~ (5.5 to 6) inches. Disappointed!
Wish to have a revision to LGX some day.

notaes
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Re: Depression haven't moved out of bed for the 4 days

Postby notaes » Tue Dec 31, 2019 8:52 am

Hey buddy:

I hope you feel better and get out of the depressed state you seem to be stuck in! I have been married for 36 yrs and not one time has my wife ever said to me that she married me because I hate a great big dick! It is how you use what you have that makes a woman satified in the bedroom. I would love to have a dick a foot long like every other man out there but that is not reality. We men have been fed this load of bull ever since we have been alive and were still hearing it. It's not dick size but how you use your dick in the bedroom that makes a woman happy. I am scheduled for implant surgery on January 9th and I have made up my mind that I am going to be happy with whatever I come out of surgery with! As long as it is hard and works I am going to fuck my wife with it and be happy. I am 66 yrs old and been married for a long time and have had my share of women and I personally can tell you not one of them has told me they would like to have me for my dick size. I am just happy that implant surgery is available to men that have a problem with their dick. If implants were not available I would be approaching the END of my sex life. I'll take an implant any day and be happy with it. I hope you heal well and try to refocus on the good that will come out of you surgery that will make a difference in your life. I wish you all the best!
66 yr old male married 36 yrs use trimix four yrs, cilais and Viagra. trimix work well developed scarring on both sides had implant 1/9/2020 at UT Med Ctr, Knoxville, TN Dr. John Lacy.

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Re: Depression haven't moved out of bed for the 4 days

Postby young_and_impotent » Wed Jan 01, 2020 8:55 am

DAY 6

Another self pitying day spent in bed.
I thought I had healed a bit yesterday but today was pretty bad.
All I want is this lousy erection to go down. It pains when the head brushes against anything.
I can't imagine going to office like this. I hope I can pump before 6th. I just want to it pump down. I know pumping was hard but this pump is just rock hard.
Another shitty thing I noticed is that the right testicle sits above the pump and the left testicle below the pump. This is a major source of discomfort, at least right now. I have very small testicles, the pumps seems to outsize them.
Also there is still bandaging on the testicle, I haven't had a bath.
I don't have a bathtub or else I might have had a bath. I should probably still take a shower. The bandaging is water proof as per the doctor. Maybe a shower will make me feel better.
28 year old with severe lifelong ED.
Implanted in New Delhi on 26/12/19 with AMS CX (15x12) + 4cm RTE
Post op length 4.5 inches from ~ (5.5 to 6) inches. Disappointed!
Wish to have a revision to LGX some day.

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Re: Depression haven't moved out of bed for the 4 days

Postby rdnkbiker » Wed Jan 01, 2020 9:44 am

Young
you need to relax and cycle be patient I know that's hard but I felt the same way you did the first time my doc pumped mine I wanted to punch him but I found this site and a lot of guys that felt the same way it takes months its not overnight cycle give it a while try a couple more pumps and so on the implant material is tough stuff takes a long time to stretch just takes time and patients I found cycling in my hot tub really helped hot bath works to loosens that stiff implant up if you need anything write me PM hell ill give you my # if you need to talk hang in there youll see the light

Jim
I have had HBP since my 20s Full ED i was 55 when i recieved my implant January 18th 2017 cause of my ED sever scare tissue through corpora cavernosa clear to the glands (no blood flow) implanted with a AMX 700 LGX 18cm x 12mm x2cm rte

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Re: Depression haven't moved out of bed for the 4 days

Postby Aemill » Wed Jan 01, 2020 10:29 am

Hi dude,

You should not read about IPP and franktalk and start thinking about different stuff. Mayby watch television series or study something, get your mind occupied, mayby talk to friends and stuff. I have one close friend whom I told my secret about and whom I can vent my worries.

I have AMS CXR 14+6 and after 6 months I am 5,75 to 6,25 inches depending on glans engorgement, used to be 6,75. I was afraid that the prosthesis would be too thin CXR but it is not the case, the sex is great.

The worries with shorther length and narrower width went away after some sex sessions. My girl complains only about 1,5+ hrs sex :D
Born 1995, VL since 18, pills dont work, injections provide good 20 minute erection which hurts, implanted AMS CXR 14+6 due to fibrosis


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