I'd like to share my super weird story and get some hints to see things positively.
I am 25 yo, and never had ED and I have never had any psychological problems. ED didn't even cross my mind, my penis was ready whenever I needed and I had a good libido.
In dec 2019 I started dating a new girl and the second time we met we had sex, the first two times were pretty good, the third time (in three hours
![Evil or Very Mad :evil:](./images/smilies/icon_evil.gif)
After that day, we tried to have sex many times but my erection dropped during the penetration.
Covid has arrived and I haven't had the chance to meet that girl again.
Meanwhile, my masturbatory life proceeded pretty good: strong erections and no worries (once a day, most of the times watching porn) but I constantly had the attention on the quality of my erections (e.g. morning woods, change in the erection depending on the position, ecc..)
In january 2021 during a masturbation I suddenly lost my erection and I couldn't get it back.. I got really frightened: couldn't sleep and couldn't get erections for almost 2 weeks.
I decided to go to an urologist that visited me and told me I had no physical problem, thus my ED was 100% psychogenic.
Knowing this, things improved a little bit and I started having strong morning woods and sometimes (when I had no anxiety), also very good erections during masturbation.
By the way I now suffer from a tremendous performance anxiety (also during masturbation) and most of the times whenever I start getting an erection my anxiety inexplicabily increases and of course, my penis goes down.
I tried with a psychological teraphy but it just made things worse (I had just four meetings, but I was in a mood for which theraphy was just not helping), so three weeks ago I was so close to committing suicide that my parents brought me to a psychiatrist that prescribed me two antidepressants (Trintellix and Mirtazapine). I'm now feeling much better now and the suicidal thoughts are far now, but I still have a crazy performance anxiety that doesn't let me have or keep erection.
What kills me is that I have no physical problems at all as now I have very strong morning woods and when I soflty touch my penis and I think at something not sexual I get a valid erection, and as my anxiety level is high and I have very poor libido I do not think inibitors would help.
I'm just afraid I will never be able to have sex again as sex, erections and masturbation are giving me so much anxiety right now....