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I'm moving into an apartment with my friends, as I was leaving the place I heard my roommate hav ing sex with his GF.

It hit me hard that I never got a girl to moan like that. All my years of relying on pills for a penis that can penetrate, is for nothing because it's JUST good enough for penetrating. My entire sex life revolved around taking viagra, stalling till it kicks in, than quickly penetrate before it's too soft again.

I had to speak loudly to myself in my car, everything needed to be vented but I have nobody to share this with. It was a very cathartic experience that allowed me to have peace with my decision to get an implant. Its either an implant or this miserable existence. I'm at a point where I fully believe I got nothing to lose.

Worst case scenario I'll be living with a malleable implant in my dick. It's much easier to get used to folding my dick than subject myself to all the humiliating experiences that culminated my sex life.

My appointment with Eid is in 2 weeks. I hope it goes well because I am fully willing to be 30k in the hole and pay it off over a year or 2.

Money is a problem that can be fixed, my dick ISNT.

Hope my 30s aren't nearly as pathetic as my 20s was.

I can FULLY relate. FULLY.
Not only do i - i speak for myself - have to put up with the inability of fulfilling an istinctive need human's existence is meant to be based upon. As it werent't enough, i even have to look around every fucking day of my fucking life and see guys of my age, in their mid 20's, fucking and getting girls satisfied and flabbergasted simply by resorting to the most natural and granted thing a man could possibly have: a functioning dick. The same thing i didn't get after losing the genetic lottery.
Nothing can make up for such humiliation, for the whole of devastating experiences i went through and for the awareness of being doomed to live and die as a miserable half man.
That's it, at least for me.
I'm gonna get implanted too, but, in my specific case, the psychological, social, relational existential full-blown devastation i've been experiencing is irreversible.
What's broken, is broken.
I hope you'll benefit from surgery better than i do.
Good luck.

Halfman wrote:I can FULLY relate. FULLY.
Not only do i - i speak for myself - have to put up with the inability of fulfilling an istinctive need human's existence is meant to be based upon. As it werent't enough, i even have to look around every fucking day of my fucking life and see guys of my age, in their mid 20's, fucking and getting girls satisfied and flabbergasted simply by resorting to the most natural and granted thing a man could possibly have: a functioning dick. The same thing i didn't get after losing the genetic lottery.
Nothing can make up for such humiliation, for the whole of devastating experiences i went through and for the awareness of being doomed to live and die as a miserable half man.
That's it, at least for me.
I'm gonna get implanted too, but, in my specific case, the psychological, social, relational existential full-blown devastation i've been experiencing is irreversible.
What's broken, is broken.
I hope you'll benefit from surgery better than i do.
Good luck.

You wrote my exact story. Would love to chat more with you guys if you want. I consider myself a very social, relatively decent looking 24 year old. Living with 3 guys in undergrad who constantly had girls home was a living nightmare. Forget the physical pleasure I’m sure they had. The mental agony I had was unreal and shameful, so I never told them

Baseballfan11 wrote:

Halfman wrote:I can FULLY relate. FULLY.
Not only do i - i speak for myself - have to put up with the inability of fulfilling an istinctive need human's existence is meant to be based upon. As it werent't enough, i even have to look around every fucking day of my fucking life and see guys of my age, in their mid 20's, fucking and getting girls satisfied and flabbergasted simply by resorting to the most natural and granted thing a man could possibly have: a functioning dick. The same thing i didn't get after losing the genetic lottery.
Nothing can make up for such humiliation, for the whole of devastating experiences i went through and for the awareness of being doomed to live and die as a miserable half man.
That's it, at least for me.
I'm gonna get implanted too, but, in my specific case, the psychological, social, relational existential full-blown devastation i've been experiencing is irreversible.
What's broken, is broken.
I hope you'll benefit from surgery better than i do.
Good luck.

You wrote my exact story. Would love to chat more with you guys if you want. I consider myself a very social, relatively decent looking 24 year old. Living with 3 guys in undergrad who constantly had girls home was a living nightmare. Forget the physical pleasure I’m sure they had. The mental agony I had was unreal and shameful, so I never told them

"Agony" is maybe the word which sums up everything.
I went through every tragedy you could possibly imagine during my existence.
But NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING, any existential tragedy, mourning, traumatic experience i went through during the course of my life gets even a bit close to the psychological burden of living with a limp dick. Again: nothing.
A walking miserable with a plastic dick pretending to be a man: that's who i am, who i'll be. That's what i was doomed to.
On top of everything, It hurts when, being 28, you live like and in fact you're an alien surrounded by individuals of your same age who, in the overwhelming majority of cases, don't even know what andrology is.
Instead, the only thing i don't know and i'll never know is what's like having a girl moaning, screaming and coming in front of a natural blood-filled erect penis. What's like to be a man.
One day i'm gonna end this pathetic existence and get back the dignity i lost.
That's for sure.

