My jouney begins tomorrow!
Posted: Mon May 08, 2017 10:02 am
Greetings everyone!
I am brand new to this forum and never even imagined I would post to it, but here we go. I am married to the woman I have dealt with since I was 19. I am a 47 year old African American with type-2 diabetes. Over the last 10 years my diabetes has produced Peripheral Neuropathy, mostly in my feet and lower legs. For those that are unfamiliar with that condition, it is basically the feeling of having hundreds of little gremlins armed with saws, knives, pickaxes and flame thrower constantly going to work on my feet and legs 24 hours a day. The pain is excruciating and at times made me borderline suicidal. What happens is the nerves are dying in my feet and that is why all forms of pain radiate from those areas. The odd part that continues to baffle medical experts is Neuropathy is supposed to dull feelings to the point where those suffering end up having their feet removed due to the loss of feeling and basic life! My sh!t was the opposite. You do not want that pain! After months of trial and error with different medications and being a part of a research study at a medical university regional trauma center, and even close to dying from an allergic reaction to one medication they tried, we settled on high dosage of Lyrica to make the constant attack on my feet tolerable to continue my day to day. Side eff4ects of Lyrica you may ask yourself? Oh yeah. Lyrica basically is an anti-seizure medicine and tricks your brain into thinking there is no pain. But it also dulls feeling in other places…..yeah…….
So that slowly became an issue. I started alternating dealing with constant attacks on my feet so I can have sex with my wife, or ease the pain and just stare at my wife. That eventually became too much. I need to screw my wife...but the pain!!!!! Through some research I found something called r-lipoic acid which actually works to repair damaged nerves and I started using it. Surprisingly I was able to slowly reduce the need of Lyrica to almost not needing at all now.
Meanwhile, my sexual dysfunction started getting worse at it is determined it is s8impk,y due to diabetes just destroying blood vessels in that area. We tried Cialis. It worked at first then became useless. I tried a, these so called wonder pills and etc. and no luck. I tried Viagra and the3 normal dosage somewhat worked but the side effects were it totally clogs my sinuses and makes me slightly light headed. But damnit I need to screw my wife. We went away on a trip and I took 3 times the dosage of Viagra, because, well, I need to screw my wife. The end was she almost took me to the ER because I was so closed up, I almost couldn’t breathe. It was scary. So Viagra is off the table.
Finally, the urologist I had been seeing, Dr. Sergei Rome in NJ suggested injections and ultimately the 3 piece pump if that doesn’t work. I just couldn’t bring myself to the thought of having to stick a needle in my penis every time I want to screw. The thought is scary, not romantic, and not happening. And the thought of a permanent surgery with a button in my balls that needs to be pushed to get a hard on was absolutely ludicrous! This was summer of 2016. Well, at the end of the winter this year, the joke about a button in my balls went from being ludicrous to a viable option, and in large part thanks to the stories I found on this very forum. Plus, I need to be screwing my wife!
Here we are, May 8, and tomorrow morning, May 9, I go under the knife for my pump implant. I have done exhaustive research on this. I am trying to be mentally prepared to deal with potential weeks of pain and discomfort, but I have and still live neuropathic pain so I think I am ready for more pain. I am trying to wrap my head around what I am about to undergo. Can I deal with potential, failure? Potential loss in size (I was proud of my hard on state in the past)? Risks associated with any type of surgery? My wife is my rock! She has been behind me 100% every step of the way from the beginning. She is supporting whatever. Although she claims to be fine if I do not get this procedure, I know deep down she is feeling the pressure of her sexual needs is not getting met. I have used my tongue so much on her, my tongue can bench press a ton. But I know what she is missing, what I am missing.
I plan to try report my day to day progress after tomorrow. All I ask at this point is for those of you that do, just keep us in your prayers. My journey continues….
I am brand new to this forum and never even imagined I would post to it, but here we go. I am married to the woman I have dealt with since I was 19. I am a 47 year old African American with type-2 diabetes. Over the last 10 years my diabetes has produced Peripheral Neuropathy, mostly in my feet and lower legs. For those that are unfamiliar with that condition, it is basically the feeling of having hundreds of little gremlins armed with saws, knives, pickaxes and flame thrower constantly going to work on my feet and legs 24 hours a day. The pain is excruciating and at times made me borderline suicidal. What happens is the nerves are dying in my feet and that is why all forms of pain radiate from those areas. The odd part that continues to baffle medical experts is Neuropathy is supposed to dull feelings to the point where those suffering end up having their feet removed due to the loss of feeling and basic life! My sh!t was the opposite. You do not want that pain! After months of trial and error with different medications and being a part of a research study at a medical university regional trauma center, and even close to dying from an allergic reaction to one medication they tried, we settled on high dosage of Lyrica to make the constant attack on my feet tolerable to continue my day to day. Side eff4ects of Lyrica you may ask yourself? Oh yeah. Lyrica basically is an anti-seizure medicine and tricks your brain into thinking there is no pain. But it also dulls feeling in other places…..yeah…….
So that slowly became an issue. I started alternating dealing with constant attacks on my feet so I can have sex with my wife, or ease the pain and just stare at my wife. That eventually became too much. I need to screw my wife...but the pain!!!!! Through some research I found something called r-lipoic acid which actually works to repair damaged nerves and I started using it. Surprisingly I was able to slowly reduce the need of Lyrica to almost not needing at all now.
Meanwhile, my sexual dysfunction started getting worse at it is determined it is s8impk,y due to diabetes just destroying blood vessels in that area. We tried Cialis. It worked at first then became useless. I tried a, these so called wonder pills and etc. and no luck. I tried Viagra and the3 normal dosage somewhat worked but the side effects were it totally clogs my sinuses and makes me slightly light headed. But damnit I need to screw my wife. We went away on a trip and I took 3 times the dosage of Viagra, because, well, I need to screw my wife. The end was she almost took me to the ER because I was so closed up, I almost couldn’t breathe. It was scary. So Viagra is off the table.
Finally, the urologist I had been seeing, Dr. Sergei Rome in NJ suggested injections and ultimately the 3 piece pump if that doesn’t work. I just couldn’t bring myself to the thought of having to stick a needle in my penis every time I want to screw. The thought is scary, not romantic, and not happening. And the thought of a permanent surgery with a button in my balls that needs to be pushed to get a hard on was absolutely ludicrous! This was summer of 2016. Well, at the end of the winter this year, the joke about a button in my balls went from being ludicrous to a viable option, and in large part thanks to the stories I found on this very forum. Plus, I need to be screwing my wife!
Here we are, May 8, and tomorrow morning, May 9, I go under the knife for my pump implant. I have done exhaustive research on this. I am trying to be mentally prepared to deal with potential weeks of pain and discomfort, but I have and still live neuropathic pain so I think I am ready for more pain. I am trying to wrap my head around what I am about to undergo. Can I deal with potential, failure? Potential loss in size (I was proud of my hard on state in the past)? Risks associated with any type of surgery? My wife is my rock! She has been behind me 100% every step of the way from the beginning. She is supporting whatever. Although she claims to be fine if I do not get this procedure, I know deep down she is feeling the pressure of her sexual needs is not getting met. I have used my tongue so much on her, my tongue can bench press a ton. But I know what she is missing, what I am missing.
I plan to try report my day to day progress after tomorrow. All I ask at this point is for those of you that do, just keep us in your prayers. My journey continues….