Well, my story is not the same like yours but still a bit similar:
viewtopic.php?f=6&t=10024&p=82728#p82728I have good days and bad days, but if I relax, take some Cialis or Viagra, have a women that makes me very horny and a glass of wine:
He works. Still.
But somewhere deep inside I have a wish (and I guess we all have it): I want to work like a sex machine, I want my dick completly under my control, like an ancient greek god, and what gives you more control over your dick than an implant, right? Thats what bothers me most: I lost control over him, I want the control back like I had im my 20ies. Women --> erection --> Sex.
BUT: I fear thats a completely wrong view, at least in our situation.
If there is a mainly mental reason for your erectile malfunction, I would at first rather go for a long term holiday or yoga or whatsoever - but not for an implant. Thats rubbish.
Why? I guess with ED your subconcious mind tells you (no - screams on you!): Change something in your life or in your complete mindset, there is something going very wrong.
And if you overplay that important message with an implant - the next step could be a heart attack, a stroke, cancer or something similar. An that would change your life for sure.
Sounds a bit esoteric, but these where my thoughts when I read your post.
So, my proposal: If - one day! - no pills or injections work: Reframe the whole thing again, go for an implant and live the fiction that you a greek sex god with divine control over your erection.
Before that: Stay human with all mistakes and shortcomings, convince yourself that your glass is still half full ond not half empty.
This is how I am trying to handle that tricky situation.