Halfman wrote:

Baseballfan11 wrote:

Halfman wrote:I can FULLY relate. FULLY.
Not only do i - i speak for myself - have to put up with the inability of fulfilling an istinctive need human's existence is meant to be based upon. As it werent't enough, i even have to look around every fucking day of my fucking life and see guys of my age, in their mid 20's, fucking and getting girls satisfied and flabbergasted simply by resorting to the most natural and granted thing a man could possibly have: a functioning dick. The same thing i didn't get after losing the genetic lottery.
Nothing can make up for such humiliation, for the whole of devastating experiences i went through and for the awareness of being doomed to live and die as a miserable half man.
That's it, at least for me.
I'm gonna get implanted too, but, in my specific case, the psychological, social, relational existential full-blown devastation i've been experiencing is irreversible.
What's broken, is broken.
I hope you'll benefit from surgery better than i do.
Good luck.

You wrote my exact story. Would love to chat more with you guys if you want. I consider myself a very social, relatively decent looking 24 year old. Living with 3 guys in undergrad who constantly had girls home was a living nightmare. Forget the physical pleasure I’m sure they had. The mental agony I had was unreal and shameful, so I never told them

"Agony" is maybe the word which sums up everything.
I went through every tragedy you could possibly imagine during my existence.
But NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING, any existential tragedy, mourning, traumatic experience i went through during the course of my life gets even a bit close to the psychological burden of living with a limp dick. Again: nothing.
A walking miserable with a plastic dick pretending to be a man: that's who i am, who i'll be. That's what i was doomed to.
On top of everything, It hurts when, being 28, you live like and in fact you're an alien surrounded by individuals of your same age who, in the overwhelming majority of cases, don't even know what andrology is.
Instead, the only thing i don't know and i'll never know is what's like having a girl moaning, screaming and coming in front of a natural blood-filled erect penis. What's like to be a man.
One day i'm gonna end this pathetic existence and get back the dignity i lost.
That's for sure.

I am not a mental health professional and can’t help you in that way. As someone who is going through what you’re describing hopefully you can at least find some comfort that you aren’t the only person out there in this condition. I’m sure more of us are out there. I’ve seen a handful of articles about a rapid rise in ED in young men. I am in the process of gathering more information so I can approach this issue with confidence, as others have. I have a lot of respect for the people on this board

Endoftheline wrote:I'm moving into an apartment with my friends, as I was leaving the place I heard my roommate hav ing sex with his GF.

It hit me hard that I never got a girl to moan like that. All my years of relying on pills for a penis that can penetrate, is for nothing because it's JUST good enough for penetrating. My entire sex life revolved around taking viagra, stalling till it kicks in, than quickly penetrate before it's too soft again.

I had to speak loudly to myself in my car, everything needed to be vented but I have nobody to share this with. It was a very cathartic experience that allowed me to have peace with my decision to get an implant. Its either an implant or this miserable existence. I'm at a point where I fully believe I got nothing to lose.

Worst case scenario I'll be living with a malleable implant in my dick. It's much easier to get used to folding my dick than subject myself to all the humiliating experiences that culminated my sex life.

My appointment with Eid is in 2 weeks. I hope it goes well because I am fully willing to be 30k in the hole and pay it off over a year or 2.

Money is a problem that can be fixed, my dick ISNT.

Hope my 30s aren't nearly as pathetic as my 20s was.

Brooo, I totally understand and can relate to your situation. It sucks that sometimes the mental/emotional pain of ED appears to be worse than the physical pain in a sense. Yes, we have the right outlook now, we just have to focus on solving this issue by any means/treatment and move on with life.

It's so good that more information about ED is available and advertised these days. It's not just us old guys who suffer from ED. As a young man my dick would get hard at the suggestion of sex. When pills and injections failed the implant was the only solution. I will say that years ago when wife & I married I could get her to moan, pant and breathe hard. We had sex daily, some days more. ED destroyed that for us, and as time passed and sex had to be planned or interrupted to go inject it just wasn't the same. Especially when things failed to give lift off.
Had my implant for 2 1/2 years now. Just the other day I had the wife moaning I'm cumming I'm cumming and I just keep cumming. Sex is like 20 years ago again!
I say any man who has issues getting or keeping an erection for sex to consider an implant. It can change your life.

Old Guy wrote:It's so good that more information about ED is available and advertised these days. It's not just us old guys who suffer from ED. As a young man my dick would get hard at the suggestion of sex. When pills and injections failed the implant was the only solution. I will say that years ago when wife & I married I could get her to moan, pant and breathe hard. We had sex daily, some days more. ED destroyed that for us, and as time passed and sex had to be planned or interrupted to go inject it just wasn't the same. Especially when things failed to give lift off.
Had my implant for 2 1/2 years now. Just the other day I had the wife moaning I'm cumming I'm cumming and I just keep cumming. Sex is like 20 years ago again!
I say any man who has issues getting or keeping an erection for sex to consider an implant. It can change your life.

it saddens me there there arent any long term studies with young men being implanted, when i do go for this procedure im basically going to be part of a data set to inform the next generation of what can go wrong.

Unfortunately, you will be a statistic for future men. That is a good thing my friend, help other guys who don't think it can happen to them. Good Luck, keep us informed.

I'm older than you are, I'm 69, but severe ED has also caused me to have depression and I broke-down 6 months ago over it. A VED has not solved my problem either - it's an Encore and is a total flop.
My doctor has mentioned a penile implant and it's my next step to having an active sex life.
Hope you have success and can get back to a sex life you enjoy.